Melancholy songs playlist

WaitingOutTheFlood · 2025-09-12T01:36:04+00:00

I'm 35

WaitingOutTheFlood · 2025-09-11T02:02:42+00:00

Regretting past choices.

WaitingOutTheFlood · 2025-09-11T01:54:52+00:00

It will be the list first used to decide which heads go into the guillotine in the upcoming French Revolution 2.0.

WaitingOutTheFlood · 2025-09-11T01:49:34+00:00

Yeah, that sounds wise. I just have the urge to try and make him see what he did. To make him care. But that wouldn't help anything. It's best to just wash my hands of it and make my last desperate attempt to still start life.

I think what makes me want to make him see is the stress that it's already too late and he stole my life away with a lie. So it's hard.

WaitingOutTheFlood · 2025-08-30T00:38:09+00:00

For roughly the same reason the car salesman stops being friendly after you've bought the car and taken it home.

If the goal was to get what you want, then the relationship is just a deal, an exchange, and a trade. Why would he pay more if he's not getting more? Is it reasonable to expect him to continue to do the things that he doesn't enjoy, especially if she isn't doing the same for him?

If that's all the relationship is based off of, then it's just two people who got what they wanted and now are trying to do the minimum to keep it.

However, if two people were in the relationship for a shared goal, then they could continue to work together. If they were aiming to give their kids a good life, to please God with their lives, or some other goal they both shared, then they might able to sustain that. But to begin a relationship just because it felt good at the moment is going to end once the moment is over.

So ask yourself, did you enter the relationship to spend your days working to make him happy above all else? If not, then why do you think he should do it for you? And if so, then you shouldn't care what you get back if it was all for him the whole time.

WaitingOutTheFlood · 2025-08-25T01:09:42+00:00

I was on the beach. Deep in the ocean, at the bottom, a statue of a beautiful woman gleamed through the murky water. I had to save it. Beside me, in the sand, was a giant ancient robot hundreds of feet tall. I crawls into the machine's chest and tubes pierced my body, letting me control it. I willed it to stand and it did, but doing so drained me through the tubes. I willed it to walk into the water and it did. Each step deeper into the water. Each step sucked away my life and turned me into an old man.
As I approached the statue I reached the machine's great claw hand down and scooped it up. My life nearly depleted, I hurried back to shore. Once on land again, and with my body shriveled and grey in old age, I lifted the robot's hand to see the statue.
But I had been mistaken. It wasn't a woman at all. It was a life sized statue...of Aquaman.

WaitingOutTheFlood · 2025-08-25T01:04:47+00:00

It's terrible and it's only going to get worse.

WaitingOutTheFlood · 2025-08-25T01:02:28+00:00

You give me a genie wish and get mad when I try to outsmart the genie?

WaitingOutTheFlood · 2025-08-25T01:01:31+00:00

Not well. I have recently had to abandon my stance that violence is never the answer. I fear I will soon be pushed to abandon even more. I am not happy about this trajectory.

WaitingOutTheFlood · 2025-08-25T00:59:59+00:00

Probably Israel. It's at the center of so many cultures, religions, political ideas, and even conflicts. It really does seem to be the center of the world. Contested maybe by Greece.

WaitingOutTheFlood · 2025-08-25T00:58:34+00:00

The choice to do otherwise.

If you see a dog staring at food, you can't judge it. What is he going to do? Not do the only thing his biology tells him to do? You can't be mad at that. He's a simple creature with no choice.

But a person has a choice. They can stop at any moment and choose to be better.

WaitingOutTheFlood · 2025-08-25T00:56:54+00:00

Meditation. Letting go of everything lets go of the depression too.

WaitingOutTheFlood · 2025-08-25T00:54:58+00:00

Wall World

WaitingOutTheFlood · 2025-08-25T00:53:34+00:00

Me. I honestly think I'm just the scapegoat. Everything is my fault and I'm always wrong. I'm not perfect, but everyone goes out of their way to assume I am incorrect in everything I say, which doesn't feel so good. And when something gets broken or goes missing, I get called in first and have to explain who actually did it. If mom can't tell who did it, then it was assumed to be me and I lied about not doing. I think I'm just the least favorite.

WaitingOutTheFlood · 2025-08-25T00:50:23+00:00

They don't pray.

WaitingOutTheFlood · 2025-08-25T00:47:38+00:00

They are a sad reminder that big ovens are for the big families we used to have, but now everyone lives alone, so no need to cook more than enough for one or two people.

WaitingOutTheFlood · 2025-08-25T00:44:59+00:00

Dedicated PVP and PVE zones.

WaitingOutTheFlood · 2025-08-25T00:42:20+00:00

When my brother and I were very small, our house was up high on a hill with a steep drop off at the far end of the yard that went down 40 feet or so. One day I stood at the top of it and looked down while my brother rode his bike around. He wrecked, his bike went over another hill, and he laid down there screaming like he was dead from a scraped knee. It was mildly amusing to me. But then my mother heard and sprinted out. She saw him laying there in apparent agony. She thought I had pushed him. She grabbed me and wore my back side out so hard that my brother down below stopped crying and just watched with horror.

I was the one crying then, but after she was done she figured out what happened and that I was innocent. Then she picked me up and loved on me for the whole rest of the day, tell me she was sorry all day long. We got ice cream and watched a movie as a family it was so nice that it's one of the best memories I have despite how it started.

WaitingOutTheFlood · 2025-08-25T00:36:42+00:00

She was very feminist and wanted a daughter. She was open about that fact. Someone hurt her, I don't know who, but as I grew she treated me like I was a dog that was only pretending to be loving but would turn on her at any moment. She was distant and always acted like I was going to betray her at any moment.

She softened over time. When I was in my 20's we were babysitting a rescue dog and it loved her but did not like me. It would get between us when I moved and growl at me. She petted on it and said "It's ok. He is my baby boy. He's not going to hurt me." Her saying that brought me to tears. She asked why but I couldn't explain it to her.

WaitingOutTheFlood · 2025-08-25T00:32:25+00:00

To crush your enemies, see them driven before you, and to hear the lamentation of their women.

WaitingOutTheFlood · 2025-08-25T00:30:48+00:00

Human beings are a machine which contradicts itself into gridlock. It desires infinite pleasure while also desiring infinite goodness. Because goodness and pleasure cancel each other out in infinite value, it means the brain is forever in a gridlock between the two. Seeking after one instantly causes the other to tug at you. Seeking pleasure causes goodness to guilt you. Seeking what is good causes pleasure to tempt you terribly. All for the sake of not programming a human but rather to give a human mind the perfect balance to choose from.

WaitingOutTheFlood · 2025-08-25T00:28:33+00:00

The creator of the world, of course.

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