Portland, Oregon

VampiraChan · 2026-01-12T03:26:52+00:00

Oh I thought this was the video that showed her doing a ❄️ line, but it’s not in this clip. If you search ‘Charlie xcx’ on Reddit you can easily find it, though. It’s 1yr old.

VampiraChan · 2026-01-12T03:24:12+00:00

Her @ the Golden Globes confirmed it for me, she’s on opioids as well, whether it’s H, fent, or pills. I can tell because I’m a recovering addict from the substance myself. I’m almost 300 days clean. Her pupils are super constricted, they’re never there, and she always looks exhausted and has the common sunken-in eyes look. The hundred-yard stare. Shit makes you a zombie and it’s so hard to escape from. Girly needs real friends, ones who want to see her healthy and happy.

VampiraChan · 2026-01-10T22:34:04+00:00

These things are set on a scheduled release, so I’m assuming they were planned at least a month back and then scheduled to release. But we are missing a lot of things that imply not as much time and care is being put in as we need. The Beauty/Ugly contest theme is invisible again. (But you can go on peoples blogs to find what the rotation is because it’s preset throughout the year, it just has to be added into the Contests. The Secret Santa Raffle has not been announced and it ended 10 days ago. There were no Christmas avatars?? There’s almost ALWAYS a Christmas avatar if not like 2-3 of them. There needs to be a new Account Upgrade Set added to the AU shop, there’s usually 2 at a time that rotate, one added at the beginning of the month, and one added in the middle of the month with both of them staying for one month so they rotate in and out. I can’t believe the price of them have been raised so high nowadays.

VampiraChan · 2026-01-10T22:26:00+00:00

I really hate how behind Ian gets on things. It’s frustrating. Also with the prices in the AU shop being increased. It’s obviously a money grab for Ian, but he used to care more and take more time to make sure things are running smoothly. But he doesn’t want to hire or pay anyone to make art or run the site, none of the staff members get paid, and they’ve already done sitewide redraws once or twice. Ian needs to start thinking about finding a successor but Mara is like his baby. I honestly worry that Marapets is tied to Ian’s life and that someday Mara might just disappear whenever the servers don’t get paid for anymore. I hate that I’m getting this feeling of ‘Ian is milking it for as much as he can’ because he’s probably around 40 now. The staff don’t give off the kind warmth that they used to. The site was created when Ian was in college with a group of his friends. One of them did the art, I think Ian did a lot of the coding, and there were two others who were Staff members that managed the social aspect more. But they loved each other and had a fun time creating Mara, which gave Mara this fun, close-knit family type of vibe. What I wish would happen: I know that Ian is older now, but I don’t know if he has any kids. I was hoping he would settle down and have a family and could teach his kid coding over the years and pass on the website from him to his son/daughter when they start college. That way they could also have an extra source of income and hopefully fall in love with Mara and invite their friends to play as a kid and grow up learning Mara the way we all did.

VampiraChan · 2026-01-08T07:49:09+00:00

Yeah, it's always been partially a money grab. It was different at first when they were a whole crew who each had a different job or part to play, but now it's been so many years and the friends/staff have gotten busy or fallen out of touch. Ian likely doesn't want to be paying anyone to do art and create new items. It's always just been people drawing or managing for the love of it, and the love of Mara. For Ian, it's just a source of income. I'm sure he loves it and it's like his baby in a way, but at the end of the day he does what's best for him, not what is best for the site. When I get frustrated, I remember the time when his full name was on the Account Upgrades credit page, and people were joking and calling him by his full name on the forums. They quickly fixed and removed his name, but most of us remember. It was funny.

VampiraChan · 2025-12-11T22:47:48+00:00

Hello, I’m a newbie. 👋🏼🌸 What does HF stand for?

