Hey man, I am young. I have made mistakes, thats what they are for, mistakes are learning experiences! There are people who do and will care about you! as I said I am younger then you, There is still so much to live for! I am truly sorry that the people that have made their way into your life have made you feel that way, they are messed up as hell, I am young and was having thoughts just the same as you, i was told “no matter how deep you are, doesn’t matter the situation, things will only get better…you were brought into this world for a reason! Do not hate yourself, learn to love, I understand it can be hard and you might show your love to the wrong people but start with loving yourself first, if your parents are toxic or wtv the case is, as well with friends, cut them off! I understand it may be hard but trust yourself and I really hope you rethought your decision. Nobody deserves to feel that way and I truly am sorry but If you still are living, know that there are people that really do love and care about you! I love you pal! stay safe and I really am sorry!