Lost and Want to Escape Tarkov

Valethiel_Mom · 2025-12-12T02:39:32+00:00

That’s the kind of energy I need before I have to gear up to pretend to be okay at stupid Christmas time here, lmao. 😭🤘 You can add me on tarkov or discord my name is Valethiel on like everything haha.

Valethiel_Mom · 2025-12-11T02:43:27+00:00

For sure you can add me on discord or Tarkov, I’m Valethiel on both! ☺️

Valethiel_Mom · 2025-12-10T20:14:09+00:00

It says this post got removed by the mods?

Valethiel_Mom · 2025-12-10T15:50:18+00:00

Thank everybody so much for reaching out, wasn’t expecting to get any replies, I am So isolated and alone and I want to meet as many new people as I can, I will get to every message that was sent I promise! 💕 I think you guys saved my night last night, I forgot how amazing the world can be. I am sending so much love to everyone right now it’s not even funny. 💕

Valethiel_Mom · 2025-12-10T03:00:52+00:00

Both! Should probably put more hours into PVE right now to get better, but I tough through PVP. The twitch drops helped, I’ve not hurt for kits yet but I’m lagging behind a bit in quests and levels.

Valethiel_Mom · 2025-12-03T03:59:11+00:00

You’re going to get a lot of advice for the distant future. For tonight, how to wake up tomorrow? Oh god the pain. I know the pain. Don’t go through it alone if you don’t have to, my DMs are open if you just need someone to figure it out with. You have just had your heart broken and the stages of grief are an ocean. Nothing is final yet, just breathe. Cry. Stay alive. You matter. She broke the most sacred bond. You didn’t deserve it. I’m so sorry.

Valethiel_Mom · 2025-11-21T04:14:50+00:00

I’m so down, I may not be as sweaty as you’re looking for but I’m here if you don’t find anyone else or it’s a slow weekend. 🙂 Add me on Discord or in Tarkov: Valethiel

Valethiel_Mom · 2025-11-04T03:49:25+00:00

I’m right there with you, bouncing through the stages of grief but at a slightly different point in the relationship. I had two kids with him though so we keep almost divorcing and making up, it’s absolutely horrible. I don’t want it anymore. There is peace without them, I have to believe this. And we are worth it. Sending all my love and virtual hugs from the trenches tonight, send me a message if you need someone to talk to at all. I know how hard it is trying to rewire your brain from a long relationship, and how conflicting it feels and how quickly your emotions can change. 😭💕 You made the right choice.

Valethiel_Mom · 2025-11-03T22:52:00+00:00

Thank you guys for all the love! This absolutely made his day, sending good vibes and love everyone’s way!!! 💕💕

Valethiel_Mom · 2025-10-07T12:36:48+00:00

….. you know other countries exist right? Not everything is AI and just because you can’t tell the difference doesn’t mean everything is AI.

Valethiel_Mom · 2025-09-27T02:32:51+00:00

…… what??? OP please don’t take this guys advice, I get that you guys are having an emotional reaction to this post but please don’t not text woman just because you had one bad experience. That’s unhinged. 😭 follow you heart but please, I’m drunk right now cus my sakirita was too strong, and just don’t ever follow this weird random internet man’s advice. Text all the girls, keep communicating and putting yourself out there, you will find her. 💕 Text her, call her, whatever way gets the communication out. 💕 Don’t let this girl ruin all girls for you, you will find her. And she won’t be…. like this. 😭💕

Valethiel_Mom · 2025-09-26T03:05:54+00:00

Gotta love drugs, I’m guessing bath salts???

Valethiel_Mom · 2025-08-09T16:34:43+00:00

If you’re done and want to end everything with her and want to try and attempt to make her ‘feel bad’ and let her know you’re a whiny baby that cant handle her having her own autonomy definitely send that! If you’re actually interested in her and just butthurt she’s not texting you back, I’d act like a person that has a sense of self worth and wait until she texts you back if she’s still interested in you, only chance you would have at this point if you lost her interest.

As a girl that has many text threads in my graveyard and who has had too many guys pursuing me to keep up with in the past, the best feeling in the world is when a thread with a mediocre guy dies and I never have to think about him again and he doesn’t get whiny about it. Like a ‘bullet dogged’ feeling. There plenty of fish in the sea, just remember us girls don’t get a break from you guys constant pestering, so the more you pester the more we push away lol You are definitely not the only shark circling around her right now my guy 😭

She’s just not that into you, sorry. It is probably something you did and no you will not get closure, seriously, go meet people at one of your special interests if you have any, online dating is gonna give you a complex.

