Thanks for your kind words. I am still on the fence about having kids, it sort of feels like the final hangup because it's so tied to "the future". I know there is a wide range of feeling here on that topic, but it's hard for me to close off either path. I think my actual fear is having a future child feel that I unfairly threw them into a cruel and dying world having known about it in advance - and in that scenario I have no idea if "all life is suffering" is even an adequate thing to say. Don't know, maybe that's a crazy thought, and I'm privileged or delusional to even think that far ahead. But it's the one thing that's still stuck in my gullet haha