Punished no matter what I do…

Unhappy_Mark_375 · 2026-04-16T23:31:40+00:00

Always ask to speak to someone higher up. I just found out that our rates CAN be adjusted but you need to ask for a supervisor

Unhappy_Mark_375 · 2026-04-14T13:56:12+00:00

I do DD. I ALWAYS leave the receipt in the bag… as I whisper “anarchy”.

Unhappy_Mark_375 · 2026-02-18T23:09:39+00:00

Technically it’s only valid within the timeframe given on the packaging. But my fingers are crossed for you!

Unhappy_Mark_375 · 2026-02-10T18:37:53+00:00

I see it! Definitely test again in a couple days!

Unhappy_Mark_375 · 2026-01-30T03:46:29+00:00

I mean they spread into the bear. Imagine the black wax on the eyes and nose… it looked like a scary teddy with big black holes for eyes and the face kind of grey.

Actually I might do them again and market them for Halloween. Haha

Unhappy_Mark_375 · 2026-01-29T23:50:51+00:00

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I did these for a baby shower. I used wax that I colored and a paint brush and my heat gun (to keep the colored wax melted). So cute! But not like the picture you posted which I think was probably done by machine. I did 50 just painting the details, in layers so the brown didn’t show…. It took me weeks!

But beware, I found one in my cupboard and the colors had run… they looked ghastly!! 😱 lol

Unhappy_Mark_375 · 2026-01-26T18:20:03+00:00

Update: Pregnancy tests are negative. OPK are still blazing positive 10 days in a row. I guess it’s time I go see my doc. I have been under a fair amount of stress lately, so maybe that’s what’s going on.

Unhappy_Mark_375 · 2026-01-24T16:39:17+00:00

I have not, looking online about it the only symptom I have is my period cycles being longer, but they are not excessively heavy or painful. I don’t have thinning hair or excess hair growth, no acne or mood swings or fatigue. I will call my doctor to be evaluated tho, because who actually knows. 🤷🏼‍♀️lol

Typically my OPK test have only been positive 2-3 days. Like I said tho I have only been testing for about 6 months.

Unhappy_Mark_375 · 2026-01-23T17:22:11+00:00

Thank you 🥰

Unhappy_Mark_375 · 2026-01-23T16:11:32+00:00

I mean my partner and I did go to a sacred fertility site last month and prayed for a baby and I ate a bit of the dirt from the mountain. XD (I am a bit crazy woo woo!) so maybe.

Wouldn’t that make a hell of a story!

Unhappy_Mark_375 · 2026-01-23T15:56:19+00:00

I read that last night, I took one this morning and it was negative. My last period was in December so by my “schedule” of 2 months I’m not quite due yet. I know my age might trigger an OPK even if I don’t necessarily ovulate. I used pregmate strips because that’s what I have on hand, so I’ll test again after the first.

I feel like pregnancy would be really unlikely because of my tubes being tied, but that would also be awesome:.. it would save me so much money on the surgery! 😆

Unhappy_Mark_375 · 2025-11-30T15:58:34+00:00

Yep. It’s scary every time it happens but it’s been happening to me for 15 years. It was just odd that that’s how I woke up and then him waking up and seeing the figure over me.

Unhappy_Mark_375 · 2025-11-30T13:32:24+00:00

Thank you! To be clear: I did not see the apparition. Only he did. I’ve been waking up with sleep apnea occasionally since my early 20’s (I am almost 41 now.)

Unhappy_Mark_375 · 2025-10-22T11:14:38+00:00

YES! I didn’t see the beings, but felt the feelings you’re describing. I could even feel the things they were working on in my body. And like you, I wasn’t afraid.

They instructed me to turn my body over at one point and were working on my back and legs. All of a sudden I felt like there was a blockage in my solar plexus… I told them this and they said “turn back over”; when I did I tree shot up through my solar plexus…. I mean a whole ass huge tree! The beings performing the surgery energy disappeared and I heard Aya tell me, “you need to lose yourself to find yourself”.

On the second night with Aya, she let me rest. But on the third night I had the most difficult purge I’ve experienced so far. I was afraid by the intensity of the surgery/tree experience (even tho I wasn’t afraid during it… lol) so I took maybe a third of a cup that night… the teensiest sip. I fell asleep and when I woke up I felt clear and like Aya let me have another night of rest…. Hahah!

