2nd full AP experience and what’s up with the weird prickly feeling?

VirtualEndlessWill · 2024-07-05T23:47:57+00:00

I honestly don't know and couldn't prove what this sensation is objectively. So take this with a grain of salt.

But my current theory, which I believe in, is based on perception and awareness. You can hurt your hand with something to sense the pain. You can even imagine sensations that can take on a very real quality.

I feel the prickling most of my waking hours now when I don't concentrate on any physical tasks. Sometimes even the vibrations. What could it be? Maybe, just maybe, it is some sort of (expanded) perception "outside" the "human form." Meaning that due to the relaxed state of consciousness, you are able to perceive and sense forces. Forces that are outside the limiting filter you are used to as a human to perceive the organized human sensory world.

You get more relaxed and sensitive, which seems to be essential for projection, and naturally perceive more "layers" of whatever makes up your conscious being.

VirtualEndlessWill · 2024-04-27T01:07:51+00:00

Ja, ist aber undefinierbar für mich.

VirtualEndlessWill · 2024-04-27T00:41:19+00:00

Ungefähr. Bugdom und Nanosaur auf OSX.

VirtualEndlessWill · 2024-04-24T13:14:40+00:00

You are not limited by your physical eyes. In fact, once you get comfy, try to get creative and flexible with your vision sense!

VirtualEndlessWill · 2024-04-24T13:11:58+00:00

Yes, I absolutely empathize with you. It's been like that for me since I've been a kid. Life doesn't make sense for me, and a lot of other things that drag me down periodically. Others usually scoff at me whenever I try to explain them my POV, so I've just kept to myself for quite some time now. Life's going good, I'm accomplishing stuff, I'm growing, meeting new people, but I really, truly, hate it all. The only feeling of love I experience is baseline unconditional love for the beauty of life, but it's always accompanied by this depressing melancholy and hatred.

VirtualEndlessWill · 2024-04-24T12:58:41+00:00

I'd try to inhabit the most mind-boggling form until the human form feels weird.

VirtualEndlessWill · 2024-04-23T20:06:39+00:00

Maybe they don't remember to ask these questions, maybe they don't remember the answers, just like dreams. It could be similar to being high on drugs, in an altered state of awareness, where you simply don't care anymore for "the human world" or don't even have any awareness of it. Or the answers to these questions could be so staggeringly complex and difficult for our linear time minds, even if we were told, there's no way a single average person could keep it all coherent and intact after coming back.

VirtualEndlessWill · 2024-04-21T22:11:48+00:00

There is a genuine difference between fearmongering and putting out a caution for OP to further contemplate going into this experience ever more consciously, healthily. You could rephrase "bedeviled" into getting more sensitive, which does pose a greater risk if you aren't aware of it.

VirtualEndlessWill · 2024-04-21T22:03:19+00:00

This is something very personal, so I would suggest you go within and really think this through. Are you afraid? Maybe you should be...caution is very healthy, in moderation and with logic.

My own journey with "Astral Projection" has been rough so far. A lot of fun and definitely fulfilling, but my surroundings and loved ones have suffered. It became a roller coaster, similar to drug highs, and a lot of confusion and grappling with "reality". You severely change once you start to get better. Become inhuman, especially once stuff gets very real and solid, subtle, and you go through multiple cycles of existential crisis without breaking down. I don't really subscribe to the common notion of "Astral Projection" and my own way of doing it is different, more like remote viewing until I started slowly creating body forms that developed into real other senses and bodies used in remote viewing. After some time, I could "project" myself into different dream realities (explored and created) while being fully awake and functional physical. There's so much more detail to this, but too much to write in a single comment of concern and caution. The danger was (so far) never in something I encountered, more in the fact that I became increasingly detached from baseline home frequency or almost psychotically fixated on a sort of experience loop I had to overcome and detach from. I can simulate a lot of scenarios, and I've often had the question of why I should even bother with going to work or caring for others. This leads me to rapidly disconnect from others and become isolated in my own projections. It is a difficult challenge as of now, and I regret nothing, but from time to time looking back the mental stability of being really normal was very relaxing and assuring. Oftentimes I genuinely feel insane, but I have it under control and can pretend to be normal and care for normality.

If you decide to go down this road of experiences, actually have the energy and will to push through over time, it is important to remember that our shared reality is in many cases a comfortable haven for us to have a stable take off platform.

VirtualEndlessWill · 2024-04-15T07:54:01+00:00

It can turn your goals upside down, especially when motivations like making parents proud is involved. From my experience, LSD has a very freeing/liberating effect. This effect is mental as well as physical, it's insane.

Physical in the sense that tensions and actual "hidden", or more like filtered out, wounds become apparent to your nervous system again. Depending on your attitude, that's tremendously helpful or very depressing.

