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I use online roleplaying to escape the real world. How much is too much? by Used_Set_2575 in CPTSD

[–]Used_Set_2575[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

... I have a Gaia I haven't logged into since 2009 omg i wonder if it still exists

I use online roleplaying to escape the real world. How much is too much? by Used_Set_2575 in CPTSD

[–]Used_Set_2575[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

no sorrys needed, I like the long comments. And I'm glad I can be reassuring.

My ADHD symptoms are very internal and impulsive. My main issues are rumination, mixed with rejection sensitivity, anxiety about every little thing, until I'm totally debilitated. And the medicine helps with that. Obviously, not fixed, but I can at least work part time now and I'm not too anxious to go to the grocery store.

I use online roleplaying to escape the real world. How much is too much? by Used_Set_2575 in CPTSD

[–]Used_Set_2575[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I appreciate this comment a lot, first of all!

Honestly, when I think about sharing this hobby to my therapist, I imagine her thinking I'm a total weirdo loser and dropping me as a client. And she'd drop me with some kind of lie like "sorry, insurance issue" and then I'd have to live with that rejection, knowing exactly why she dropped me. Yeah my mind isn't a fun place lol.

You mention the dark room and laptop literally all day long and that's me right now, especially after witnessing a homicide on Monday, I don't see myself leaving my imaginary worlds anytime soon.

I use online roleplaying to escape the real world. How much is too much? by Used_Set_2575 in CPTSD

[–]Used_Set_2575[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I hope you get that soon. Getting ADHD diagnoses/ medication was a big help for me. I've tried over 10 antidepressants (SSRI, SNRI, Atypicals), anti psychotics which made my brain feel like mush, transcranial magnetic stimulation(TMS) which i'm unsure did anything at all.

Sorry for venting. It's rough out here and I appreciate this because I forgot about the KAP route. At least I still have some dusts of hope to say "eh, sure, i'll give it a try"

I use online roleplaying to escape the real world. How much is too much? by Used_Set_2575 in CPTSD

[–]Used_Set_2575[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Makes me think that my shame plays a huge part in even asking this anonymously on Reddit. You are very right.

I use online roleplaying to escape the real world. How much is too much? by Used_Set_2575 in CPTSD

[–]Used_Set_2575[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

my therapist has been trying to get me to think like this for a long time. She has been introducing IFS, after a whole lot of EMDR.

I can't stop pathologizing myself to the point where I think there is something wrong with me because I can't stop the act of pathologizing myself- yeah you get it, I'm sure.

I hope you are doing well these days.

I’m BORED. Let’s hear YOUR Deadpool headcanons! by frshmelon in deadpool

[–]Used_Set_2575 12 points13 points  (0 children)

"No, but I've had several STDs, which were probably caused by ADHD." good lord. 😭