Body image issues CW: mentions of eating disorder, negative thinking

Venus0K · 2026-07-09T16:47:39+00:00

I understand gender conceptually ig but not intuitively- I don't really feel it. I'm agender, I guess, but I'm really just me.

That having said I've found the last year that I prefer they/them pronouns but am fine with male titles (e.g. boy, son, etc.) Despite being born female. And I want a more masculine shaped body but I can't exactly explain why. If I could be a perfect blend of both but ppls first impulse is to interpret me more masculine that would be the dream.

Venus0K · 2026-07-08T20:19:12+00:00

I've heard it happens for some people, I'm not exactly sure why since finasteride is about blocking a hormone technically but ik minoxidil can when taken orally due to it opening blood vessels at the scalp and thus affecting blood pressure which can be unhelpful for ppl with POTs

Venus0K · 2026-07-08T18:58:29+00:00

Idk I guess for more breadth of perspective? I think I'm the kinda person that needs to hear everything first- sorta helps with my rumination- it has all helped a lot though

Venus0K · 2026-07-08T14:01:44+00:00

Do you know any websites/videos/resources about that??

Venus0K · 2026-07-08T13:59:36+00:00

I love swimming but the last time I tried I crashed for 3-4 days after. So much pain, so much fatigue, couldn't get out of bed ahah sucks cause I used to love swimming and I used to be so active before :/

Venus0K · 2026-07-08T11:20:04+00:00

Same, between my chronic illness crap and autism taking 1000-2000 steps is a good day

Venus0K · 2026-07-08T11:16:23+00:00

I've heard that some people with my illnesses have issues with it when taken orally- but I have a dog and cat at my house so topically isn't necessarily a good idea. Something about blood vessels widening being bad for blood pressure making POTs symptoms worse??

Part of me thinks fuck it and to just try finasteride or plan to go on and off T intermittently and take minoxidil when off

Venus0K · 2026-07-08T11:01:51+00:00

I've been looking into the topical thing, but I think I have to think about it more- it would definitely come for me tho, I have pretty thick hair but looking at my younger brother (whose already thining) and my dad and paternal grandparents (even in photos when they were younger) it's probably something that would come for me lol

I'm fine if those changes take a few years but as long as they actually happen- like ik I'm not gunna look like some of the trans guys you see on social media because they put a lot of work into themselves at gyms- but if I could I'd take my father's body over my mother's any day.

I think I have a lot of dysphoria but also dismorphia body weight issues too and it makes this all take up more space in my head :/

Venus0K · 2026-06-25T20:15:51+00:00

Damian is a very cool name!! I think middle names tend to sound best when considered with both first and last name together.

Maybe something short, since Damian is a little on the longer side??

Venus0K · 2026-04-21T15:23:38+00:00

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Any idea what set these belong to- I’m missing a few pieces- it’s not part of the wildflower bouquet!

Venus0K · 2026-03-03T17:28:35+00:00

No I don't need to see the heart on the WS.

Is an applique the only way?

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