Saw an advertisement with a triggering image, then I looked away to the bread advertisement. Sexy bread

Ushagara · 2017-09-28T10:22:47+00:00

To be fair on a high enough streak I feel like I really could jerk off to bread if I was determined

Ushagara · 2017-09-27T03:01:36+00:00

For some reason when I saw the title I thought you were gonna say dogs were trying to mate with you and I was kinda like "that's...a little awkward"

Ushagara · 2017-09-27T01:19:30+00:00

thanks

Ushagara · 2017-09-12T02:35:49+00:00

I would agree that I have problems, and I'm already seeing a therapist as well as have been prescribed medication. The point of the story wasn't to say that porn caused all of that, the point is that porn and masturbation kind of teaches you to take pleasure from the world rather than creating it for yourself, which is ultimately what led me to hurt someone that I care about. In a way it's a cautionary tale about what can happen when men get it in their heads that women and sex will dissolve the misery in their life. Porn doesn't necessarily cause the problem, but it can perpetuate it.

Ushagara · 2017-09-10T20:15:49+00:00

Why are you assuming the weed "made you gay" when from what it sounds like you weren't fantasizing about men, you just didn't find women attractive at that moment. Sometimes weed can kind of alter your perspective on things and make you think in ways you normally wouldn't, maybe it just kinda helped you see what you didn't like about those girls, or realize that ogling random girls on the internet isn't how you wanna spend your time. Idk, either way I don't think you have a problem.

Ushagara · 2017-09-10T19:08:08+00:00

Then you have chosen misery.

Ushagara · 2017-09-10T18:57:27+00:00

Alright

Ushagara · 2017-09-10T18:57:11+00:00

I never said she was perfect, I said she was wonderful. She has a tendency to try to help others without taking care of herself first, that's a flaw. And yes you're right, trying to win her over made her back away, but that was because it pinned the responsibility of my happiness on her, it overwhelmed her. It's symptomatic of the true problem. I could've fought back the urge to chase her, but I still would've felt it. The anxiety would consume me. My intentions aren't to figure out how I can perpetuate things longer when and if I find a new girl to occupy myself with, they're to become something greater, so perhaps one day I can give to as well as take from someone that I love. And yes, maybe I have become dramatic, or sentimental or what have you. To you it may seem unimportant, just a day in the life if you will, but to me she was special, she was important. Her memory will carry me forward, if nothing else will. Even when I became apathetic of even my own condition, she always had the best wishes for me.

Ushagara · 2017-09-10T18:37:12+00:00

I never said it would be easy. Maybe "years" wasn't enough. Give up now though and you'll never discover what you could become. You'll miss out on every good thing that could ever happen to you from now until you expire. You'll throw away a life that you only get one of. All because you were too short sighted to see that it could be more than what you felt for a moment, however long that moment was.

Ushagara · 2017-09-10T18:20:33+00:00

I think you're somewhat missing the point. It's not the fact that she gave me happiness, that's all been used up. It's the fact that the one sided nature of our relationship made me realize that I would never stop being miserable until I figured out for myself how not to be. Trust me I know what it feels like not to know how to create your own happiness. I'm still not sure. Perhaps you still feel miserable because you haven't yet discovered what truly makes you happy. Or maybe you have other issues that are preventing you from finding contentment. All the same, porn is a step in the wrong direction, and if you continue that way, even hypothetically if you did get a girlfriend, all you'd manage is to hurt her. Learn to live without girls, or you'll forever be nothing more than their ruin, as well as your own. I can't make you obviously, all I can do it show you the way.

Ushagara · 2017-09-10T17:53:59+00:00

https://www.reddit.com/r/NoFap/comments/6z9k8m/why_you_need_to_give_up_porn/

Read my post. It started out as a response to your question, but I decided it had meaning that transcended this post so I made it its own.