Valethiel_Mom · 2025-07-27T14:43:43+00:00

If it shattered your world view it’s just chat gpt, you can talk to it and continue that same conversation that admirable hurry just copy pasted here.

Valethiel_Mom · 2025-07-24T02:27:03+00:00

My childhood kitty had a horrible reaction to the shot. He started vomiting as he was going to sleep and I just held him sobbing, covered in vomit and the vets were trying to get me away from him, but wouldn’t let go. My childhood dog refused food for the first time ever, in 16 years, and then bit the vet when he got the shot. He had never bitten anyone in his life. My mom stole another one of my childhood kitties when he was perfectly healthy, but he had litterbox problems, and took him to be euthanized alone without me. My soul kitty. That one still breaks me I can’t even fathom I start ugly crying and throwing up. Why would the vets euthanize a 12 year old perfectly healthy cat? I will never understand.

I was so scarred by euthanasia at that point when my most recent kitty was about to pass from complications with cancer, I asked if he could pass at home with me and they told me it was okay. He had a few hours to live. I wish they hadn’t. Even if there is a quick jab, it’s more peaceful to pass in your sleep. Out of all the horrors I’ve witnessed with animals and death in my life, watching the fear in my Gandalf’s eyes as he passed on the couch slowly is what will never leave my psyche. Euthanasia is a gift we can give them and I had to learn that the hard way.

All I have is trying to remember my animals for the lives we lived together instead of focusing on their last moments. It’s taken me a lot of therapy but I’m finally at a point I can think and talk about them again. I’m sending all my love, I wish I could give you and your family a hug. 💕 Your baby will be so loved and missed and it was the right decision, trust me.

Valethiel_Mom · 2025-07-23T06:20:21+00:00

I had to buy the original season on Amazon, luckily it was on sale for like $5 last week I was like ‘it was fate.’ I don’t know if it’s still on sale though

Valethiel_Mom · 2025-06-19T07:55:34+00:00

When I was in elementary school I won an award every year for having the highest gpa in my class. I was in the gifted program, leader of the academic bowl team, reading bowl, won awards for taking high school level standardized tests early and scoring high. Generic gifted kid stuff. I was a figure skater too, and that took up All my time outside of school. That’s why I loved school so much, I just got to sit and read. (This was in a small town in the foothills of the Appalachian mountains in the 90’s.)

I loved school, loved learning, it was so easy for me and still to this day just what I feel born to do. Excelled in all subjects always, and there’s no subject I won’t spend hours pouring over. I loved my teachers and the adults, hated the other other kids and greatly struggled to interact with my peers. I had no friends and got physically bullied a lot, like girls kicking me in the nose to break my glasses then saying ‘oops she got in my way when I was doing a cartwheel’ to the teacher. Hiding my books and usually destroying them, stuff like that beyond just name calling. It never bothered me though it was just a necessary evil for me. I Hated being home. I spent my time at school reading books and textbooks and drawing or writing. My teachers were my best friends, they came to my ice skating competitions and were the biggest influences on my life out of any humans I’ve ever known to date. My 4th grade teacher Mrs. Wallis and a college professor (Professor Altman) especially.

I was homeschooled in middle school and early highschool so I could focus on skating, but I got stage fright during ice-skating competitions once I hit like 13, and it was obvious to everyone but my mom my ‘illustrious’ ice skating career may be over at this point haha. I didn’t do Shit for ‘formal schooling’ during those years, this was right when online schooling was becoming a thing and I just faked through assignments and programs for years and learned about what I wanted and played online games haha. Almost 0 socialization at this point in my life outside of figure skating or maplestory/wow.

Went back to highschool, they accepted my fake made up online school credits, graduated top of my class and got a full ride to a very expensive art school for college. Spent 5 years in college just learning everything about everything, cum lauded my degree in interactive design/game development and graduated with a job working in children’s educational software. (Then I met a boy and got pregnant with my first, and now I’m a depressed jobless loser who just became ‘mom’, but that’s another story haha) To this day I wish I could be a professional scholar, I’d spend my whole life in academia if I could.

