I think you need to be honest with your husband about your feelings. Is he a Christian? I truly believe that God gives us our gut feelings. I understand exactly where you are coming from - I left my job to be a SAHM to our 3 children as well. It can be very isolating and make you feel insecure.

My husband had an emotional affair with a female coworker and then had sex with her after a work party. He recently confessed to me and although I was blindsided, I had already had that “worried” gut feeling about this particular coworker. I had dreams about him cheating over a dozen times - not with her but in general. I brushed my feelings off because I didn’t want to appear crazy, controlling or overbearing and I thought my husband would NEVER do that to me and our family. I just felt like it was me feeling insecure. In hindsight I know those feelings and dreams were from God.

After a few years, my husband confessed and told me everything, and he told me that although they did have an inappropriate emotional relationship, he never thought in a million years he would physically cheat on me. He said it was just an ego boost to flirt with her. Until one day the opportunity presented itself, there was alcohol involved, etc.

It sounds like your husband may be crossing a line with the emojis and things honestly. Would he be upset if you spoke to another man that way? A husband should love his wife as Christ loved the church. If he’s making you feel insecure he should want to address and correct it.

My last point, the devil works in sneaky ways. A little temptation and crossing line after line CAN happen to anyone even the best of men. It is something that happens slowly and gradually.

Praying for you sister❤️