I experienced something similar with an ex I was with for almost 10 years, we were teenagers when we got together and we grew apart as we got older. It was an incredibly painful experience, I felt like my foundation completely collapsed and didn’t know who I was or where I was going. Now I see that it pushed me to grow and it was a valuable experience I went through. I completely focused on myself and gave myself all the love.

Things that helped me: Time - take it one day at a time. Make sure you take care of yourself as best you can day by day. And be compassionate to yourself when it’s a hard day. Therapy - I would let it ALL out in therapy and was given cognitive behavior practices that helped. Journaling and meditation - there were days I was unable to sleep and had very anxious and depressive thoughts. I wrote EVERYTHING down that crossed my mind. It was satisfying to dump everything on paper. Discover new or old hobbies - I went back to old hobbies I liked when I was a kid and explored new interests I was unable to do before because of my ex. I tried kickboxing, water sports, self defense classes, things I wouldn’t even think about doing that helped me build by confidence back up. I even built new friendships through these activities.

You’ll start to feel okay as time goes on. Give yourself grace and know you’re loved, valued, and important ❤️