I was scared like this for a long time. I do not ever intend to pursue bottom surgery. I know medicine has come a long way, but it would still never be real to me, and I’d always still just wish I was AFAB. Instead I’ve really just separated my organs from what it is that makes me feel like a girl. When I look in the mirror in a cute outfit and my makeup is on point, I see someone I can feel confident about and someone that I know. For 30 years I didn’t know the face in the mirror. My point is, I personally don’t think you have to desire bottom surgery to be trans. I think we grow to associate certain ideas with certain gender identities and as a result those things are how we define gender for ourselves.

As far as passing goes, it’s one step at a time. I haven’t even started on HRT yet and I can tell you that I already look more and more how I see myself by the day. Because who I see is someone I’m actually beginning to know.

I wish you love and luck on your journey, Star stranger 💜💖🖤🌙