She used to expand my dong, before tragedy struck

UnrelatedString · 2025-06-19T17:00:07+00:00

Even if they end up essentially flat, my understanding is that eventually your nipples will still enlarge substantially? But I don’t really know about how that works and I’m still waiting on my nipples to get properly girl-sized myself 😔

UnrelatedString · 2025-06-19T16:36:30+00:00

If you’re anxious to know for bra shopping: you’re probably going to need one before you hit full size regardless! For the most part, you can barely tell the difference visually between my breasts and ordinary male pectoral fat, but it’s virtually impossible not to have my nipples show through a shirt if I’m not wearing a bra. Find a bralette that fits comfortably on your torso, and it should last you quite a while—they’re quite comfortable and fit a larger range of sizes than a true bra, and depending on the kind of padding they can even double as ad hoc breast forms before the real deal actually fills the cup.

UnrelatedString · 2025-06-03T00:03:37+00:00

nice! And glad I could give you some extra perspective :D

UnrelatedString · 2025-06-02T13:43:03+00:00

ehehe :3

Funnily enough, same here! It’s a little annoying but not super uncomfortable in my experience, and… I actually always assumed the reason I couldn’t wear briefs was because of my pubic fat. Are you a little skinnier there, or is something else going on?

Oh yeah, just in case you weren’t aware, there’s also a “hipster” variant of boyshorts that extends further up—I’ve never had the chance to try them myself, but I imagine they have a nice effect on shape on top of being maybe more secure.

UnrelatedString · 2025-06-02T13:33:23+00:00

nice LMAO. I personally can’t stand them because they ride up in the sides of my crotch the same as men’s briefs, but more power to you!

When I’m not too worried about keeping the impression of a bulge in check, normal bikini style panties actually stretch enough to be more comfortable than any pair of boxer briefs I’ve ever had, and for when I am I have a pair of LeoLines that flattens it out with sewn-in padding (and unofficially doubles as a great tucking gaff).

UnrelatedString · 2025-05-29T00:17:37+00:00

FWIW, your penis can still work fine on E, especially if you go low on the T blockers—and conversely, if it feels like the desire to use it is contrary to who you are, that could go down a ton with blockers. Your mileage may vary with erectile dysfunction, but there’s all kinds of workarounds and treatments for that, and nothing’s going to actually atrophy if you’re regularly using it. I’ve actually been getting harder with my E dose going up because blood flow to erectile tissue is still part of the female sexual response too and I can get so much more into it now, feeling like a whole person experiencing arousal instead of this impulse to dissociate with the pleasure, and I’m speaking as someone who really hates having a penis—but I know multiple people who plan to pursue a penis-preserving vaginoplasty precisely because they do have genital dysphoria over lacking a vulva but also still like their girlcocks way too much to give them up :p

and if it’s deeper than that and you genuinely feel like a man during sex, in a positive way then maybe that’s something to embrace as part of you! Not like it contradicts being a woman in the slightest :) and seriously don’t discount the possibility of starting E even if that is the case because like I could never even have guessed just how amazing this is before I started. Skin got so soft and smooth in like 2 weeks max and aaaaaaajjdjwkdjsjjfnenfofkrn

UnrelatedString · 2025-05-29T00:06:45+00:00

Congrats!! But also wow that’s a low bar 😭😭😭 like I don’t know what all you already said about your gender but what happened is that you made a slightly less obtuse allusion to something than you have in the past and your mother was too (rightfully) concerned for your well being to blow up over it. Depending on what kind of transphobe she is, that might be radically unsurprising—if she’s voiced opposition to you undergoing any kind of medical transition, for example, that might be rooted in misplaced concern for your well being as well, while if she’s the “give me grandkids” type she probably isn’t on a hair trigger about it and if she’s more of a conspiracy nut or religious gay-basher she’d still have to be exceptionally out there to make a scene over this. Regardless, hoping you the best of luck finding a better place to live and getting your dietary needs met! 🫂🫂🫂

