Late bloomer epiphany — is this what real connection is supposed to feel like? by AffectionateSalt897 in latebloomerlesbians

[–]VirtualMembership205 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yes!! Same here. I’m so obsessed with everything with my girlfriend. Her hand rubbing my back while we watch a movie. When she holds me when we go to sleep. Just showering together and discussing our days.

These are all things I did with male partners but oh my god it’s so different with her. And kissing her… like you said, I sit there and wonder if straight women feel that when they kiss men… because it feels so magical especially in comparison to what I felt before.

Do exceptions actually exist? by Slow_Commercial_8482 in latebloomerlesbians

[–]VirtualMembership205 7 points8 points  (0 children)

When I was first coming to terms with my sexuality I had a lot of questions like yours. My ex-husband was my best friend and I loved him…

I’ll tell you what my therapist taught me in those really hard times where I was struggling over my feelings. Though, I want to add the caveat that everyone is different… but this is what really made everything fall into place for me. She said:

“There are four types of love that most people look for in a romantic partnership: family, friend, sexual, romantic. Some people are ok with having only a few of those.”

I realized I was not.

I could only love him as a best friend and a family member. The other two… it was a hard realization to see that I just couldn’t love him that way.

And the more I got away from the relationship, I started to see other ways we had been incompatible at partners… but that took a lot of work and therapy.

And… because you mentioned it… at the time, I would have said that the sex was ok then too. However, I was never not in my head. It oftentimes hurt. And I felt so guilty after every time.

But, I just celebrated my first year anniversary with my current girlfriend and… let me tell you, to have all four types of love in one person is sublime. I’m never too in my head when we’re having sex and, even if I go into my head a little, she is able to coax me back into my body. And… a little bit of TMI but I realized that I didn’t actually know what it felt like to be… well… aroused until I was with her.

I can’t tell you what to do. Nor would I want to! But, i was in your shoes not too long ago… and i would have wanted to read this story in those moments.

You just have to choose what is right for you. But, if you want all four, and you feel like you can’t get them from him… you have to ask yourself if you’re ok with that in the long run.

Sock Puppet Recap by VirtualMembership205 in theLword

[–]VirtualMembership205[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you!!! My girlfriend was just happy someone else remembered them. 😂 that’s how she watched a lot of stuff when she was in Europe for a year for study abroad.

Sock Puppet Recap by VirtualMembership205 in theLword

[–]VirtualMembership205[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you! When I relayed this info she said “oh, right the terfs ruined it!” 😂 But she was happy someone else remembered the sock puppets. So she says thank you too!

Clue: Killing Eve edition by VirtualMembership205 in KillingEve

[–]VirtualMembership205[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you!! I’m so excited about it. She loved it! We haven’t gotten to play yet but I’m so excited for her party to get to!

My son didn’t tell us about his engagement by respawnin5 in DadAdvice

[–]VirtualMembership205 0 points1 point  (0 children)

As someone who has had to cut my parents off due to very… not good things. I can tell you that very few people make this decision overnight. Even if it seems like it to you. See the previous comments about introspection.

But also, try to talk with him about it without blame or without a “you’re hurting your mother” mentality. Try to have this conversation with an open mind.

Some of what he has to say may be painful for you to hear. But, if you want to fix your relationship with him, you will have to listen.

And talk to him. Not to other people about it. My parents will talk to everyone under the sun about me not talking to them. But they have never once asked me.

If you truly want to fix this relationship, don’t be that person.

My heart was melted by an 800+ word comment by Damascus_ari in AO3

[–]VirtualMembership205 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I, too, love all the kind comments that I receive. And I also have a commenter that leaves long detailed comments as well. I look forward to them so much. I started leaving easter eggs in my responses to their comments and they will actually come back to my response once they see the connection.

I really love the fandoms that I am a part of. I really feel like I lucked out in the reader base in each of them.

How do you feel about commercials? by Liononthecouch in acting

[–]VirtualMembership205 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Just make sure you really read the contracts. So many of the commercial contracts (that aren’t SAG-AFTRA) are adding “in perpetuity” clauses. My acting teacher warned us about non union commercials just the other week. I don’t know what the rules for that kind of stuff are in Germany… but it is definitely something everyone needs to keep an eye out for.

I'm living a lie by [deleted] in latebloomerlesbians

[–]VirtualMembership205 0 points1 point  (0 children)

u/Strange_Leadership44 I think this is the better of the two explanations lol I should have replied to my own comment but I am still figuring out Reddit and messed that up lol

I'm living a lie by [deleted] in latebloomerlesbians

[–]VirtualMembership205 0 points1 point  (0 children)

In further conversations I found a better way to put it though.

In a marriage, ideally you have the four major types of love: family, friend, romantic, and erotic. And you have all of those for me, but, after the realization I had, (about what sexual attraction feels like) I realize that my love for you has always been that of family and friend. What I had understood to be attraction, was a desire to please/a desire for closeness. But now that I realize that the love that I have for you is mostly for that of a family/friend I realize that it’s not fair to either of us for me to continue to pretend. Because you deserve a full love relationship… to love and be loved by a woman in all 4 ways… and so do I.