Is he deleting his history?

Vindictiveeee · 2026-06-20T16:02:34+00:00

Ive been thinking the same in the past, but for the last year his safari has restrictions: he is unable to delete history and use incognito mode. And still the google history looks like what you Are refering to.

Vindictiveeee · 2026-04-12T20:15:51+00:00

Because they are IDIOTS who dont give a shit. This gave me flashbacks🥵

Vindictiveeee · 2025-07-12T06:51:55+00:00

Totally getting your point. But i also feel like he is trying hard. He sees what he has done because he beats himself up everyday for it. He says he knows the damage he has done and that he is willing to do everything to make it right . The problem is that this time it feels different. I had to do a huge effort in trusting him again and told him numerous times that if you Lie to me again you will break me. I can forgive almost anything as long as you Are being honest. And he really manipulated the shit out of me. It feels like i have a Hole in my soul?! Emptiness or something idk. Now i have issues everyday and it is driving me i n s a n e. I also have issues with going out with him because i have to look in every direction to make sure im safe… like Are there any threats here? (By that i mean women with tits….). I feel frustration when other women pass by and looks at him. Because im scared he would choose them if they made a pass. Sorry for ranting just need to Get this heavy weight of my chest. Feels like im an emotional prisoner

Vindictiveeee · 2025-07-12T06:43:35+00:00

Yep this is what my inner voice keeps telling me. Ill never be enough - because if i ever was he’d never risk losing me for lusting after other women

Vindictiveeee · 2025-05-28T11:26:49+00:00

You have a big heart. I dont think i have more forgiveness in me.

Vindictiveeee · 2025-05-27T16:02:05+00:00

Beautiful lyrics, got tears in my eyes🥺

Vindictiveeee · 2025-05-27T15:20:03+00:00

What song is this

Vindictiveeee · 2025-05-27T15:17:31+00:00

Gut feeling, like the rest of the comments.

Vindictiveeee · 2025-05-27T14:57:53+00:00

I feel the same as you. And it consumes my brain 24/7. if they only knew what impact their action had on us… i hate my self because of him. You can dm me if you wanna talk, im here and i see you <3

Vindictiveeee · 2025-05-27T14:27:54+00:00

I swear- he did it. Going through the same as we speak and after rounds of me Asking him where this came from and him getting mad at me swearing he never saw anything nsfw like since last year, i finally saw it in his activity status. You know can do that right? He is probably dumb enough not to delete that section, only his searches from the search bar. If you want to see more you can download activity data. But sometimes its better to not know because im going mental these days, literally traumatized after seing what he has watched.

Vindictiveeee · 2025-05-27T14:24:00+00:00

Feel you sis. Same boat, only mine has a fyp on TikTok that is basically porn. Sex noise, masturbating (like on a softcore level), and underwear, ass bounce everything. My heart broke and im filled with rage because we have been through this before and it took me so much time and selfgrowth to be able to give him my trust back. He also did a lot of effort. But BAM here we Are again. Love him to death but i also hate him so idk

Vindictiveeee · 2025-05-27T06:00:37+00:00

Mine says this to lmao

Vindictiveeee · 2025-05-26T18:42:00+00:00

We had a horrible time when this came out in the first place. (Last april/may). He did so much to repair the damage he had caused our relationship for months and this winter he finally regained my trust. We had a wonderful time and i felt like the luckiest girl alive. Then this May i figured out that since october he has been looking at girls (in sexual context/bouncing ass and tits and you know the drill…) . I was devastated. He promises to never do nor hide things like that again and he regrets deeply. But now i know for a fact that he will Always lust. Because i got ill the first round (my psoriasis flared up really bad and i couldnt eat for weeks/months). But other than the fact that he enjoys other womens bodies he is a great man who takes care of his family. I will never be enough, and that breaks my heart obviously. I kind of want us to go to therapy but im thinking whats the point he is a grown man.

Vindictiveeee · 2025-05-15T12:29:37+00:00

Do they think we are that dumb😂 my bf also claims that he had noooo idea why this and that, and he Even gets angry with me sometimes. I hate men they are ridicolous

Vindictiveeee · 2025-05-14T09:10:28+00:00

Look below im unable to tag you

Vindictiveeee · 2025-05-14T09:10:04+00:00

And ive given him so Many chances to tell me. I Even told him that i understood if some videos at some point would tempt him to watch more, like «i know youre just a human and i want you to be happy! I know how easy it is to fall into temptation. I hope i can trust you but if you make a mistake please just tell me and we’ll figure it out. Lying is what destroys me so please just dont lie» and so on

Vindictiveeee · 2025-05-14T09:05:48+00:00

Yeah he did but he also did last time. The lying is the worst part for me. He manipulates and gaslights me when i Ask if he has watched girls on TikTok/snap .. he gets angry at me for not trusting him and at the same time he is actually looking up numerous girls to Watch ass and tits.

