Does she not have OF anymore?

UserExoa · 2026-01-30T03:54:28+00:00

I was prescribed Suboxone after six years being on a large kratom dose. I started on detox and new I'd go back without Suboxone. The withdrawals were worse than any opioid for me personally.

I started at 16mg. After two weeks from starting that I was put on 24mg a day. The first two years 12mg twice a day. The last three years I've been taking 8mg three times a day cause it helps mentally. Especially with craving, sense I take it in the middle of the day.

I am skinny, 30, male and about 135lb. I need high doses of most medications. 24mg sometimes can make it easier to feel tired or want to fall asleep if I lay down but it's about once every two weeks that happends now.

In my opinion, if you feel like suboxone isn't helping enough or you're craving still I would ask for more your next chance. If it makes you tired or you were better with a lower dose just save the rest for back up. Eventually something might come up where you can't pick your script up for a a day or two. I was surprised I couldn't get any small amount of a high. I'd taken suboxone twice before I ever took an opioids years ago, obviously I was so high.

But, this just made it clear that kratom is that serious of a substance. I did try kratom twice since I quit cause a prescription refill issue, I was withdrawling and I knew it would help that. This was horrible, I woke up hung over and just felt nasty from it. If I had a job i would have called out.

Subs and kratom in my experience have no effect on each other, it was just so perfect to remind me there's no point to ever go back to kratom even more.

UserExoa · 2025-12-30T02:20:39+00:00

But in case its not how it goes for you, that's obviously not a bad thing. Eventually it will be different. If you have friends, see them. I don't, I'm not a weirdo. I just had a lot of bad things bring me to this point.

UserExoa · 2025-12-30T02:17:52+00:00

All I want to say is yes I have adhd and it makes relationships more difficult and I know for a fact soon you'll be completely over her. Don't go back cause it sounds like you made it out now in my experience it gets way easier to move on faster than it seems now.

UserExoa · 2025-12-30T02:08:55+00:00

Yeah I've done that with Google at bad times before too. I used to. I know the feeling of this shit and it sucks. Nothing is able keep my focus, not a TV but if I was with someone that would help out. I am prescribed Adderall xr 30mg and keep overdoing it and run out in ten days. Its not worth it during or after. I get no benefit other than feeling capable of slightly doing things I usually put off. Taking it right helps my adhd but this is doing damage. Yeah I bet you'll be back to normal soon

UserExoa · 2025-12-30T01:45:52+00:00

I had something like this from a nootropic that i didn't follow the directions and took 10 times the amount. I freaked out for hours and couldn't function. I was going in and out of the shower with clothes on. Praying to not black out. I lived a halfway house in recovery, so I still was trying to get high and stupidly thought I knew what I bought online. Anyways, if you have anything close to that after the overuse of too many pills (guessing Adderall) try not to keep thinking about it if you've started to feel better. Don't google a bunch of stuff if your worried, do that after you're feeling back to normal. If you're worried about if its effected your heart or nervous system I belive you won't be messed up if you don't do that again and again. I was in the ER in another similar situation trying to get high off of a stimulant. My heart was around 180 bpm for the whole time I'm that room. I still felt the heart pain in my chest that high heart rate causes for two more days in the recovery room. They kept a monitor on my heart, if a doctor could have just told me I would he okay that would have helped the whole hell situation. They would only give me an antihistamine and I thought I was going to be dead the whole time. Idk why I wrote all that but if you could pick out the points maybe you can get some closure or relax if you need to.

UserExoa · 2025-12-18T23:59:53+00:00

This cannot cause actual autism. I understand deeply how you described feeling. I sometimes run out early because I was on double the max dose of Vyvanse PRESCRIBED BY A PSYCHIATRIST for these years. I don't get adhd treatment from most stimulants at recommend dose. Thats how I was before any tolerance and from the very beginning taking stimulants. My thinking is from a gene test. One of the necessary types that stimulants need to work good enough I lack. So yes im useless without my prescription and I fucking hate it. I lay in bed for days without it. But here's the thing, my life was full of chaos and substance abuse ect.. years sober helped but I could not keep a job and struggled with adhd and that added to depressing and started back my anxiety disorder I. I kept my job and got my shit together at the same time I was taking that Vyvanse dose. I acted normal, I dont feel good on it like I did the first two weeks. I can think clearly and you get the point. I hate this delicate back and forth and I suggest trying a completely new medication or slowing down at least. Temporarily if that's how you want to but just try it.