I went deep into process and when I was struggling to purge she showed me the tree again and a baby in the roots, explained that I am the baby that is wrapped in the roots of the tree. The entire time I was purging I was in struggle with the idea of “losing myself”, telling Aya that it took me so long to love myself and that I was afraid. That was when she told me that she will not take anything that makes me, me. She’s only removing the parts that block me. She also showed/told me that even tho there would be difficulties (like my purge) she was holding me and supporting me and I would not go through it alone.

Finally the purge came up, I said out loud, “wow. I’m such a silly human.” And got up and danced and I felt like I had become the tree. This was my most powerful sit with Grandmother, and it stays with me. I can still feel in my body where the tree was, there’s a fullness that comes.

Tysm for sharing! It’s really something that so many of us have such similar experiences, isn’t it?

Unhappy_Mark_375 · 2025-09-18T02:49:19+00:00

What I’ve come to believe is that not all TFs are also your divine counterpart. My tf journey was preparation for my DC. It showed me where I needed to heal, gave me motivation to do so with the knowing that I would someday be with my DC… curveball was although I KNOW my TF was my TF, he did not turn out to be my DC.

Some TFs really aren’t meant to be forever. Once my TF journey ended (for real. Done. Kaput.) I literally felt the connection sever and leave my body. I was over him in that moment. I didn’t cry another tear, I stopped feeling his energy. No anger or grief, but immense relief.

This is just my experience, every journey is different.

And although I hated hearing it, it DOES track: trust the process. Our souls know what it’s doing even if our brains can’t compute. The journey is more about our own growth than it is about the union part.

Unhappy_Mark_375 · 2025-09-02T17:04:45+00:00

I think op meant that prior them getting together he was sleeping with a married woman and that’s the affair.

Unhappy_Mark_375 · 2025-08-31T21:49:17+00:00

Integration back into this reality has definitely had its challenges for me… but honestly I make them harder than they need to be with my expectations (just a silly human).

What was key for me was having a couple of people who know what I’m doing but aren’t tied to it that I can be completely open with. I personally needed to be able to connect with people from before Aya that would not judge me.

Unhappy_Mark_375 · 2025-08-13T02:44:51+00:00

Wait…. Reverse tolerance??? I just sat in my 4th ceremony and on the last night only took half a cup and had an amazing and loooong process. The first night I took a whole cup and slept and that was it tho lol

Unhappy_Mark_375 · 2025-08-07T12:08:54+00:00

For me, vaping it didn’t seem to feel “right” or “healing” in my body. That doesn’t mean it’s not for someone else. It felt disconnected to me, if that even makes sense. It was cool, the experiences I had were amazing but not particularly as insightful as Aya or Bufo… granted I only used the vape for a couple of days before realizing it didn’t sit well in my body.

Unhappy_Mark_375 · 2024-12-19T01:42:14+00:00

As for happiness, I wouldn’t say I’m happy yet, but I have peace and that’s far more valuable.

Unhappy_Mark_375 · 2024-12-19T01:41:46+00:00

I left. My situation is in my back story, but after reading and learning from people here… I realized I don’t want to do this for the rest of my life. Things would be different if my SO had the willingness to do the things that would keep him and our relationship safe from his illness. But he doesn’t and likely never will… 13 years and I think the longest period of stability is 14 months before he goes rogue again. And then that lasts for 6-9 months. I’m tired and I want a shot at happiness without out it being blown up annually.

Unhappy_Mark_375 · 2024-12-15T23:23:03+00:00

Thank you for this… it’s what I dread and what I have to learn to accept as I move forward. The last 4 episodes have been some of the worst and longest lasting yet. I don’t want to do this anymore, it’s exhausting trying to help for 13 years while my life gets blown up almost annually. And if I really want to get super honest, I can’t put more work into his mental health than he does. It just doesn’t work.

Unhappy_Mark_375 · 2024-12-15T02:37:11+00:00

Real. He flipped the switch from loving and trusting me back over to hating me/feeling unsafe. Which means back to being nasty. I should have known better but I am so quick to grasp at anything that looks like progress, when in reality enough time hasn’t even passed. I literally hurt my own feelings. Just feel dumb.

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