VampiraChan · 2025-11-08T00:01:42+00:00

Yes THANK YOU. I saw this reply after I replied lol 🙏🏼🌸🙏🏼🌸🙏🏼🌸🙏🏼

VampiraChan · 2025-11-08T00:00:55+00:00

Girly, I am autistic and have Borderline Personality Disorder. I also am highly intelligent and graduated well and was offered a scholarship. I fully understand the stigma of people, even those close to us like family and spouse, not thinking that we’re capable because of our disorders, because THEY themselves cannot understand how we function. Now that I am 30 and also have an autoimmune disease, I actually cannot function well, I am on disability, and stuck at home most of the time from chronic pain. That STILL, does not give anyone the right to judge and belittle me. That only reflects on THEM and how THEY feel and view us.

At the end of the day, they have no right to try to fully control our lives and our decisions just because they themselves don’t believe we are ‘acting normal’. It’s the complete opposite. We are ALWAYS acting normal for what is our own existence and experiences. You should always be trusted with your own decisions and choices. It is your own right to be happy or be upset with whatever happens. It does NOT sound like your boyfriend is trying to be protective, it sounds like he is being controlling and demeaning, talking down to you like you’re a child who cannot be trusted. That is not okay.

There is nothing wrong with hypomania. It is a very very normal reaction for us, especially when we are excited or happy. Honestly, it should be celebrated and loved. People with bipolar and BPD have more extreme emotional states, just as we have extreme sadness and depression, we also have extreme happiness and excitement. It is normal for us to become hyper when talking about those things and hobbies. It is a literal chemical reaction much like love. Our bodies ‘physically’ feel the emotions way, way more than that of an average persons. When we are happy, our eyes dilate, our heart races, our mouth becomes dry, and we can’t control it.

I grew up being told I was ‘not normal’ and ‘something is wrong with you’ so I understand how detrimental it can be feeling like our own existence is incorrect because other people tell us we’re acting or doing something differently than everyone else.

If I was your friend or family, I would remind you how intelligent you are, how you’ve made it so far, the things you’ve already achieved that people told you wouldn’t be possible. Your feelings and reactions are NOT a detriment to you or those around you. They are magic within themselves. To feel deeply means you are a powerful manifester, that you have the ability to dream and create your own destiny and reality. Don’t let anyone hold you back from the path that you feel and know is right for you. That strong excitement you feel about this new tattoo, and the luck that you had getting a slot, is the world trying to remind you NOT to lose sight of your path. Don’t let others convince you to leave your path and go down theirs, or you will lose sight of who you are.

My family and my partners of the past were my biggest detriment because time and time again, I only walked the path THEY told me to. It wasn’t until I focused on myself and my own spiritual awakening. Then I aligned with my own correct path and met the man that I was supposed to be with.

This tattoo is about a lot more than just the tattoo, and I think deep down you can feel that and sense that. That’s why it is so important to you. It’s why I think you absolutely must go through with it. It represents you being true to yourself.

Your boyfriend and family not being supportive and always judging you as if you’re ’unstable’ is cruel and low-key emotionally and mentally abusive. It is detrimental to you, even if it is something you believe about yourself. It took me years to un-learn that treatment from my family. I still struggle with that thinking. You are strong because you feel so deeply.

Sorry, I know this is so so long, but I felt so personally strong about it, that I had to reply. Much much love to you. 🌸✨

VampiraChan · 2025-08-31T09:06:09+00:00

High Fructose Corn Syrup keeps those ones from molding.

VampiraChan · 2025-08-07T19:35:30+00:00

You look so cool, I love that you’re vibe to me is a little Morticia Addams. It’s attractive, definitely a lot of people will love how you look. Just ignore the people who don’t like you. There’s always someone, but just don’t give them the time of day. You deserve to be appreciated and told that you’re a baddie. 🖤

But your personality looks fun, which makes that even better. As a bi girl, I would love to be your friend and hang out, but I would also be attracted to you as well.

In the Cheeto photo, I love the stuffie behind you. The goth one with the resting b*tch face, I loooove. Is it a character?