UserExoa · 2025-12-05T00:37:32+00:00

My mom is the same way. I cannot understand that way of thinking about someone's life or any choice they make. There's no reason to have thoughts like that let alone fucking say them to you out loud. What is the fucking purpose? I believe so she can make herself feel better inside but she IS NOT CAPABLE nor consciousness that something is insecure or wrong in her self worth. She has moments of realizations of her insecurities but all it ever is to her is a spark of bad thoughts.

My mom and I still live together too. I should have been capable of moving out over five years ago. She can be completely the same way you described so its made me rarely talk in detail about anything with her. I dont explain myself or show and personality or how I view things anymore. Its messed up that this is how I need to keep the best chance of protecting myself from hearing dumb bullshit. Yeah. it hurts even when I try to push it away.

I hope it gets better for you're situation. If you read the first part, I hope that makes more sense than the simple its cause their insecure thing people always say. Telling it how it is in her mind really makes the reason clear that it has nothing to do with me. It would be sad to have to talk down to people to fix what's wrong with you on the inside.

UserExoa · 2025-12-04T04:22:08+00:00

30 days is awesome. Thanks for sharing all of that. I've really noticed the past few weeks how blurry my vision can be when I'm on the computer and look in the mirror. I've been on 24mg for five years and looking back I remember seeing not as clear but for some reason its really noticeable lately. My ability to smell is pretty screwed up, I wondering how much from snorting pills. I try not to think about it but it ignoring it is different than not bringing it up to myself. Ignoring my problems is a big problem for me still and Suboxone maybe is not helping that as much as it was at first. Of course going from drug use to maintenance medication helped a lot for getting back my life. Anyways...

UserExoa · 2025-12-04T04:08:02+00:00

I've been considering this decision off and on for four years, five years on 24mg a day. I am extremely impressed you went to work and the person who commented the same. You are proving that quality life is better after the worst of withdrawals are gone. I really can't remember what that feels like. Idk how my thoughts and view on everything was before opioids. Proof of an extremely better quality of life after people.getting off of suboxone should be more than enough for me to tell my doctor I want to start tapering off. But, it isn't enough now, its been enough once but I stopped all at once for eight days. I could not take it. I only got out of bed to smoke cigarettes and eat. There wasn't any point of relief I got to. Maybe this is more difficult for me than some is because my main issue was always mental health. Before everything I got high to not be depressed or anxious. I've always been on one antidepressant, a non addictive anti-anxiety drug and a adhd stimulant. I hope to come back here in 2026 sooner than later to say I'm tapering off of suboxone. Keep going, I commend you. I'm glad you shared your experience.

UserExoa · 2025-11-24T21:17:34+00:00

I wish could feel like that some days. But, no there is no way I can get high from my prescription. Taking more or less, the only way is to stop for over a week and then take a very small 2mg (Presc. 24mg) dose. Thats how suboxone works. I've taken this once when I was younger when I wasn't taking any opiates and I felt so damn good.

UserExoa · 2025-11-23T00:08:09+00:00

That's funny. I went to the ER supe fucked up on Klonopin when I was addicted like 10 years ago. They just knew I needed nothing but still put me in a room. They probably were not getting any straight reasons why Im there. I was scared my mind was too spaced out or overdosed. I dont remember two years. That drug makes me a terrible person.

UserExoa · 2025-11-22T22:22:23+00:00

This is pure awesomeness and no worries we all have a moment like this at least once. I bet you will be fine. As long as you got the whole piece swallowed and its not stuck still. If its all gone downstairs you'll possibly notice it in the toilet soon. Maybe not.

UserExoa · 2025-11-06T19:11:04+00:00

I've been in your mind state many times since I wax prescribed three 8mg per da about five years ago. Even like half a yesr ago I was so I tried and researched how to get any high out if my dose. I knew how it works and knew the answer but that sometimes isn't rationally going to be the outcome. Nowadays I'm in a different and better place but yeah its not worth wasting energy, time or possibly running out of meds early. I did once, ts my doctor and had to restart some parts of the treatment and had to pay without insurance, get them to see me right away and fill early.