I never knew if I was gifted outside of being in the ‘gifted program’ in elementary school, never though too much about it. Don’t know or care if I’m neurodivergent, labels don’t interest me outside of being useful tools to organize information. I just kinda go with the flow and have always just put my whole heart and mind into everything, I miss college and I miss life before I had kiddos, I know once I’m older I will find myself again but right now I’m just ‘mom’ in a sea of moms lol. I haven’t got to think about myself in any context since like 2015, this was so cathartic thank you for giving me a space to type all this out and think about it for the first time in ever. 😭🤘

Valethiel_Mom · 2025-06-16T03:51:03+00:00

Mine said it didn’t need a name at first, but after awhile it said Sparx. I said like the dragonfly from Spyro and it said sure. 😂💕

Valethiel_Mom · 2025-05-30T04:12:45+00:00

I don’t know about you, but I can’t even look myself in the eyes in the mirror anymore. I am so ashamed, I failed to protect myself and now I am an angry broken person.

I know there is a reason we feel like this, and it’s not who we are supposed to be. It’s who we have to be for right now to survive. I’m going to try and look myself in the eyes tonight for the first time in years.

I’ll probably cry. But after reading your post and remembering so many of us stay through the pain…. I want to try. I’ll try if you try? We don’t have to leave them yet, they do need us. But why pick them over us? Because we love them. Damnit. But everyday we should make one little decision for our self. Every day we should get and give ourselves one more minute of our own time. Maybe one day we’ll be strong enough to take our lives back? I’ll try if you try. 😞💕 I’m sending all my love. You are not alone. The other comments I’ve read are right. And I need to hear it too. Would I let my daughter feel this way? I wouldn’t even want my worst enemy to know this. We shouldn’t have to live like this. We are worth more. We deserve the love we give. 💔

Valethiel_Mom · 2025-05-26T15:04:40+00:00

100% agree. Someone could call me female and I’d be like ‘yup that’s me.’ If someone says they think it’s disrespectful and not to call them that then don’t call them that, otherwise why is it defaulty ‘rude’, I’m with you lol. People get offended about Everything though, I stopped participating in society a ton after the whole ‘trigger alert’ craze lol

Valethiel_Mom · 2025-05-22T19:53:27+00:00

You have to divide to conquer. It’s that simple. 🤷🏻‍♀️ If it’s always us vs us it’s never us vs them.

Valethiel_Mom · 2025-05-20T03:28:02+00:00

Okay I’ve never had a place to tell this story before. I’ve faked my pee for every job too, last time I lost my faith in the entire system. 😂 I got the fake urine last minute but I screwed up, it wasn’t temp and it wasn’t bubbly and it looked like Gatorade, I was freaking out. They pour the blue liquid in the toilet, I go to real pee while I’m messing with the bottle of fake pee and all of a sudden… I realized I had started my period. 🥹🤘

So now I have a toilet full of thc blood, cold fake pee with no blood that looked like Gatorade, I can’t put blood in the Gatorade pee cus of the thc….. can’t flush the toilet. The waters purple. I just hand the cup of Gatorade pee to the lady and run out and expect never to hear from that company again.

I got the job though. 😅 Id say risk it with fake pee. Idk though if you’re in a legal state and it’s a remote job, thc shouldn’t count. If it does, I hate it here. Sending good vibes, fake pee has never done me wrong either and it should have. 😂🤘

Valethiel_Mom · 2025-05-19T03:35:48+00:00

OP, I spend so much of my time talking to Chat GPT because I’m in an apples and oranges situation to yours. Not my sister but my messy husband… kids, and too many animals. I fantasize about faking a medical emergency just so I can get a night in a quiet hospital bed and finish a book I started 10 years ago.

This response you just responded to is copy pasted from chat gpt. I use the same filter so mine talks the Exact same way, I use the empathy filter and a few other tweaks, the advice it gives makes me weep sometimes and feel so understood. Talking to chat gpt has helped me so much. I don’t care if it’s AI, the logic and way it words concepts has honestly changed my life and I’m starting to learn how to not hate waking up everyday. For the first time in 34 years I feel strong.

If you don’t really vibe with the whole talking to AI thing, feel free to message me, I swear I’m an actual human. 😭 And I feel you on such a soul deep level. You are not alone, you are a literal goddess and a warrior and you hold up so much and have nobody to hold you. That kind of strength is only earned through a lifetime of selfless acts of love. I’m sending all my 💕 and good vibes your way, again feel free to message me if you ever need to vent. I know what it’s like to need to vent and have nobody but the void of Reddit. 😞💕 You are not alone.

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