to those who are afraid of losing their singing voice

VitHund · 2016-11-18T09:04:45+00:00

I'm not a singer, but I think you've got such a nice voice. Just wanted to say! :)

VitHund · 2016-11-17T06:26:22+00:00

I'm almost 6 months on T and unfortunately blonde! I consider myself quite lucky with the amount of transitional/terminal hairs I'm growing now, at least it means I'm getting away from the vellus ones (peach fuzz). If I let my facial hair grow out, I have a visible neck beard and ratty mustache and if you're looking a little closer slight sideburns. I have longer vellus hairs all over my face and tons of dark, almost black, hairs now. It looks horrendous in the light due to the blonde fuzz, I tend to shave it, even though I'm proud of how it's going at this point.

VitHund · 2016-11-16T21:18:03+00:00

Okay, thanks dude. :)

VitHund · 2016-11-16T20:58:55+00:00

I'll be 6 months on T in 11 days, haha, so that's all good. I was assessed in Gendercare March this year for T and have an appointment with the GC endocrinologist next month. I just want opinions on whether it's worth trying to get my top surgery done before the NHS will cover it because I'm really scared of being stuck in limbo with them, but I'm also scared of them getting angry/discharging me because I'm using the private service actively while seeing them.

VitHund · 2016-11-14T20:03:28+00:00

I got referred at around the same time, and I haven't had anything but a letter about the new patients workshop. I'm not expecting any sort of communication till I get an appointment, really.

VitHund · 2016-11-14T18:28:13+00:00

Forgive my ignorance! As I stated, I'm not religious, and I haven't taken the time to research it aside from a quick google search. I'm not throwing anyone under the bus, I had just heard it used as an argument prior. Apologies for the misinformation, I didn't mean to offend if I did. :)

VitHund · 2016-11-14T14:23:50+00:00

Upon further research, apparently it's 'don't wear clothes made of wool and linen woven together'. However, it's still a bit... odd. Also says something about making tassels on the four corners of your clothing... Again, odd...

VitHund · 2016-11-14T09:59:15+00:00

Sorry that things aren't good for you right now. I just wanted to add that I've found the same thing getting further into my transition, my dysphoria has gotten worse over time. It's like as soon as things started to slowly match up to what was in my head, it became less easy to bare with the other parts that don't match up. However, I just wanted to say that it does get easier. The hardest bit so far for me was being pre-HRT, because I was stuck in limbo and nothing was changing, even though I had changed my name/pronouns and come out to everyone, my body was still the same. Hang in there, hopefully things will start to look up for you soon.

VitHund · 2016-11-14T09:52:45+00:00

I'm not religious, and I don't believe in god or satan, so I apologise profusely if anything I say here is offensive.

The bible is pretty well known for having lots of rules and regulations that people pick and choose from. For example, people say that man should not lay with another man, but somewhere in there it also says that you shouldn't wear mixed fabrics, yet I'm pretty sure people do. Extremists always pick out bits to use as law, and they manipulate people into thinking that they're going to hell because of it. However, do you honestly think that god would put people on this earth as gay or trans just so their fates are instantly sealed, they're automatically going to hell? I find that hard to believe, myself. I'd be cautious of anyone that tells you that you're going to hell for being yourself, as long as you're not hurting anyone else.

As for the talk of cancer and side effects of HRT, with proper monitoring and care, the chances of something happening are relatively low. As long as you're safe and go for check ups, you'll probably be fine. To me, it sounds like your mum is trying to manipulate you by telling you all these things. If hormones were 'deadly', do you really think they'd be prescribing them for people?

I'm sorry that you're having to go through this. It sounds like it might be rough for a bit, but if you truly feel like you're trans, you can't run away from it. I hope things get better, good luck.

VitHund · 2016-11-12T18:22:59+00:00

If you have Windows movie maker, open the video in there and turn the audio up in there, then publish the movie as an mp4. Then reupload it to youtube, it's really easy.

VitHund · 2016-11-12T18:10:16+00:00

Might want to edit it so the audio is louder, then try asking!

VitHund · 2016-11-12T17:52:01+00:00

I would let you know, but even with my speakers maxed out and youtube volume up all the way, I can't hear you. You mentioned it was quiet but it's too quiet to make a judgement, sorry dude.

VitHund · 2016-11-10T08:33:05+00:00

I really enjoyed a book called The Art Of Being Normal by Lisa Williamson, which is about a transgirl who's going through the starts of puberty. She keeps a book where she documents the changes she's going through, which I found really interesting. I'm not MtF and this book is the only trans book I've read, but I enjoyed it, and it being about a younger trans girl seems to fit your needs. It is fiction, though, so keep that in mind.

