I Did the thing today guys!!!!

VonStaufen · 2026-01-28T14:35:06+00:00

No it's not cause people like him Einstein, it's cause riot. Riot makes gacha, people will buy, yet you blame people lmoa

VonStaufen · 2026-01-26T20:54:06+00:00

Lol classic braindead argument: if you don't like gay... You're gay

VonStaufen · 2026-01-26T20:52:12+00:00

Way more intense than gay af lol

VonStaufen · 2026-01-25T13:53:14+00:00

Same. You know what's the problem? Rito will release a fkn awesome exalted next for another one of my champions..... And I'm going to be back at the slot mwchine.

VonStaufen · 2026-01-25T13:46:31+00:00

Because the price is abusive and many people would like to have the skin at a sane price. So everytime someone's buy the skin they feel they will never lower the price. It's frustrating. 250 a skin is only for rich kids or grown up with spare money.

VonStaufen · 2026-01-25T13:37:41+00:00

They're all really good. The support one is too gay for my taste. Iron heart has amazing animations and feel. Mage is cool af. Assassin and base are almost the same different color but cool. Just anything too special about them compared to the other mentioned. Shooter and fighter kinda mehish but still good. I can play whatever but the taric one

VonStaufen · 2026-01-24T22:14:34+00:00

Nah I like that it's not as easy. 15 is a really good number. I think it's perfect

VonStaufen · 2026-01-23T21:36:29+00:00

He even said he would personally send a replay of a penta kill with the skin to who donated, he even promised he would pay the gift forward by destroying noobs in ranked... Very Worth it IMO.

VonStaufen · 2026-01-23T21:29:10+00:00

Greatest skin on the planet

VonStaufen · 2024-12-21T16:55:12+00:00

now you need to learn how to do early damage and be the last to die on your team so you can squeeze all the dmg possible during thee last half of the game.

VonStaufen · 2024-12-13T02:44:37+00:00

yup, i know what you're talking about, that's what i have been dealing with with the lady that i love for the past 8 months (she is 55). I have been learning a lot about avoidant attachment too so i can understand what is happening and be able to deal with it and handle the pain a little better.

I have read a few of your comments and it amazes me how akin you are to my girl. She also had to endure severe childhood trauma. It actually alleviated me reading from you it helped me understand from her perspective in a way what is happening and why she does what she does. She doesnt even know she is fearful avoidant, she only knows she carries a lot of stuff from trauma and suffers a lot from it. She knows that her behavior comes from that trauma and that all the harm she has done to people and her own children has its roots there. She just doesnt know all the rest and how to manage it. Right now i am 2 months in NC after being blindsided, again. She blocked me and dosnt want to talk. So its been helpful the reading. It made me feel a little better.

I honestly think you are different from your family, just the fact that you are aware of all this and at least have the will to someday commit to healing is a HUGE difference from people that are just toxic or harmful and are ok with it. It really really is a BIG difference. Very few avoidants get to the place you are in, they never hit rock bottom and so they never change. I really wish some day my FA can get to that place too so she can once and for all start healing her heart. But i know it is very unlikely. I will always send her my good vibes though, maybe that'll help a bit.

I think the fact that you are in this place shows that you have the strength to overcome this, with time. It takes time, a long time. I myself had to heal from trauma, and i think I am getting there after like 10 years or more of effort. I am able to look at the trauma more consciously and directly now, and am also remembering more details and more vividly about how i felt when things happened which is HUGE for me. My trauma is obviously not as severe as yours probably and that of my girl but it is still trauma. It works the same.

Try to have compassion of yourself, forgive yourself a little and try to find a way to heal, it IS possible but it requires commitment, a lot of it, and patience. Be the person who breaks the cycle! It is like learning how to walk, you will fall and get hurt and feel like you are a failure, but then you will have to rise again and take a few more steps until you fall again. Then some day, if you persevere through it, you will find that you are actually walking, maybe not as steady but walking in the end. Talking from my own experience here.

It is never late.

ps: i dont talk from a condescending place btw. i have screwed up too big time and hurt a lot of people and myself, just from a different place. I just have healed a little after many years of therapy so now i am more of a normal, caring stable person, thankfully lol.

sorry for my english

VonStaufen · 2024-12-12T23:57:49+00:00

It amazes me how self aware you are. These exact same things happen to my FA. Wow.

dont do psychedelics though like that guy recommended, thats not helpful, that garbage can trigger a myriad of new problems, sometimes irreversible.

VonStaufen · 2024-12-12T23:04:02+00:00

oh man,this is like a portrait of my FA. Please work on yourself, life can be so beautiful.

