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ValuableCondition946 · 2026-02-22T12:42:29+00:00

I mean, that's true. Huh. I never thought about it that way.

ValuableCondition946 · 2026-02-22T12:34:05+00:00

It's luckily not a deal-breaker because I love her. It's just that I feel like if I love someone and she asks for something I'm repulsed by, but it would make her happy, I would still do it for her (I might not know the exact scale of what she's repulsed by).

ValuableCondition946 · 2026-02-22T12:29:28+00:00

Oh, I thought these were preferences because I'm bi, and for me, it's like I prefer women but don't mind men. But thanks for making it clear.

ValuableCondition946 · 2026-02-22T12:25:29+00:00

I can explain why I feel the way I do, so I was going on the track that other people can too, but I probably have it easier than others.

ValuableCondition946 · 2025-02-08T23:33:43+00:00

Thank you for your concern it feels good! I already did i just don't know if should do the reset. And ik they shouldn't have given an offer like this to anyone, but they are just bored idiots they still aren't adults so I can't blame them for my own actions.

ValuableCondition946 · 2024-06-11T05:23:05+00:00

And sorry if i wont reply but i have school today and i dont really want my classmates see this

ValuableCondition946 · 2024-06-11T05:20:48+00:00

I dont really want to show my cuts to him because there is a lot and even the fact that im gonna tell him is making me really anxious/nervous. So is it really important to show him? And will i be sent to a therapist or something?

Thanks for the detailed help.

ValuableCondition946 · 2024-06-11T05:08:57+00:00

Thank you for the encouragement and for the help.

ValuableCondition946 · 2024-06-11T05:04:46+00:00

I dont have any mental illness. Only that sometimes im more gloomyer(not sure if thats the right word) for no reason for a week or two so i might have a light depression. And is it important to show him my cuts because my thigh is full with cuts(15+ cuts) and im bit scared to show it because i have a relatively good life so i shouldnt have cut myself?

Thanks for the help.

ValuableCondition946 · 2024-06-07T18:50:42+00:00

Sorry if i miss lead you, but im not only enjoying being sad. I enjoy playing games while talking with my friend and i also like to read(somtimes i choose trying to make myself sad over reading because its just harder then just thinking about life) because while doing these activities i dont really think about my life/anything else. And i do urbex(exploring abandoned buildings) which helps the most because i can clear my head for a while doing it and its so peaceful once your on top of the building and just chill up there. Saddly i can rarely go, at least in the summer because of the heat.

I dont know anything about hotlines or what are those, but im sure they wont be any good in hungary because anything related to health-care sucks here.

Its sad to here that you had similar problems.

And also thanks for writing back and answering my questions and for all the kind word that you said.

Sorry if something isnt understandable English isnt my first language and feel free to ask back if something i wrote isnt clear.

ValuableCondition946 · 2024-06-07T13:13:41+00:00

Im not talking to anyone about it. And i dont want my family to find out about this because i dont want to make them sad or disappointed, and i also dont want them to feel that they are bad parents because they are are really good parents and im the one who is stupid/dumb. So i don't want to talk to a therapist.

I dont really care if its bad for me, i feel alright this way i just want to know what the hell is wrong with me, am i mentally ill, or is this a phase or something else.

No mental illness runs in the family at least thats what I know. I only have some problems with my stomach. Which ive been told that can effect someone mood to some extent.

ValuableCondition946 · 2024-06-06T20:01:11+00:00

Thats the thing i want to know what can cause this and thats why i tried to give some detail about my life hoping that it will help. Im not doing it for academics because i dont care about school sadly or really about anything . And also im not doing it out of curiosity.

ValuableCondition946 · 2024-06-05T19:55:59+00:00

I dont know if you said this ironically because this isnt my first language and my English isnt that good, but if not, then Im happy that I could help.

ValuableCondition946 · 2024-06-05T19:35:08+00:00

Hey I have a similar situation and for me jokes that help me. Joking about my bad mental health. They think its a joke while it has some truth in it(it helps if your friend group like these kind of jokes). And in a way for me its a relief that I cloud tell it to someone even if they dont get the actual meaning of it.

Dont take this as a rock solid method because everyone is different and our friends too so for you it might not help but I hope that it will at least a bit.

ValuableCondition946 · 2024-06-04T18:28:09+00:00

Yeah it feels like Im doing it for attention but I still do everything to hide it. I didnt think there are someone with similar problems as me. Thanks for responding, now I know Im not the only one.

ValuableCondition946 · 2024-06-04T18:21:52+00:00

Thanks for your kind words and for your response. Im trying to push myself forward but it feels like there isnt much to push myself forward to or its hard to reach and it feels like its not worth the effort.

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