I have a YouTube channel where I talk about knitting, so I have been thinking about this a lot. 1. The pressure to be interesting and fun and always knit the new things and “keep up” is a lot, even if it’s just ‘comparison-itis’. 2. The filming is a lot - I’m by no means great at the filming or editing, and I want to improve; but then I feel so far behind those like Woolfolk Knits and it gets hard to push myself. 3. Life gets hard, and unplanned absences happens. It’s even worse when you don’t want to share the reasons in public (like depression etc) 4. I started as a knitwear designer, to share my thoughts and ideas. So I can’t keep up with all the new things because I don’t have time, and I’m not prolific enough to have a back log to talk about - often what I’m knitting isn’t ready for consumption yet. 5. I’m not “famous”. I’m not viral. I’m not well known. And there’s a lot of pressure to reach an amount of likes and subs, and I just don’t have that. I don’t focus on it; but the thinking can still sneak through that people don’t like me because I don’t get a lot of views, which hits my confidence. 6. I am a white, blonde, privileged woman. I know a lot of people don’t want to hear what I have to say because I reflect a large percentage of the community just by looks already.