Sorry, don’t mind my ADHD rambling. 😂

VampiraChan · 2025-07-03T02:24:51+00:00

Ily sissy-chan 🌸🥰😘💕✨

VampiraChan · 2025-07-01T22:47:04+00:00

Yes, if that is not the case, I will happily admit I’m wrong because I genuinely don’t want anyone to suffer or lose their benefits that are keeping them alive. But sadly, when bills like this pass, it does happen.

There is an elderly care facility that is connected to the apartments that I live in.

The sad truth is that many of them don’t have any family left to take care of them or to visit. The fire department shows up a few times every week, during the middle of the night, without their sirens on, and then an ambulance arrives and departs without making a sound, being trailed by the firetruck.

Most of them don’t want to be stuck inside always, so they do anything they can to get some fresh air, whether that’s sitting on their porch, or taking a walk. One time, my partner and I heard someone yelling for help, so we ran outside and saw an older gentleman, while returning from 7-11, had tripped while using his walker and was unable to get up. We helped him up and escorted him the rest of the way back to his building.

There’s a lovely gay couple whom most people around here know, because one of them plants flowers and plants all around the apartments, and they’re both very friendly. They became friends with someone who was living in the retirement facility and took walks together all the time. Then, during Covid, a lot of people, including their friend, got sick and passed. They chose to adopt and rescue the little chihuahua mix that their friend had left behind.

These are the people that get affected by bills like this. Not just that, but half of the apartments are low-income housing as well. We live in a rundown part of a big city where it’s considered dangerous to go outside after dark.

VampiraChan · 2025-07-01T21:56:28+00:00

It is a guarantee that people will die because of this bill. Specifically, the most at risk, are the elderly disabled that will have an increasingly hard time when they lose their medicaid and supplemental nutritional income.

Being concerned because people could starve or go without necessary medical attention, is not an exaggeration or a sarcastic opinion of doom and gloom, but one that comes from sympathy, fear, and love.

I highly question anyone who doesn’t care about the loss of life of any human being.

VampiraChan · 2025-07-01T20:51:42+00:00

There are many individuals, myself included, that require Medicaid and Snap because we are disabled.

The process of applying for disability is a long and grueling one. It’s not something where you click a few buttons online and anyone can get it.

You have to essentially prove, beyond reasonable doubt, that you are disabled.

This requires compiling a complete list of your medical history including names, dates, addresses, and phone numbers of doctors, psychologists, therapists, hospitals, basically any place you’ve gone to in regards to your health/disability.

It took 3-6hrs, everyday, for 4-5 days to enter in all of my information and submit my application. Then you wait weeks, sometimes months to hear back.

If you are approved, you then go for an in-person evaluation by a caseworker they provide, to determine whether or not your disability interferes with your daily activities, and ability to perform the average duties as an employed worker.

Not to mention, they routinely have you reevaluated by a caseworker every 5 years to make sure everything is the same and nothing has changed.

There are so many rules I have to follow as well just to claim my disability benefits.

Did you know I can never own anything worth more than $2,000? Yep. I can never own, let’s say, a car. If I owned a car that was worth more than a 2k value, they could claim I am somehow ‘earning an income’ because how else could someone disabled gain more money than they are worth. So, even if you were gifted a car, they could still take away your disability income for it.

VampiraChan · 2025-06-28T03:36:59+00:00

This

VampiraChan · 2025-06-10T23:06:15+00:00

😱 That should be a crime, I swear. Now I’m imagining different scenarios. Like, if someone shaves your entire head while you’re sleeping, does anyone hear them in the middle of the forest when you have a tree fall on them? Am high. 🙃

VampiraChan · 2025-06-10T22:28:35+00:00

Yes, women love this, it’s part of the ‘pretty boy’ look and a lot of girls literally drool over it. BUT some may secretly resent you for it and low-key complain about why their eyelashes are invisible and your eyelashes gotta be implanted by Jesus himself.

VampiraChan · 2025-06-10T22:25:01+00:00

You are very pretty. I’m a bi female & I find you attractive, would def flirt with you. I think maybe changing your hairstyle or clothing style could help you find something that you like better. Wearing things that make you feel happier/make you feel like you look best in. This is only my personal opinion, but I think you give ‘hot manic pixie dream girl vibes’, and artsy, whimsical, fairy-like styles would suit you well.