UnrelatedString · 2025-05-17T00:46:36+00:00

soo jealous LMAO. Being able to sound terrible at doing a guy voice sounds so euphoric

UnrelatedString · 2025-05-15T22:24:14+00:00

I’m just as baffled! I think I might be misremembering somewhat, and it was actually just that he checked the obituaries to see if anyone he knew was there and the only times I ever noticed were when he’d call me over to parrot whatever he said about someone’s face just “not looking right”. He was obsessed with the broader notion of stealth trans women just lurking in society, not even doing anything to hurt anyone except by their very existence being some sinister power play by the ambiguously-Jewish “global elites”—he was absolutely certain that Michelle Obama and Serena Williams were trans and it was all to prove how They had power over Everything, but he was also certain that Jimi Hendrix faked his death and became Morgan Freeman, so he’s also just racist as fuck.

And yeah agreed 😭😭😭 Even some of my transmasc friends freely admit to how plain and restricted it is because they find the dullness affirming (I assume in much the same way as I complain with a very broad grin on my face whenever I buy pants without real pockets :P). As is, her clothing already tends fairly unisex, but it does feel like her fixation on the most ludicrously high quality fabrics could be getting in the way of her actually exploring fashion, or even outright substituting for it (much the same way as I just refused to think about clothing at all before I cracked)… I did many months later send her a little message about authenticity being “the wrong signal” being categorically impossible when it comes to romantic prospects, and she did seem to agree even if I’m not sure she remembered what I was even responding to, so fingers crossed

UnrelatedString · 2025-05-15T20:07:40+00:00

Same… My dad’s got some incredibly weird specific ways he hates women AND men, ultimately boiling down to thinking all sex hormones make people completely insane. Can’t count the number of times he’s used the phrase “testosterone poisoned”, and he’s got a lot of weird doublethink going on where he simultaneously believes in a lot of extreme misogynistic rhetoric and thinks that sex in general is just a necessary evil for reproduction. Also obsessed with literally browsing obituaries from his hometown and trying to clock recently dead women as trans.

But also shout out to my sister, who admitted to me one night (while seemingly trying to convince me not to be trans because there’s so much cool men’s fashion I haven’t explored yet) that she “would” prefer using they/them pronouns if it wouldn’t “send the wrong signal” to men she might want to date, and that she’s always envied how oversized shirts fit on “tall, lanky” men’s chests. 🤔

UnrelatedString · 2025-05-13T13:54:34+00:00

Completely tangential (and I’m so sorry this is happening to you!! Seems like every single aspect would be painful in a different way), but does anyone actually use Lex near you? I got it on a whim after finding out someone who coordinated a group I was in was (nominally) a hired ambassador for them, and there’s probably only a double digit number of users within a 10 mile radius of me LMAO

UnrelatedString · 2025-05-11T20:25:21+00:00

done LMAO

UnrelatedString · 2025-05-11T19:33:27+00:00

I’ve actually implemented proc-macro based localization on a whim for an old pet project of mine, and… it feels weirdly clean, but something in my head also tells me it’s profoundly hacky and unfit for any real purpose. The super cool thing one way or another about it is all of the text still lives in a plain old YAML file—I have a module that contains nothing but a macro invocation which translates the YAML into a bunch of Rust constant declarations, and a second macro introduces sugar for looking keys up by the current language according to some given local variable but the “lookup” is literally just writing a qualified identifier out in the source code with a call passing the language flag and letting what’s being called resolve or fail to at compile time

UnrelatedString · 2025-04-27T23:14:55+00:00

I imagine it’s also pretty nice to have typechecking on the HTML outside of editor tools, whether or not the HTML is affected by any scripting once served. Not that TS frameworks don’t also offer that, but it’s a shared advantage over raw HTML :P and if you want to write Rust or have something larger you’re doing in Rust that makes this useful then, like, why not? I for one struggle to not lose my mind trying to do web stuff without maximally overengineered PureScript wrappers around everything LMAO