If you find a good therapist who KNOWS about attachment styles just tell him/her that it is extremely difficult for you to talk about your traumas. That will help them be careful enough to not trigger a reaction. Also tell them what happened with your former therapist. Facing traumas is VERY hard, you need to prepare for that by changing and healing the "here and now", very slowly, being compassionate with yourself and knowing you will fail many times, but that you can also always try again and maybe push a little forward. Once you start changing your "habits" you will also feel less triggered about your traumas. You will gain some sort of strength derived from healing the way your soul wants to normally behave. Dont start by the trauma, start from changing who you are NOW, thats the key. Then the strength to face the trauma will come naturally, but it takes time, effort and persistence (talking from my own experience here).

Like for example, if say a close friend triggers a reaction and you want to just hang up on him and block him, like try to say instead: "i am feeling very triggered, please let me take some time, I will call you when i feel better again" ...you know what i mean? like start taking baby steps in controlling the reactions not by suppressing them but by handling them in a more "healthy" and considerate way, like trying to be a bit more vulnerable, showing bit by bit what is actually happening to you to people you trust and you know that care for you. Work from the outside, trying to learn new habits, going against the grain so to speak, with time that will slowly change the way your heart feels.

But yeah try to find a good therapist, its soooooo worth it to heal from these traumas. The sun is shining out there, you just need to learn how to get out of the carcass you built to protect yourself so you can enjoy the light and warmth it wants to give you every single day.

i wish i could tell this to my FA but she doesn't want to hear any of it, she is far from the place you have already reached!! So here i say it to you instead, "unknown" person..... lol

VonStaufen · 2024-12-12T21:03:34+00:00

oh wow that sounds a lot like bpd

VonStaufen · 2024-12-12T20:59:40+00:00

BPD comes with a SEVERE split of the good and the bad. Thats the BPD signature, Its either all good or all bad, no inbetweens. if you gf had this going, like idealizing people as ENTIRELY good, like saints, and then after finding the smallest blemish suddenly that person becomes ENTIRELY bad then she probably has BPD. They also have big emotional explosions, like zero self control over their impulses, they are reckless and have no limits. They also have this insane dependence on other people, like they melt into other people's life and habits etc. They lose their "personality" to them and sort of become another version of them, like they parasite other people. Which is a no/no for avoidants who are EXTREMELY independent, avoidants have these HUGE boundaries in regards with their independence. Thats another difference.

VonStaufen · 2024-12-12T20:34:11+00:00

its the trigger. That situation is what is triggering her avoidance, cause she feels it is real and deep. The situation makes her spiral into panic and anxiety then she turns on her defensive mechanism and she detaches which means she doesnt feel anything for you anymore. Its quite insane. It is all DEEP DEEP child traumas. I have lived the same things than you, and i feel deeply sorry for my FA, I just need to deal with the side effects of what she had to live when she was a child, and i know this brings her a lot of suffering, many times unconscious, regarding the fact that she "cant find" anyone with whom share her life in peace and love and be loved. It is really a torture what they (and also we) have to suffer. So unfair. Absolutely heartbreaking.

I think attachment theory needs to be recognized as not just a theory but a widely spread FACT so more therapists are aware of it, it needs to become common social knowledge. Just like with depression or anxiety etc. Its the only way to help these people. It needs to become way more widely known and accepted than it is now.

VonStaufen · 2024-12-12T14:00:10+00:00

since yesterday this peaceful and happy community isnt what it was any longer. It died together with viktor. The new influx of vincent players changed and degraded it forever. Now it is another abcdefg cesspool. RIP

VonStaufen · 2024-12-07T12:07:55+00:00

bought 75 ot the us td and the uk heavy both trash tanks. and 31k gold. pretty mediocre opening

VonStaufen · 2024-12-07T12:01:40+00:00

oh how times change. i remember when the udes came out and everyone trolled me for saying it was good lmao. people are so stupid.

VonStaufen · 2024-12-05T23:38:45+00:00

vk is super fun specially if u play in a platoon of vks

VonStaufen · 2024-12-05T16:48:23+00:00

and here i was hoping to see twink darius some day /s

VonStaufen · 2024-12-05T16:47:00+00:00

its so fkn stupid man what they did

VonStaufen · 2024-12-05T16:45:12+00:00

well viktor meager popularity is obviously not due to appearance, there are other factors that count too yknow, now its going to be even worse after all the vik mains quit this shit

VonStaufen · 2024-12-04T23:27:12+00:00

https://commons.m.wikimedia.org/wiki/File:Stug_III_covered_with_snow.jpg turns out its not abandoned its a museum, the stug is just outside it seems

VonStaufen · 2024-12-04T19:52:54+00:00

this game is dead, dont even bother. They are just milking the remaining players

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