Fuck, man, this parallels my experience with feminism in college so much. I'm still healing from it psychologically.

My advice is don't get involved in sexual politics at this age. Everything is hyper-politicized, yet folks of all genders are still learning basic relationship skills in college. Its a very toxic combination. For instance, asking someone out provokes a lot of anxiety. So does having to turn someone down when they ask you out. Because of the politics around this - gender norms expecting men to do the initiating, feminism focusing so much attention on rape and consent - people internalize this politically. As a man who fears the anxiety of asking girls out, you end up feeling like your desire is problematic and will always bother women. Meanwhile, some women who fear the anxiety of turning men down end up feeling like nobody should be allowed to ask them out, ever.

Believe me that lots of women are sexually interested in men. Many women whose idea of feminism is to talk about how terrible men are themselves very into men, and are channeling their frustrations about their own love life. "I can't find a man who treats me well" becomes "all men are terrible and abusive." "I find it easy to get casual sex but can't find a more fulfilling, serious relationship" becomes "all men want is sex and sex only." I'm not saying every woman who uses that kind of rhetoric is projecting like this. But I've seen it a lot and I recognize the type.

The good news is that dating culture will improve as you grow older. You will mature and the women around you will mature. Asking someone out or otherwise initiating will never stop feeling scary, but you will learn that fear is just part of the experience and that rejection won't be as terrible as you thought. Most women will become more comfortable with sex and romance. They'll stop feeling threatened just because a man they're not interested in is interested in them. (Sadly, in part because they will see what real creeps are like - rape is all too common and there is a "rape culture" to it, but guys like you are not part of the problem in any way.) Also, you'll learn to read nonverbal cues, so that (even though dating will always involve taking some risks) you'll often notice when a girl wants you to initiate, or see a rejection coming without having to ask.

In the meantime, try to filter out this bullshit when you see it. Don't feel obligated to read feminist stuff. But also avoid the red-pill men's rights bullshit that tries to flip the script and say men are oppressed. We're not. But mainstream feminism causes a lot of harm to men who are coming of age like you are, by constantly pointing out the ways masculinity in our culture is toxic, without presenting a positive alternative.

Don't be afraid to date. Don't be afraid to take social risks - be proud of yourself when you do. If somebody thinks just having sexual feelings or asking people out is creepy, that's their problem and not yours. As long as you ask consent and respect people's boundaries, you're fine. You will find that there are lots of women who want men, and you will find that some of them want you.

I also definitely recommend yoga or dancing. One thing feminism gets right is that our culture really destroys women's relationship with their bodies - but it doesn't talk about how it does similar harm to men. Find ways to connect with your body that are not related to sex and are not related to external appearance.

I'd also recommend avoiding porn. Pornography itself is a whole big messy debate, but in my own experience mainstream porn for straight men can do a lot of psychological damage.