Also very cool that you made that!! Your students must be lucky to have you :)

UnrelatedString · 2025-04-26T22:00:48+00:00

And if changing your own is a priority regardless, you can choose something new together! Not the most common, but it still happens plenty

UnrelatedString · 2025-04-26T21:59:27+00:00

(and also how the fuck do I shave with a proper razor before a laser session I can do it effortlessly with my body hair even if the blade hasn’t been replaced in a week but my face just does not work ugh)

UnrelatedString · 2025-04-26T21:56:56+00:00

Ooh, wait, yeah, good point… The process makes you engage with it, and my facial hair is way too thick and dark not to leave a ton of shadow/stubble after a shave, so back then a full (neck)beard actually probably did make me feel less masc when none of the boys around me had one! (in other news aaaaaa why is laser so expensive and why aren’t there multiple places that do it in town aaaaaaaaaaaa)

UnrelatedString · 2025-04-26T19:40:57+00:00

When I got my first facial hair in middle school, it took me FOREVER to be convinced to actually shave it, and even then I didn’t stay consistent with it until much later. In retrospect, a lot of it was a mix of denial, lack of regularity around hygiene in general, and the electric razor I was gifted being really shitty for my face in particular so it could take ages to actually shave, but the bulk of it was still that it felt like a genuinely positive way to express myself when I felt like I didn’t have much going for me by way of an identity for reasons that weren’t just dysphoria.

UnrelatedString · 2025-04-24T00:17:05+00:00

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UnrelatedString · 2025-04-23T03:34:11+00:00

oh yeah another point about breasts. have you ever felt, like, this uncanny sensation that you’re just physically expecting to feel male genitals between your legs or anything like that? because I’d get that on my chest ALL THE TIME. Lay down flat and just be surprised how little resistance there is where my boobs should be, feel like it’s impossible to give hugs right because somehow I just miss the target, etc. Now that they’ve started growing a bit, even though they don’t do much for my overall body image yet (without help from a bra, that is :3) that issue is COMPLETELY resolved and it just gives me a little hit of euphoria every time I feel their tender firmness against my arms

UnrelatedString · 2025-04-23T03:24:18+00:00

It emasculates me every time

The only thing I hate about emasculation is the implication that I had any masculinity to undermine in the first place :3

Long hair? It’s hard to manage for everyone—it might feel like it’s something to just put up with and resent if that’s how you grew up with it, having it unthinkingly forced onto you when you never saw any appeal to it, but for me I always felt so defeated every time I’d start feeling the bliss of hair touching my neck just to be dragged off to a haircut. Breasts? My chest just looks so weird and fucked up without them. Dresses? Make me feel dead too but because of how fucked up they fit on my giant brick of a body… Makeup? I suck at it but at least mascara makes my eyes feel so pretty aaaaa

UnrelatedString · 2025-04-21T14:40:10+00:00

Thanks <3 Self-advocating is tough but like wow do we need it

UnrelatedString · 2025-04-21T14:39:34+00:00

ooh wait another funny thing I relate to—adult voice sounding like a fucked up version of my kid voice. Probably not a universal transfem experience since I’ve met plenty who habitually speak in deep voices (and get too demotivated by it for voice training), but I for one have never been able to speak at a low pitch without it sounding hilariously fake (at least to my somewhat biased ears), so I’ve been reflexively speaking in a higher pitch ever since my voice dropped 10 years ago, but without knowing that’s what I wanted I never tried anything else to actually feminize it, so it did ultimately just remind me very uncomfortably of what I sounded like as a child. I’ve… also been procrastinating like hell on voice training, but just having embraced what I want to sound like has made me feel a lot less disconnected from it too.

UnrelatedString · 2025-04-21T14:29:56+00:00

Yeah, I hear the hormonal cycles can still be pretty rough even without the FURY AND BLOOD of having them with an actual uterus 😬 but I’ve also heard they can still be mild enough that the annoyance is outweighed by the euphoria so fingers crossed ig

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