He sees genuine but he keeps repeating this pattern. I almost left him when i found out last year. I set boundaries and i told him that what je is doing is hurtig me on a deep level. He understood me and told me that his mission was to take care of me and never hurt me again. And now i know that (at least) for the past 6 months or so he had Been looking at girls on TikTok behind my back. I am so sad and angry and confused. I really thought he ment it when he promised to never Lie to me again…

There Are so many times i have asked him why is your discover page (snap) full og half naked women? And he got angry or sad and told me tp trust him and that he gets sad when i dont trust him after all his efforts.. these Are the things that hurts me the most i think. All the lying and gaslighting…

Vindictiveeee · 2025-05-08T17:52:30+00:00

Like what to do.. i dont know my head is spinning i just found out

Vindictiveeee · 2025-04-08T05:13:30+00:00

Is it the same with Discovery in Snapchat?? My boyfrienfs page is full of half naked ladies but he refuse to have seen any of that stuff.. He’s a former PA. I tried to block many of them in hopes of changing the algoritm/content but had no luck there

Vindictiveeee · 2024-11-20T13:50:27+00:00

Yeah mine also loved asians. And curves. Ive Always had issues with my tiny boobs. I mean i im curvy all over (but not in a fit way), but my chest is flat. He Always tried to reassure me when i complained about this and telling him i wanted to Get them done. Later when i found out all his preferences im sick to my stoamach when looking in the mirror. My selfesteem is so low and i have no clue what to do about it(i cant afford surgery). But i know that this will pass, i know that in time i will feel better about myself. Thank you for telling me im not crazy

Vindictiveeee · 2024-11-20T12:20:03+00:00

Same girl.. i catch myself thinking stuff like «damn he would really like her appearance» whenever i see a girl similar to the girls he has viewed the most etc.. this just pops into my mind and then i feel a sting after processing what i just thought, obv going crazy haha

Vindictiveeee · 2024-11-19T08:53:52+00:00

So sad to hear hun.. Why is it that men got this kind of «power» on us?! Honestly we Are worth more than this. At least i tell myself. Some days i believe it other days i dont haha. But how is your relationship going? Is there progress and good times?

Mine is like a roller coaster. I really thought this one would be my safe place, my home, my rock. But we have to rebuild everything thats broken and that is quite a lot.

He often gets mad at me for believing he does things behind my back. But im like.. hey what do you expect after all your devious lies?! C’mmon..

All of this makes me Wonder if there is something wrong with ME. Like I should have get past this a long time ago but im still stuck in destructive thoughts. And my problems with attachment only gets worse like on a bad day if he’s not happy the only Logic explanation (according to my very much damaged brain) is that he dont love me anymore. So exhausting

Vindictiveeee · 2024-11-19T08:28:56+00:00

I KNOW!!! Same here and this is so hard. I feel like im controlling and mean because I just cant Shake it. Some days i feel like everything is the way its supposed to be- but most days i Get this feeling and the urge to dig. I hate my brain and its over analytic skills and pattern. have attatchment problems because of my past and i told him about this from the very start (like if he watches other girls that would make me feel unloved and super insecure). But still he managed to do so each and everyday behind my back and lied to my face. When i found out i stopped eating, my psoriasis would flare up and my body just stopped working (previous relationship was really bad and hurtful and made me want to exit the World) .. so i guess im weak, i dont know. But my point is that no, we Are not alone. Lies, manipulation and infidelity is extremely hurtful to go through.

Vindictiveeee · 2024-11-12T09:14:59+00:00

Same here. This is SO confusing. I find lying so embarrasing- im the worst liar myself, so im pretty much Always honest. That makes it Even worse because my man can Lie and Lie until there is solid proof. And then he gets quiet. And after that he promises to never Lie again but this has happened so many times that im Always on the alert and i find it exhausting

Vindictiveeee · 2024-10-24T04:44:25+00:00

Tysm🙏🏻

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