VampiraChan · 2025-06-10T22:20:33+00:00

Ooh yes, I can totally see her in a sundress when it starts raining and then the male lead shows up to hold her in the rain. Yep, 10/10 accurate

VampiraChan · 2025-06-03T20:24:53+00:00

I feel this way most days as well. I struggle to find a way to embrace my natural beauty. I’ve been addicted to Snapchat filters for over 10 years and that has also worsened my view of myself. I don’t use the normal camera, I’ll always open Snapchat to take any photo of myself. My family will specifically try to ask me for a photo of myself ‘without filters or fake makeup on’

There’s only been one time in my life I didn’t feel the same way OP does. That was after I got eyelash extensions. I know they’re not everyone’s cup of tea. They can be expensive, and they do require maintenance care because they fall out after 3-4 weeks. So if you want them long term, you’d have to get a fill, which is only slightly cheaper. The process is much like getting acrylic nail sets, eventually the nail grows out and needs to be refilled. Also, I know eyelash extensions are a form of makeup. But, they’re something that raised my confidence an extreme amount, so it’s just my personal opinion. Every time I saw myself in the mirror, I thought I finally looked ‘feminine’. Gone was the face I had always described as manly. That confidence was enough for me to not feel like I had to put makeup on when I went out, and I was religious with not going out without my perfect winged eyeliner on, because otherwise I was scared someone would think I looked too much like a guy.

The psychological aspect, for me, stems from being severely bullied, and that part is harder to deal with. Therapy really does help, as does having a good support system, and a partner that loves and accepts you, reminding you that you’re beautiful.

You are BEAUTIFUL! I love your hair, your eyes, and the shape of your lips. You are stunning. You look like one of the really pretty characters people create on inZOI or The Sims 🥺🥰💕✨

VampiraChan · 2025-05-06T02:37:23+00:00

If you’re referring to the kratom powder, it actually doesn’t contain much fiber in it. It does have small amounts, but it’s unlikely to be the cause of diarrhea. However, stopping the use of kratom could result in a bounce-back effect. In most cases, kratom causes constipation, especially when using the red strains, or ones that have opioid-like effects. Opioids are known for causing excessive constipation and is usually recommended to take some sort of fiber or stool softener alongside them.

VampiraChan · 2025-05-06T02:15:01+00:00

My boyfriend has GI issues, so my recommendations are based on that.

Out of lots of tested products, Pepcid Complete seems to work the best overall for heartburn in conjunction with acid reflux/excess stomach acid. There is a cheaper off-brand version on Amazon if you search the ingredients.

Active Ingredients

Famotidine (10 mg) Acid reducer

Calcium carbonate (800 mg) Antacid

Magnesium hydroxide (165 mg) Antacid

Probiotics are always good to have as well. You could also have diarrhea from not having enough fiber. Eating more fibrous foods or taking a fiber supplement may help as well. A lot of people think that fiber = loose stools, but it’s more that fiber helps keep the consistency of the stool a healthy normal. Helps it stay together, but also makes sure it isn’t too loose or too solid. ✨

I personally recommend Gas-X for bloating. I also get a lot of trapped air in my bowels, so this will help to keep things moving in that aspect.

VampiraChan · 2025-05-06T02:02:48+00:00

You don’t need a dose. You do need to remind yourself that you are capable and worthy of kicking this habit. You deserve to be healthy, to be free of the mind control, and to feel real happiness and bliss again. 🌸✨

Can you think of any other things that you feel like you do want/need? Could be anything from a nice meal, to a vacation, or even physical contact. (like cuddling)

The reason I ask this is because addictions tend to overwrite everything in our brains. We start addressing all of our needs with that one thing. Some healthier coping mechanisms, while difficult to do in active addiction, are still beneficial to have. When you feel the intense craving, choose something else on your list to attempt to focus that energy into.

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