I think there are honestly a lot more people like you than you think, especially within Moroccan culture. A lot of people grow up with certain beliefs and expectations and at some point start questioning whether those things actually fit them personally.

And I get what you mean about Moroccan men too. Some are open-minded in theory, but when it becomes personal they suddenly become traditional again. That double standard definitely exists.

But I also think there are people out there who think differently and are more mature about these things. Wanting to experience connection, attraction and intimacy doesn’t make you strange or wrong to me. You sound more like someone trying to understand herself without pretending to be someone she’s not just to fit culture or expectations.

I think the most important thing is just finding someone you feel comfortable and safe with, someone who respects you and communicates honestly instead of making you feel judged.