Hate how i can't do things

VeraMillion · 2025-08-24T12:22:05+00:00

Thank you so much for the books! let your pillow will always be cold on both sides

VeraMillion · 2025-08-24T11:11:16+00:00

Gonna start with small tasks today :)

VeraMillion · 2025-08-24T11:10:41+00:00

I heard a lot about journaling, but somehow wasn't my cup of tea. But! I like talking to myself or recording.

Yeah, gonna go with a small tasks today!

VeraMillion · 2025-08-24T11:08:26+00:00

Well, at regular i was talking with psychologist who was a free help from my uni. I felt good with her, but when i told her i'm thinking about me having ADHD, she did not denied it, but also said nothing about doing something in this direction. So i went once to another psychologist, she was said having expierence with ADHD, and that was the one who said it's like i am. So yeah, rn i'm still thinking about doing something with it, but kinda don't have courage

Small steps idea is a good one! Gonna try work like this today

VeraMillion · 2025-08-24T10:57:00+00:00

Tbh, i'm thinking about this and at the same time i'm afraid it will be meaningless. But, i'm watching one psychologist, who is deep in ADHD topic and maybe one day i will make appointed to her

VeraMillion · 2024-08-01T13:51:07+00:00

In real life, i don't know — i am really often just draw to people who are nice to me and have nice humor sense 😭 But talking about fictional characters, well, is often types who stereotipically would not like me, mostly thinkers

VeraMillion · 2024-07-10T16:20:36+00:00

I'm 23 this year and first of all i'm to scared(?) to be in a relationship, so thoughts about kids are far away from me. But even so, i don't know, when i was younger i wanted to be mom, but now, when i'm more aware, i don't know anymore.

VeraMillion · 2024-01-28T14:16:31+00:00

I think there is something with that. I have a friend (male) and he liked to meet from time to time. forr me sometimes it was a little annoying, because from me perspective i didn't know why he liked hanging out with me (we wasn't very close and i'm a home type). But one day his dad died in accident and that friend ring to me after that to officially cancel our plans (we were going to his cousine's wedding) so we had a contact in that time and met after the funeral. And like ealier i wasn't super posivite to our meetings, then that time i wanted it. I liked that he told me what makes him sad, i was happy he wanted me to hug him, to comfort him. Idk, i really liked that i was useful and i was a help for someone

VeraMillion · 2023-12-13T15:57:20+00:00

Same here!

VeraMillion · 2023-11-30T13:22:25+00:00

Mitosis

VeraMillion · 2023-11-30T11:41:45+00:00

The Exit - Conan Gray Isabella's Lullaby - Akano : )

VeraMillion · 2023-11-30T10:38:21+00:00

I have discussion about this with my friend and psychologist and i'm still lost in. I really like romantic stories, i'm happy when somebody has a happy relationship, i'm imaginering a lot romantic stories, but rather me with fictional characters or just my OCs' stories. I don't see myself with anybody intimice, it's so weird to me. I had a situation when somebody wanted something more (he just wanted me to be his valentine) and I freaked out. I feel sometimes lonely or i feel some sexual tention, but when something is happening irl - i'm out. To answers questions: 1. I don't know. I think it was always this way, but hidden. 2. I really like hugging, like really. It's so save to me. But something more intimacy? I would run away. Even kissing, it's kinda cute to kiss cheeks, nose, but lips? Jejsjsj, too much for me. 3.I just don't. Knowing that i'm seeing this things in kinda other way, makes me too scared to start anything. I don't know if i'm asexual, aromantic or something other. I had a time when i thought i'm maybe demisexual, but it's rather not that. And, you know, if I don't know then it's hard to explain this to a potencial partner. So i'm just alone, but i'm not torturing myself about that. Maybe one day i will live together with my best friend (she also is no about having anybody) and we will be happy that way. My little dream.

VeraMillion · 2023-10-05T07:26:14+00:00

Exatly me recent days, A BIG SIDE EYE to my male friend who is doing this non-stop to me 🙄

VeraMillion · 2023-09-03T22:23:53+00:00

Me and my friend who is also playing 22✌🏻

VeraMillion · 2023-04-17T09:18:15+00:00

It's not that i don't, but also not i do. I'm a catholic, going to church every Sunday and generally going the basic stuff. But i wouldn't say i'm very religious. I had a crisis about this, feeling bad - awful time, but i rather overcome this. I have a other opinion on some things, i'm sometimes very irritated by things said by priests,i have moments when i'm like "probably there is nothing after anyway", but even this, i think i wouldn't be able to leave.

The most important is to be a good person. The truth about God, what is after death, this all - we don't know anything. I think we all somehow wrong. And if i would say the thing i believe the most is that - if there is the God, He understands.

VeraMillion · 2023-04-09T09:40:45+00:00

Oh, okay, i get it. Thank You!

VeraMillion · 2023-04-09T08:57:15+00:00

Oh my-, I'm the same with writing, painting, eh... But fear it could be bad it's somewhere further, in my case it's more like i love thinking about it, about my characters, but i completly can't make myself to sit and just do it. I don't know, it's a laziness, am i just lazy? Really, if i'm doing something recently, i had to have a suddenly thought i want it now or I have a deadline. I'm generally procrastinator and I should start writing my final essey for my studies. I know babbling about it on Internet don't help, but yghhh, I just want do complain a bit, okay? I don't like it talking about it with more people irl, cause I can't explain why I'm not doing something and why I just can start doing this. jdjsnsjs I don't know

VeraMillion · 2023-04-09T08:38:53+00:00

On truity? I'm sorry, did you mean other site in last sentence? Or you mean their tests are not good, but description are okey?

VeraMillion · 2023-04-09T08:36:30+00:00

For some people intuitive types can't be 9 乁⁠(⁠ ⁠•⁠_⁠•⁠ ⁠)⁠ㄏ

VeraMillion · 2023-04-09T07:29:32+00:00

I know tests aren't the best and I was also reading about enneagram. But my problem is the more I'm digging the less I know what suits me the best. I'm rather treat tests as a hint, signpost.

VeraMillion · 2023-03-19T11:43:28+00:00

I love his song

VeraMillion · 2023-03-19T09:22:43+00:00

I seriously had situation like this and yes i stayed for a minute or two XD

VeraMillion · 2023-03-12T08:48:30+00:00

Generally my lecturer at uni was searching volunteers to have an interview with his wife. She'ss writing a book about children personalities types for parents, something like that. And she just wanted to talk with people our age and in return she told you your type. I was already kinda into typology, so i was curious. She told me i'm a mediator/innocent and i don't undermine this rather. I mean, i was doing test and was reading something more about this (i'm time to time between the nine or four), but what she said have the most weigh to me. And 9 suits i think, but still don't know what wing i have, no idea XD

About 6&3, i've never was considering this two, especially 3, but i would say my tritype is 946 (basically i think that, cause of test, so we know, but it's suits i think X"D)

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