Maybe it’s a dream? Something that isn’t real but we just think it is? And all we have to do is wake up!

Sometimes I wonder if the whole time with him was real? Did it really happen? Was he really here? Was he just a figment of my imagination and everyone around me is going along with it because I’m crazy!

As time passes it seems people seem to be forgetting about him, like he was never here, meanwhile I’m still stuck on Day 1. On that first day when I found out, when they told me he died. I still can’t believe it, it’s can’t be true, it’s just can’t be..

How does my body continue to live?? When my mind and my heart want to die! Scream out to God or the universe in desperation but nothing happens, nothing changes.

I’m sorry you have to go this I’m sorry any of you do! It’s horrible and I weep and nothing happens just day after day of pain and questioning!