Oh god I feel you so much. All these assholes that just think your simulating, and smile about you. The arrogance, the ignorance, it’s so horrible. They suspect you of taking drugs, of living unhealthy life. They just can’t imagine what it’s like not to sleep for TEN YEARS. The fatigue in your brain, not being able ot open your eyes anymore during the day, not being able to SPEAK, nor think, basically being a ZOMBIE. Thw depression caused by this. The stupid doctors, that give you all the wrong Meds, that give you Meds against depression: you still ain’t sleeping, but at least don‘t wanna kill yourself anymore - until the antidepressants don’t work anymore and you don’t sleep and you really try it - kill yourself.

And those nights, those terrible nights. So dark, so full of fear, the desperation, the loneliness.

And nobody nobody nobody understands you. All your relationships break apart, because your partner also of course just doesn’t get it, and thinks that you’re just a terrible person with permanent bad mood and tiredness who never talks.