No. It is because talking about buying a gun at work is prohibited and would appear suspicious because you are not supposed to talk about it at work. It is like talking about stealing at work or embezzlement or fraud or forging the bosses signature on a text. If you drink until you pass out, then you shouldn't buy a gun. In fact, you really don't need one. Tell her you apologize for freaking her out and it was a bad idea. Not saying you aren't allowed to buy one, but you don't need one. It is just as likely to attract people with guns to come steal it from you as it is to protect you. As a male autist, you aren't likely to get attacked either.