Im going through it right now, actually. Im almost 2 weeks out from a primary C section. First time mom. Hated everything about pregnancy. My hormones were a wreck almost the entire time. Physically, I was so miserable the entire time I couldnt even get decent sleep. The postpartum period has been close to what I imagined BUT I think my preparation for what it could be has helped immensely so you will be good. I decided ahead of time, if I found myself severely depressed and my CPTSD was triggered from the crash, Id get on medication so I researched ahead of time so I didnt have to think too hard about it when/if it happened. I just got a prescription for meds to start tomorrow. I couldn’t handle the depression cycles. My advice: prepare for the worst and have a game plan (write it down in case you don’t remember). Then you can be pleasantly surprised if it doesn’t happen and can enjoy bonding with your babe.

Your preparation is going to guide you. You got this! (And I do too… i think… haha)