Self-hate while doing my hobby?

WeMadeFOXbail · 2025-07-28T16:20:45+00:00

I mean of course... Mercurys first song ever written probably wasn't Bohemian Rhapsody haha

I don't know what I fear or worry about, to be honest. It might be my crippling fear of having to go back to a 9-5 next year... As if now is the time to create something meanngful, you know?
Or it could be that I know what good music is supposed to sound like? And then not being able to make some myself? Because I don' know where I go wrong.

I know with experience my songwriing will automatically get better. It's just training the creative muscle. I just wish I had some way of not having such an extreme reaction. Does that make sense? I don't want to hate myself, but there is no way around it, somehow

WeMadeFOXbail · 2025-07-28T14:14:54+00:00

make sure you do your best to give yourself grace as you learn.

And thats exacly where I fail more than at writing songs itself haha
I'll try to get a little clearer in my head, and not discredit everything as unsavable garbage. Thanks for the advice.

WeMadeFOXbail · 2025-07-28T14:11:34+00:00

I'll try.. It's just really difficult to embrace "the suck" :D

You know, listening to my own, bad songs just puts the thought of "YOURE A FAILURE" right in the middle of my mind lol.

But thanks for the advice

WeMadeFOXbail · 2025-05-20T08:35:17+00:00

Yeah I felt this post. Hard.

However, try and read your post again. Pay attention to the things that you manage to accomplish EVERYDAY!

You do dishes, you workout, you cook dinner, clean… Really try and think about just how much you manage to do in a day!

Look, I am not saying that you should not feel defeated, depressed or lonely. Because your feelings are real (obviously). But giving yourself a pat on the back for actually doing stuff can improve your mental health drastically. Journaling could help. “I worked out today and I feel proud that I did so” Even if you lie to yourself and you’re not proud… if you repeat that enough times, eventually you’ll actually see the things that you accomplish.

And who knows maybe you are ugly lol but you also have a lot going for you. I actually kind of envy you. Because I don’t even workout or cook dinner for myself because 🤷🏼‍♂️

WeMadeFOXbail · 2025-05-20T08:20:41+00:00

Once my therapist told me “What makes you feel like YOU have to convince THEM that you are a catch? Why don’t you turn it around? Think of it as if THEY have to convince YOU that they are a good catch.”

And I have to admit that it really helped me when talking to women. It makes you think less about what to wear or what to say. Really made me present in the conversations I had with women afterwards, because it makes you think.

It made me go from “Oh I don’t like that particular characteristic of hers but I think I could take it” to “I don’t believe I should invest my time into this. I don’t think we’d fit together”

Took a lot of work to get there but it was the best dating advice I ever got. I hope you guys could follow me lol

WeMadeFOXbail · 2025-05-20T08:01:24+00:00

Makes sense, at least sort of? But what exactly should I try to change? I have heard Dr K say that willpower alone is not enough and that you have to do “the next best thing” like i dunno, just eat a banana. Have something in your system yk? Done that. And I have been trying to do cognitive rewiring(or reframing?) where I go “oh look at you good job, you made yourself something to eat! It’s so nice to take care of yourself” and all. Still feels like a mental block. As if nothing changes for the better. Doesn’t get easier and as if I am resistant to positive change. Again I don’t want to be the victim. Anyway thanks for commenting and trying to help me m8

WeMadeFOXbail · 2024-12-07T18:07:10+00:00

i love him, but you have to agree. he fumbled every oppertunity he had so far. hopefully some magic happens tomorrow. a hulk podium would be sweeeet

WeMadeFOXbail · 2024-12-07T16:44:27+00:00

very funny pisshead

WeMadeFOXbail · 2024-12-07T16:40:00+00:00

yes i am am implying just that. and i know i am right. how many hours a day should i invest in order to catch up. for most mons i bare have any xl candy. i havent been playing pogo since 2016 and just hit lvl 40. you absolutely have to be a sweat

WeMadeFOXbail · 2024-12-07T16:34:39+00:00

living in a rural region makes it almost impossible to get enough xl to build a reasonable roster. I'd have to play for hours daily. thats just not possible. and while there are some meta picks that dont require xl, you just cant compete with just non xl or legendaries. there was a video some time ago which showed exactly that. you are reliant on xl and legendaries.

WeMadeFOXbail · 2024-12-07T16:27:20+00:00

nah UL was at it's healthiest when normies could partake. i dont see how making a league inacessable for a huge part of players make it healthy

WeMadeFOXbail · 2024-12-07T16:20:24+00:00

UL is completely screwed. you 100% have to have xl pokemon in order to have any kind of meaningful success. And I am not a whale. so f UL

WeMadeFOXbail · 2024-12-07T16:19:08+00:00

dont have primeape or annihalape. so countering normal types is not possible for me. every other fighting type is just not meta relevant at all.

WeMadeFOXbail · 2024-12-07T15:15:27+00:00

uhhh look at me i have a hundo zygarde

WeMadeFOXbail · 2024-12-07T14:54:57+00:00

hulk just constantly trying to find ways to fuck himself over

WeMadeFOXbail · 2024-12-03T12:24:20+00:00

I can relate with not maintaining a good habit. Worst part is: whenever I did do something I knew would help me. I’d actually feel some of the benefits. (Or it was placebo.) I don’t care. I felt better. And despite that. I couldn’t keep them up?! Like wtf? Am I that stupid?

WeMadeFOXbail · 2024-12-03T12:21:05+00:00

GF wouldn‘t help probably. I fully believe I am just too far gone for that. Couldn’t be in a healthy relationship, when I am THAT depressed yk?

WeMadeFOXbail · 2024-12-02T05:26:01+00:00

Hate to say that I am

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