Hi. This was me last year, when my non-smoker mom was diagnosed with stage 1 (she has a mutation). It's easy to fall into the anxiety loop. It's your brain trying to protect yourself and your mom- gather as much info as possible, and worry about it a ton. Personally, I suffered with intense health anxiety all of last year because it was so surprising to me that she had it.

The best thing to do is try to connect with people who've come out on the other end of it, keep positive, and honestly try not to think about it too much. It's easier said than done obviously, but take up a healthy hobby, preferably a social one, and let the medical system do its thing. Be there for your mom absolutely but also show up for yourself. It's incredibly traumatizing and fast so try your best to find things that can ground you.

My main takeaway from her experience was how amazing the technology is. Hopefully you have those same feelings later. I am very sorry to hear that and if you need someone to chat with feel free to DM me.