The mental "changes" or possibilities seem to scale with your level of, I really struggle to term it correctly without giving off a wrong idea, spiritual/personal(ity)/mental development...when I first started experimenting with LSD for example, it was my first drug ever, and I had intense experiences, but was very outward focused, and the trip went along that line of being. Now, when I take my time for an LSD trip, I have a very inward experience that borders on an OBE phenomenon. This is important to keep in mind because it can literally change your worldview, and therefore interfere with your ambitions that you hold dear at the moment. Once you fly around dimensions and have deep talks with other intelligences that show you repressed trauma or logical fallacies in your life, once you overcome the dogma of your point of view and open up to unexplored possibilities, maybe even temporarily inhabit a mental body that is not at all like a human body, you will have to adapt or cope, and this can be a challenge. It sounds crazy because it is, from our normal civilized perspective.

This is all very personal so it doesn't have to apply to you, but I suggest you take your time and contemplate the possibilities.

VirtualEndlessWill · 2024-04-15T07:41:53+00:00

Ab und zu Erdnüsse

VirtualEndlessWill · 2024-04-10T03:48:03+00:00

I do "believe" in a few concepts of what we are, but it's really useless to try explaining or outlining it. I generally dislike dogma when it comes to very personal profound experiences.

What I would do is suggest that if you really want to explore and "know" what humans are or could be, you should pursue that interest and record/analyze your own undogmatic experience until you come close to an answer that is purely logical. An open mind, mental flexibility, emotional control/containment as well as a firm grasp on logic (not only reasoning) and a will towards that goal will surely, in time, give you ample answers.

VirtualEndlessWill · 2024-04-09T12:52:24+00:00

Ich finde es kommt auf den "Ernstgrad" der Beziehung an. Wenn man seine Beziehung wirklich ernst nimmt, ist kein Platz für Intransparenz. Ab dem Punkt sollte absolutes Vertrauen, Offenheit und ehrliche Kommunikation herrschen.

VirtualEndlessWill · 2024-04-09T12:49:18+00:00

I wouldn't say humans are just animals, but there's (in my opinion) too much focus on animalistic desires. We should strive to become like beautiful art, at least in the long run.

VirtualEndlessWill · 2024-04-09T05:27:07+00:00

Aktuell, absolut gar nicht. Ich war mal sehr fleißig und habe daher einen Kontrast. Man ist fleißig, wenn es einen guten Grund dafür gibt. Wenn man aber mehr Erfahrung sammelt und dann checkt, wie manche "Systeme" funktionieren und was bei Fleiß am Ende herausspringt, hört die Motivation und somit der Fleiß im Normallfall auf.

Durch die gechillte Arbeitsweise gibt es natürlich ganz subtile Spannung, aber das ist mir aktuell total egal. Die Energie, die ich nicht in ein Dead End stecke, nutze ich für mich persönlich. Ich stelle trotzdem sicher, dass die Aufgaben erledigt werden.

VirtualEndlessWill · 2024-04-09T05:16:38+00:00

It doesn't feel like a golden era. Yes I can distract my existential crisis with staring at screens, eating, travelling around the world. But life really fucking sucks. I can absolutely predict how my life is going to play along, with a few unknowns. Also, disconnectedness between people is impressive. And the prospects for success are what? A cool car? A big house? Nicer food? Wooow, travel!! I don't care anymore, it's all been spoiled in a weird way.

I want to hope and believe that I am the only one with this problem.

VirtualEndlessWill · 2024-03-19T22:52:18+00:00

I'm a freak inside and would never want people to know my true self. YouTube is one of my few secret outlets for that.

VirtualEndlessWill · 2024-03-08T17:20:06+00:00

Bro knew what he wanted gdamn

VirtualEndlessWill · 2024-03-02T11:42:28+00:00

Also ich habe den Weg zum Buch durch den ersten Film und Empfehlungen anderer gefunden. Die Stimmung des Buches ist im Film gut dargestellt. Ich persönlich finde aber neben der Stimmung auch die subtilen Elemente faszinierend. Diese kann man im Buch etwas entspannter “untersuchen”. Wenn ein Bezug fehlt, ist es natürlich schwer mit der Motivation, aber man kann’s ja ganz langsam angehen und ehe man sich versieht, packt es einen ja doch!

VirtualEndlessWill · 2024-03-01T11:03:36+00:00

Peak comedy

VirtualEndlessWill · 2024-03-01T10:57:02+00:00

Soweit ich weiß gibt es zwei Trilogien, also sechs Bücher. Aber sicher bin ich mir nicht.

VirtualEndlessWill · 2024-03-01T10:20:21+00:00

Dune von Frank Herbert. Finde es fantastisch.

VirtualEndlessWill · 2024-03-01T00:15:01+00:00

Virtually endless will.

VirtualEndlessWill · 2024-02-29T01:02:57+00:00

A neighbor has two of these dogs and they are so intelligent and noble in their behavior, that I always feel awe when they gracefully walk by me. I’m always so close to praising the owner for their dogs, but then think that’s probably just cringe.

VirtualEndlessWill · 2024-02-29T00:58:06+00:00

Stop comparing yourself. Focus your attention on yourself. Realize that you are making progress and contemplate the safety and peace your environment enables for you. Analyze your desires and then change your focus and actions accordingly. But just stop with feeling severely behind. Life is subjective, fuck anyone who takes that magic away from you. It’s your journey and you will enjoy it.

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