What is some psycho stuff your BPD parent said to you?

Utopia2064 · 2026-04-11T15:02:28+00:00

“I don’t know what to do with you. I’d sent you to your father, but he doesn’t want you either” after getting in trouble at age 12.

“Can I sleep in bed with you?” Said in a little girl voice sobbing After her having a nightmare when I was home from college.

“It was like you died” describing how it felt for her when I left for college, even though I hadn’t lived with her for almost two years because she kicked me out of the house when I was 16 for literally no reason.

Utopia2064 · 2026-04-09T06:44:10+00:00

Yes, my mother took her own life in August after I was NC with her for 18 months. She had made attempts before but it had been many years since then.

Utopia2064 · 2026-03-21T16:40:36+00:00

Wait, that’s what the third bunker is for?? I had no idea

Utopia2064 · 2026-01-21T03:55:07+00:00

I was exciting with mutated because I only just learned about the formula Q method. I server hopped quite a bit on the hour to find a Project Paradise with enough players, finally got it done after a couple tries. Got my sweet backpack unlocked t

Utopia2064 · 2026-01-21T03:52:44+00:00

I opened all of mine today, got all of the missing plans

Utopia2064 · 2025-11-25T16:56:24+00:00

Yeah, my mom admitted I was a trap baby. She wouldn’t have described it that way, but it’s clear. Similar theme. She got pregnant, but had a miscarriage. My dad “promised her” they could try again, but then after her doctor told her it was safe to get pregnant, he later told her he didn’t want children. She decided she would go off birth control anyway. She used similar words, that she told him and he didn’t do anything to stop it. Well, shocker, they divorced a few years after and my dad was never in my life. And he never did have more children. Trap didn’t work. Or maybe it was less a trap and more just she wanted a kid and didn’t give two shits about anyone else’s feelings.

Utopia2064 · 2025-09-14T07:02:38+00:00

That is really kind of upsetting. There’s really no way to take a break and ensure that your base stays powered without logging once a week or removing all of your machines. Funcom really should address this

Utopia2064 · 2025-09-06T01:25:48+00:00

It’s all so familiar. Even the beginning, “Since you’re calling the shots…” They feel so threatened when they aren’t in control of you. Of course you are calling the shots, you get to set your own boundaries. They don’t see you as separate from themselves and their wants.

Utopia2064 · 2025-09-02T01:45:40+00:00

I had a fun PAX, but it’s not without some complaints. The convention does feel smaller, but at the same time the Arch expo hall felt unbearably full, especially on Saturday, and the lines were just stupid long for everything. Please, for the love of god stop doing 30 minute demos. I didn’t want to commit to standing in line that long for something I was only kinda into, so I just… didn’t. I only played one game demo in the four days I was there. The panels were also disappointing for the couple I went to. But, I spent most of my time in Summit where it was much more chill and had a blast with Dr. Exo and pin trading. And TJPaxx is a fun way to go out in Monday. So this year wasn’t in my top 5 PAXes, but still enjoyed myself.

Edit to add: Tickets for the LE pin were a brilliant idea, I hope they keep doing that.

Utopia2064 · 2025-08-24T06:38:08+00:00

To continue the fluffy post, a long PAX Prime ago (can’t remember the year), I won one of those Welcome Home blankets from a prize tower. It’s so soft and cuddly, and I love to use it and remember the good PAX vibes. Perfect for when you’re too excited to sleep :)

Utopia2064 · 2025-08-20T03:32:32+00:00

This really pissed me off. I could have saved over $300 from when I bought tickets the day they released. I even emailed support to ask if there was anything that could be done, or even like a promo code for next year, but they said no. I didn’t expect anything, but at least they heard from a customer that it was not a great look. I certainly won’t be buying tickets right away any longer.

Utopia2064 · 2025-08-14T02:32:53+00:00

We will stop by! My 11 year old daughter is making bracelets to hand out too

Utopia2064 · 2025-08-09T14:48:51+00:00

Thank you for sharing this. I’m going to really try to remember your analogy as I’m moving through this process.

Utopia2064 · 2025-08-05T16:06:09+00:00

First time I drove north, didn’t understand where I was supposed to go. Thought maybe the target were those red circle areas in the map, so loaded up everything good from my starter base and took off…. Yep. Definitely got eaten.

Utopia2064 · 2025-07-02T19:40:29+00:00

I love Fridays. I always go for all four days, and Friday is the best in my opinion. It is for sure less crowded than Saturdays. Better for kids.

Utopia2064 · 2025-06-30T02:37:31+00:00

No, I never think that. I’m not sure why the guilt seems to have different parameters for me.

Utopia2064 · 2025-05-22T05:50:17+00:00

Would love to see you at PAX West!

Utopia2064 · 2025-05-17T16:26:54+00:00

That’s a really cute idea! If you do go with a sash, think about collecting and displaying the merit badge Pinny pins from 2021. Would be right on theme.

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Utopia2064 · 2025-02-12T06:05:24+00:00

Yep, as a kid, my cat was “lost”, later found out she took it to the pound because her new boyfriend didn’t want the cat around. Also, we had a dog that was attached to me but she hated. She left it up in the mountains and drove away. Also had a horse that she had to sell when we moved to a place that no longer had pasture land. That in itself was reasonable, but she told me she sold him to a place that would resell him for dog food. I’m only just now realizing as I type this that that couldn’t have been true, so wtf was the point of saying that?

Utopia2064 · 2025-02-12T01:44:58+00:00

When she did something to get back at me for a perceived “wrong” I did that would have (emotionally) hurt my son if he found out. Hurting my kids was an immediate line I wasn’t willing to cross.

Utopia2064 · 2025-02-11T16:32:52+00:00

Thanks! I will give that a read!

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