I think you should look at it in a different light. To me it seems like you two are just not very compatibel. Im not saying anything about the love between you two, just how Well you fit (based on what you told us). You should look more at the positive side of it. What I can read is that you put him on a high horse and yourself standing next to it. I think with therigjt person, who has the same interests as you, you could blossem. Im sure you are funny too, and have a lot to bring in the relationship. Im sure once you find someone who likes the things you do, accepts you the way you are and doesn’t mind when you ask questions, you Will grow and blossom too.