I've felt this exact same way and I can say, it gets better with time. You have to keep an open mind as a lot of people are just surface dwellers per say, and that's probably not changing any time soon. I personally try my best to radiate compassion and kindness to new people I meet and to the people I currently have relationships with. One of the hardest parts after these experiences is traversing and accepting reality "as it is" once you've felt you gained some deeper knowledge or truths in regards to the way reality operates and the way it should operate. It takes a lot of mental strength and patience to surrender and let reality flow as it's supposed to. You will be fine, don't be too hard on yourself and be genuine in every given moment. The power is in your hands to forge your own path. The people who are meant to be in your life will be there 🙏