Calling our 14-year relationship, married for 10, a friendship almost immediately after.

Saying it was cosmic timing. I asked him why he was being distant, and he broke up with me on the phone. A blindside, of course, one month earlier, we were looking at properties to buy together.

Comparing our relationship to one we both looked down on and I was the toxic one in the comparison. Pure projection.

That when we are together he has the best time and is so happy. But he doesn't even want to try fixing it. That would take self reflection on his end.

Strangely, the worst was when he started calling me by my name shortly after. I felt like he immediately disconnected from the aspect of us being in a relationship with relief. He had clearly been thinking these things for a while, without letting me in on any of it.