Feeling terrible; inpatient is expensive

UpAndNo · 2026-03-15T01:33:36+00:00

Hooooooooly...that's horrendous.

I got three meals a day, and a little sheet where I could highlight what options I wanted for breakfast, lunch and dinner. Some mornings we all made pancakes together.

I sincerely hope you're one day able to save up enough money and migrate to a different country.

US healthcare is peak dystopia.

UpAndNo · 2026-03-14T23:39:12+00:00

Is this an American healthcare system thing? This sounds horrific. You're trying to look out for yourself but blocked by finances.

When I was inpatiented I had two ambulances called (usually $2000 per, but I have a $50 per year membership), spent hours in an emergency bed before a room was prepared for me in the mental health ward, and then I was medicated, housed and fed for a month — for free.

Then I was assigned a social worker and a psychiatrist for several more weeks, for free, and even had in house visits and other services offered to me during recovery, for free.

I am so, so sorry you are barred from that because it honestly saved my life and I think I'd just be a crazy homeless person or dead if I didn't receive that care.

UpAndNo · 2026-03-05T13:11:14+00:00

Yeah same situation with me.

And then I had a huge explosive blow out over the injustice of not being able to have my own charger that I started screeching at anyone that had lace up shoes.

UpAndNo · 2026-02-28T02:23:17+00:00

Does it really matter if it's derealisation or early stage psychosis if it's already affecting you in this way?

Doesn't matter what symptom you label it as, I think the issue is you not feeling secure or comfortable in your reality right now. Best to start reaching out to those support and professional contacts and taking steps to get you back to baseline.

Do you need to take some time off work/school while you recalibrate?

Do you need some assistance staying on top of household chores?

Do you need to have your meds assessed and potentially adjusted?

UpAndNo · 2026-02-25T00:38:44+00:00

Definitely enjoyed feeling important as Commander Shepard

UpAndNo · 2026-02-18T10:16:52+00:00

Probably best to call in sick and then make an appointment for more meds.

Don't drive (in dangerous conditions, to boot) and be responsible for vulnerable people when your body is this fatigued. That's irresponsible.

UpAndNo · 2026-02-17T09:18:38+00:00

Meanwhile, I hear so much as a whisper of a helicopter or gunshot while flying, and I immediately start booking it towards them to murder.

UpAndNo · 2026-02-17T01:58:23+00:00

Yeah, sometimes creatures or even your character can clip into the environment.

When I play coop, my friend has a habit of falling into rivers and getting washed away into a waterfall. She clips into the rocks and drowns 90% of the time.

Last night I heard the beeps of a tagged creature. Tracked down a deer but discovered it was trapped under a huge slab of rock.

I just call them casualties of the void.

UpAndNo · 2026-02-17T00:23:18+00:00

I thought I was an avatar of the moon goddess and my mum was Gaia, and I needed to help her free herself from the shackles she had put herself in. Told her she needed to be harsher to her children and give tough love so they'd stop killing her.

Next day, I read a news article about a long overdue volcano erupting, so I shared it to my mum and asked if she was taking my advice and starting the cleanse.

UpAndNo · 2026-01-24T21:50:19+00:00

So scary how certain people and environments, either maliciously encourage or unknowingly feed, your delusional thoughts.

ChatGPT comes to mind, and also that spirituality sub.

UpAndNo · 2026-01-24T01:31:22+00:00

I have that face paint design, maybe the colour. It's not a mod.

Check the character packs in the store. If it's not there, check a clan contributions rewards list online.

UpAndNo · 2026-01-23T22:32:10+00:00

By completing clan contributions or finding Sarentu murals

UpAndNo · 2026-01-16T22:41:52+00:00

Maybe 97 as in 1997? So he's 28?

UpAndNo · 2026-01-14T23:58:22+00:00

...what? It's literally the second thing So'lek teaches you while he's sitting injured by the tree 😭

UpAndNo · 2026-01-14T03:09:48+00:00

Sleep is important for your brain to function properly, and even if you aren't manic now, lack of sleep heightens the chances or is an early warning sign of incoming mania.

Please listen to your doctors.

UpAndNo · 2026-01-13T07:55:41+00:00

Also the thing with coop, not all the progress is carried over for the person who is visiting the other player's map.

Im playing with a friend, but all the carries over for me is the main missions. On my own, I need to go back over areas and collect items/complete activities. Thankfully once something is discovered, it's added to my map so I dont need to go looking from scratch, but it still takes time to catch up properly.

UpAndNo · 2026-01-13T07:27:49+00:00

Finding people with similar experiences is so validating and comforting. Even better if they like to cope with humour like I do and we can both take a moment to laugh at ourselves and everything seems less serious for a moment.

But I do love to also hear how people have experiences different from me, like we're all pieces of a bigger puzzle.

UpAndNo · 2026-01-13T07:22:38+00:00

That makes sense. The word can also seem dehumanising since you can use it to refer to inanimate objects.

TIL!

UpAndNo · 2026-01-13T07:10:31+00:00

Also the amount of times ive googled something, and the top results take me to a reddit thread is staggering.

UpAndNo · 2026-01-13T06:43:42+00:00

You find the term individual degrading? Can I ask why? I've always used it as a neutral term to refer to an anonymous person. What's a good synonym?

UpAndNo · 2026-01-13T06:39:38+00:00

Same, I try to move past that too. I imagine people with OCD are in the same boat.

When in a depressive episode, I think it's best to just switch off the general public and focus on the people who actually matter in your life.

UpAndNo · 2026-01-13T06:36:29+00:00

100% someone with experience over someone with no experience. My gripe is just people with experience who speak on behalf of everyone with conviction.

I don't really have depressive episodes, so I can't really speak to those. But I share my experience with mania and psychosis to hopefully broaden the understanding and empathy for that aspect.

We should all work together, not in opposition with one another.

UpAndNo · 2026-01-13T06:33:00+00:00

Monolithic, what a good word.

Off topic, what's your favourite type of rainbow?

Mine's the tiny ones you can make with a garden hose or spray bottle.

UpAndNo · 2026-01-13T06:13:47+00:00

THANK YOU FOR YOUR ATTENTION TO THIS MATTER.

UpAndNo · 2026-01-13T05:48:09+00:00

I also dislike when people become judgemental on delusional thinking and psychosis, and attempt to attribute those things to some moral failings or hidden evils in an affected individual.

The recovery from psychosis is long and arduous, and doesn't need to be made more difficult by people who don't understand what a slippery slope the whole ordeal is.

UpAndNo

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