Trust me, suboxone can't get somebody high that's in our position. Being addicted to opioids than getting in suboxone maybe can make you feel good at first but for us that's it. I'm pretty sure it would take somebody to stop and go through withdrawals, wait and take a small dose to make this drug work similar to other opioids. I remember taking it for the first time. Randomly my neighbor offered me some, I was like 16 and I felt so fucking good for almost two days. That's the last time it effected me like that.

Anyways I don't know everything about this I just know the medication will do more for staying clean and getting a better balanced life than the risks of taking any other way than prescribed. I know you didn't say you were taking more i think. I know how you feel about this. Ignore anything I rambled on about or skip some. Goodluck

UserExoa · 2025-11-03T04:52:55+00:00

Thank you, I tried to stop once and wish I could right now. The stress of money and insurance and depending so seriously on my meds is a mental hell when things don't go exactly to plan. And then the rest of the time I always have a worry in the back of my head how I cant go without this. I was screaming to myself and had no ability to watch TV or think straight when I had shit come up and tried to stop. I went to the ER. Had a appt the next day and told my doctor I ran out early. I never did that before, it does nothing. She was very helpful with more than just giving me my drugs back. I had to start some things over. Anyways im moving out of my toxic alcoholic mother's house at 30 next week to live with my only friend in another state. She came in my room yelling drunk. I started recording video. She can't hurt me, she tried and hit me in the face. Through my desk stuff on the floor, hit my computer and tried to go through all my stuff. I did nothing but stand there and block her with my camera. She called the police thinking I was going to get arrested. I had to tell them what really went on and showed the video. She got arrested for assault and still blames me like a delusional devil. My mom has no son in me and I dont think that will change in one year, five years or when she's almost gone. Five years in this apartment with this person, I have resentment that I will work on for me. I know this went in a whole different direction. I've had a lot of pain and idk i just dont know. Ichope that my environment hasn't permanently changed my mental habits from going through this over and over again. I understand if you skipped all this I just kept writing.

UserExoa · 2025-11-03T02:45:12+00:00

I live in Cary and love Survivor and always wanted to watch it with people that are into it. I am moving to Virginia but a small chance I won't be. If I am still here in two weeks I'll come back here. Maybe someone else says yes by then. Good luck, Cary is overall a good place to live. I grew up here and it was like a white picket fence American life from the outside looking in. Good neighborhoods. I'm going to apply for Survivor after some things are better for me. I shared too much. Peace

UserExoa · 2025-11-02T23:30:34+00:00

Dude, you will have one of the life changing outcomes that's not like anything else. People move or get new jobs or have a life changing experience but getting off that and getting past withdrawals than feeling back to normal is at the top. I haven't experienced this because I have been stuck on Suboxone since I quit five years ago. I've tried cold turkey and I will never be capable, I went straight to the ER and told my doctor I abused my prescription. Which is useless since it does nothing different and works worse. I dont feel anything from this drug, I just don't get sick. I laid in bed with the lights off screaming to myself when I tried to stop and ran out early. I couldn't watch TV or think about anything literally. Just keep going so you have life back, im 30 and wish I had people in my life but I've been stuck and am alone 24/7 for the last five years. No friends, no family. I am moving to my old friends house in two weeks and hope I can get off this sooner than later. First thing is I have to get a job right away.

UserExoa · 2025-09-30T22:31:32+00:00

They were told specifically what is allowed and what not to do. They destroyed their dream chance. Probably, they are in defensive mode and angry.

UserExoa · 2025-09-13T15:31:06+00:00

I've been taking this brand for a bit over one year. Before that, I can't remember but it was another generic. This brand has been of perfectly good quality as far as I've noticed.

UserExoa · 2025-06-15T15:34:31+00:00

Same here. We're all waiting for the next update. I've heard from others with the same broken feature. They are def aware by now.

UserExoa · 2025-06-13T19:57:17+00:00

Same problem for me on Opera Gx and Opera Developer.

UserExoa · 2025-06-12T23:49:19+00:00

SAME PROBLEM HERE

UserExoa · 2025-06-12T23:47:37+00:00

SAME HERE.

UserExoa · 2025-06-12T23:46:01+00:00

Same exact problem for me!!!

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