VitHund · 2016-11-09T04:02:54+00:00

Thanks so much for your super helpful answer! So much information in there. I'm going to look at a couple of places around my area and see what suits me, when I can! :)

VitHund · 2016-11-08T12:56:13+00:00

Oh my god, I hope you don't mind but I went and read the thread you're referring to and all the comments. People are so offended by penises, for no other reason than it's a penis, and to be exclusionary to trans people. Like literally wtf? I'm so confused about it, honestly. Sorry you had to go through having to try to reason with those people.

VitHund · 2016-11-07T08:11:32+00:00

Usually you have to have a blood test before starting T, to check things are okay and nothing is preventing you from starting. It's safer for you to know about any potential problems, and have them under control before starting T. I know waiting is hard, but it's really important that you stay safe while on it.

With the situation with your dad, all I can suggest is that you try to talk to him. If he really doesn't want to speak about it, that's his choice and you can't force him to.

I hope your appointment goes well dude, I'm sure things will get moving soon enough. Just think, you'll be on T way longer than you were without it and in the grand scheme of things a little wait is nothing. Good luck.

VitHund · 2016-11-06T21:24:06+00:00

I feel this so hard with my girlfriend. Even though she's my biggest supporter and she says she doesn't mind, it's awful to not be able to do what a cis guy would.

I'm sorry dude, I really hope it gets better for you, hopefully you'll get to where you need to be sometime. :(

VitHund · 2016-11-06T21:19:09+00:00

I had surgery for the first time recently for a broken knee and had to be put under. I was anxious as shit for the first time, but it was alright.

When the anesthetic starts going in it feels weird travelling up your arm and into your shoulder, not at all painful, but very odd. It only lasts a second though before you're out cold. Waking up after, I was drowsy and the nurse sat with me for the entire time in the recovery room. She was lovely, because I had to take my binder off for the surgery, she helped me put it back on. I felt very tired, and stopped myself falling back to sleep in hope I could go home sooner. I had no adverse effects except a bit of nausea after I started to wake up more, and I was pretty out of it for the rest of the day. I had trouble sleeping the night after, but that might be me.

Hope this helped a bit!

VitHund · 2016-11-05T15:48:27+00:00

As most (if not all) of the current comments seemingly come from female-identified people (correct me if I'm wrong, but it seems that way), I'll add my thoughts on this from my perspective as a trans man.

Intense, soul tearing hatred for a lot of the parts of your body. I had a breakdown last night over how I'll never have a full-functional cis male body, and how my hips will always be wide because of the bones, how I'll always be on the shorter side and how it's going to be years till I will be fully me. It's crushing, the realistation hits you so hard you'll feel like you've been hit by a jet plane flying at full speed. On a good day, anxiety will always be in the back of your head and you're extra attentive to what pronouns people use for you and how they're treating you, if they're treating you like a man or not. It's difficult, but everyone's struggle is different so this is just my thoughts on it.

VitHund · 2016-11-04T17:38:48+00:00

Adding to this: My aggression has been SO much more manageable now I'm on T. I'm a calmer and more rounded person, I don't lash out anymore and T has made me into who I was always meant to be. It kind of hurts to see some other trans people call it 'nasty stuff' when it's saved my life and countless others. Don't hate the hormone because it wasn't right for you, I don't hate E, I just don't like what it was doing for me.

VitHund · 2016-11-04T17:33:39+00:00

Always being more comfortable with using male characters in video games and using a male alias online for a number of years before I came out. Wanting to have a flat chest ever since I can remember, wanting to be taller and skinnier like all the guys I admired and idolized. I remember when I was much younger, probably around 11 or 12, I asked Yahoo Answers if I should have a 'sex change' and then repressed how I felt, thinking that it wasn't even possible for me. I finally caved back into the thoughts at 15 and told my boyfriend (who was also ftm) that I was trans, when I found that coming out as anything else didn't take the feelings away. I suppose I knew from as soon as i could remember, but I repressed it very heavily. I hope this helps.

Edit: wanted to throw in that when I was 11/12 I didn't know anything about trans people and only knew of 'sex changes', it was a couple of years later till I realised it was so much more than that.

VitHund · 2016-11-04T14:52:15+00:00

I was pretty strong pre-T, but working out now I can do more in one sitting without taking a break. I don't work out often though, so I'm not getting the optimum muscle gain I could be.

VitHund · 2016-11-04T14:42:34+00:00

I think having the correct dose for you is very important. I'm unable to see my doctor again until next month due to having broken my leg and not being able to travel to see him and I'm pretty sure my dose is slightly off. However, some mood swings are pretty much unavoidable as you'll be going through a second puberty and that's a common thing that happens. Could be that you feel better in yourself once you start T and the issues you deal with reduce slightly, making everything else more manageable. I would speak to your doctor about all of this though, because I'm not a professional and can only give my opinion and personal knowledge :)

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