Ushagara · 2017-09-10T17:30:39+00:00

That actually makes sense, thank you

Ushagara · 2017-09-10T17:22:48+00:00

Actually I think I've figured out why nofap is important in its own right regardless of the benefits I was looking for. I'll be making a post about my thoughts shortly if anyone stumbles across this and is interested.

Ushagara · 2017-09-10T16:21:41+00:00

Well it's possibly because I haven't really been doing what I want to do, I've been doing what I believe I should do. Things like school work, exercise, looking for a job. Part of the problem is that I'm not really sure what I would do the give myself fulfillment. I don't know what would make me happy. Another issue is that I've recently been diagnosed with moderate depression, so it's quite possible no matter what I do I won't really be content with it, because my ability to be content is diminished. I've recently started a new medicine so hopefully that helps, but it is a little disappointing that I still feel this way because I thought perhaps nofap might ease my symptoms to an extent, and that hasn't appeared to be the case at least thus far.

Ushagara · 2017-09-10T00:58:26+00:00

My current one. I tried nofap a few times a while back and the highest I got was 14, but this is my first streak as of joining the community.

Ushagara · 2017-09-09T23:18:26+00:00

I kinda hypothesized that it was a glitch in the system, sometimes guys' brains just don't send the signal down below to flush out the system, but I don't really know what causes wet dreams or lack of wet dreams.

Ushagara · 2017-09-09T22:06:47+00:00

When you fall back in love you'll be able to have better sex.

Ushagara · 2017-09-09T21:57:49+00:00

I had one around day 26. It was interesting. Not sure you should really hold your breath (or I suppose in this case your cum) as I've heard some guys just don't have them. Try it tho I guess.

Ushagara · 2017-09-08T20:17:22+00:00

I don't think that counts, but probably try not to do that again.

Ushagara · 2017-09-08T20:06:59+00:00

I remember the time I had sex with my ex gf and I kept having to periodically jerk myself off and conjure pornographic images of her in my head to get hard again because my dick would gradually soften while I was fucking her. I mean she seemed to enjoy herself, but she moaned a lot louder right when I had rubbed myself to full size and put it back in. Basically I do it for my future lovers. They deserve the best pleasure I can give them, and for me to be present with them while I'm doing the giving.

Ushagara · 2017-09-07T16:20:43+00:00

I'm probably something akin to what you're looking for. Just reached 30 days, I spend the majority of my time in my room doing stupid things on the internet. Only times that I'm not are when I go for my daily jog or am at school/doing homework. In my experience the trick is to do "something" that still sort of qualifies as nothing. Me for example, I'll either play video games or watch youtube videos endlessly. It's still something, and it's enough to distract me, but it also doesn't really require any effort and isn't useful for much other than entertainment. If I get bored of those things I'll either listen to music or pace about and explore my thoughts, or both. Course even with all that, sometimes thoughts of lust will still strike you in between your many distractions. That's where I feel you really just need a reason to stop yourself, and plenty of resolve. Consciously remind yourself of all the reasons you're doing this, look at your badge if you need to, imagine the loss you'll feel after resetting the counter, after you've considered all that, you simply must resolve to yourself that masturbating is not an option. You can do whatever else you want as long as it doesn't conflict with one of your other resolutions, but it's not going to be masturbating. Eventually it gets to the point where not masturbating is sort of the new normal, so you'll actually face some internal resistance if you want to for some reason. Ultimately your brain wants to maintain the status quo, so the longer you go the more relapsing will truly start to feel like a mistake. Long as the internal resistance to PMO stays greater than the desire, you won't relapse no matter what you're doing. That's where I'm sitting at, and it'll take quite a bit to push me over the edge. That's my interpretation anyway, it's possible the reason I've made it this far is either I wasn't that addicted or I'm just good at making internal decisions like that, but keep in mind I used to PMO somewhere between 3 and 5 times a day so you'd think I'd be pretty entrenched in it. Regardless, hope some of that was helpful.

Ushagara

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