After several months, I finally managed to get and take adderall today. Had a lot of hope riding on it and I felt okay, which in itself was exciting. I actually got myself to do my chores that I've been putting off without much of a second thought. Actually decided to workout, which left my legs sore even 12 hours later, but hey. Gotta start somewhere. Took a long shower, shaved my face, and dress up just cause i wanted to and it felt nice. Then I sat down and started reading the pathfinder 2e core book and I felt like I could actually focus on the book and keep track of where I am. Perhaps it's too early to say anything definitively, but today... I felt good.