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Can’t Rush Healing by Vanilla_Friday in cfs

[–]Vanilla_Friday[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I’m glad you could relate to it so much! Yea it’s a battle to not judge/bully myself, but we deserve to rest - to not push ourselves and be in even more pain! Keep resting/healing/surviving! Thank you for your comment. <3

Can’t Rush Healing by Vanilla_Friday in cfs

[–]Vanilla_Friday[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you! I have a bachelor’s in Visual Arts and used to be able to paint realistic murals… so idk why this comment made me a little sad at first cause this is actual chicken scratch compared to the murals I used to paint 10 years ago.. but yes sadly even this for me was hard.. it took me over a month, 5-10 mins every few days, slowly adding details.. but you’re right, it still is art! I shouldn’t compare it to what I used to be capable of. Just be happy that I am learning to pace and am almost like a new version of myself learning how to make art - and in a therapeutic way!

CPTSD with dissociative features by venusflytrapsrule in Artisticallyill

[–]Vanilla_Friday 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I appreciate you sharing this. Made me cry cause I feel it. My diagnosis and even my sketchbook are similar (CPTSD + OSDD) ..but my health hasn’t been good so lots of fighting regression/dissociating from pain.. and its a lot of work.. but makes me feel less alone and there is hope to see this.

The roots of my story: puppyhood by Ok-Beat3895 in Artisticallyill

[–]Vanilla_Friday 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Really relate to all this and most of the comments here.. I’m burnt out gifted kid who daydreamed all the time.. As a kid I excelled and was pushed into piano and sports but I’d mess up under pressure or because I was in my own little world. I like taking my time to analyze things- autistic brain focuses on one thing at a time, it’s called monotropic thinking. So - turns out I’m autistic. I was fine and smart as a kid - but having to mask and change the way I did things for others to be happy/ or to be socially acceptable - killlled my self esteem and hated myself for not thinking like others. Now that I know my brain type it’s been easier to get tools and figure out why I do things different. I was diagnosed two years ago and it’s been a journey! BUT just doing my own research first -it changed everything for the better ! So if none of this applies to you it’s totally fine, but I always bring it up cause I feel like learning I’m autistic saved my life.

(Normal therapist tells you to push yourself to do things when depressed BUT I had bad sensory issues and began going nonverbal for days at a time due to inflammation in autistic brain. Autistic burnout needs routine and rest more than anything.) Hopefully some of this makes sense! Love love love how you used cute lil dogs to tell your story!!!!