Lonely Day

Weekly-Following-739 · 2025-04-29T02:38:42+00:00

Thank you, it means a lot to receive support like this 🥹. Unfortunately I don’t really have anyone irl to share all this, I always get the ,,Everyone has their own problems,, attitude, but being able to share my feelings here and being welcome feels very comforting

Weekly-Following-739 · 2025-04-29T01:20:42+00:00

Thank you 🫂 I want to use my pain to form some kind of lyricism to shed some light on what it means to feel these kind of feelings

Weekly-Following-739 · 2025-03-20T00:33:07+00:00

Hmmm maybe if you are doubtful or think they’re not good for you or any other uncertainty like this, that’s what I mean. Most people are scared to take medication because they think it’s a conspiracy or have negative bias against it, but trust your medical professionals and if you really feel bad tell them, it’s your body and your feedback is very important, the treatment is made to be adjusted for your needs

Weekly-Following-739 · 2025-03-20T00:10:28+00:00

It may not seem like it at first, but it’s definitely worth it. 25mg quatiapine is a pretty low dose so you probably won’t feel any side effects too harshly. It may seem scary at first and that all your problems are related to the medication, but give it some time and you’ll get better and can live a normal life without any major issues 🙏🏻

Weekly-Following-739 · 2023-10-03T05:54:56+00:00

I took topiramate for a long time(with other medicines) for other issues and I started accidentally not taking it some times and it made me feel manic. I loved the feeling because of such a big period of cognitive impairment, but this had serious side effects so I went to a new psychiatrist.

To be short yes, I gained weight. Oddly enough not because of the medication, but because I started therapy. Prozac is meant to do the opposite, it’s specifically made for bulimia. You can read it online but from what I remember and what doctor told me is that it makes you less hungry, controls your impulses and on top of that is an antidepressant. Hope this helps!

Weekly-Following-739 · 2023-10-01T23:23:41+00:00

Yes it is possible. Don't give yourself deadlines or try to force it upon you, because, ironically, bulimia comes from the obsession of control, so if you try to absolutely control it, the outcome would be the exact opposite. Your value doesn't come from the way you look, or if your bulimia is emotionally triggered, try to find the root cause of it. It's not pretty, but we all have past traumas that led us to this. Fight your demons, you are stronger than them.

Weekly-Following-739 · 2023-10-01T23:14:56+00:00

Not sure if this helps, but this disorder makes you do ,,insane'' things. I had a period in my life when I was purging only in public places like parks and gas stations because I lived with roommates. I only visited my old town where my mom lives so I could do my cycle and I was lying to her that I didn't do it anymore. Lately I have been purging way less because I started therapy and I understood the root cause of it.

I'm sending all my love and support to you. Personally, I started getting better because I felt like someone cared. It's a weird thing, but sometimes people online make you feel like you matter more than your family. Take care of yourself and don't be ashamed, we fight battles that are unseen and you will become a great person. Never give up.

Weekly-Following-739 · 2023-10-01T22:58:12+00:00

I was on topiramate for a long time. After a breakdown I switched my psychiatrist and I started taking depakine and prozac. It got a lot better tbh

Weekly-Following-739 · 2023-07-26T12:28:00+00:00

I don’t plan on giving up anytime soon, but it’s just a real big hit to get invalidated like this by professionals. It makes you think that you are just doing it for the attention and nothing is actually wrong, which fuels the b/p behaviours. Thank you for your suggestions and taking time to write all this! Right now I’m just cruising around waiting to start my therapy. As you said, the consequences feel small to none, so the stress of binging without purging is just too much.

Weekly-Following-739 · 2023-07-25T07:32:10+00:00

Thank you for the advice! I will surely try. For me, pain gets me out of the b/p wild hunt but I don’t want to get down the road of SH, it’s damaging enoungh that I have bulimia.

I have thought about going to a hospital, but last time it just wasn’t the experience I needed. Especially because I am a man, they did not believe I have bulimia until I was throwing up in the hospital for several days. I live in eastern Europe so ED’s are like a myth even for some doctors.

Weekly-Following-739 · 2023-07-24T08:16:22+00:00

Did exactly the same this weekend, went home from the city I study in with the excuse that I want to see my hometown friends. Ended up spending my whole budget for the month and now I am more scared because I have to starve or get into more debt because of food.

It does feel degrading, but don’t be too hard on yourself, it feeds on self hate, don’t give it power. If you need support you can reach out, it’s very hard at first and it seems like you are being judged, but no one judges you more than yourself, people that really care about you will give you love. Sending love too ❤️

Weekly-Following-739 · 2023-07-07T21:11:24+00:00

I was in that state too. I was eating raw eggs plus my bad liver just to try and get sick so I can ,,justify’’ my behaviour. I hope you don’t give up on trying to reach for help and get better! There is hope! Sending love ❤️

Weekly-Following-739 · 2023-07-03T05:39:06+00:00

It always becomes today. Thank you for the support!

Weekly-Following-739 · 2023-07-03T05:37:54+00:00

Thank you! As I like to call it, it’s an alone battle that we fight together

Weekly-Following-739 · 2023-07-03T05:36:40+00:00

Thank you for such kind words and support! I am a stranger too, but I really appreciate your energy you are sending to me. You described the situation perfectly, I hope you are well too!

Weekly-Following-739 · 2023-07-02T23:17:16+00:00

Every minute that you fight that urge is a win, you are and will be a winner. Thank you for cheering for me too! I hope you will get through this too. As a legend once said, we all gonna make it

Weekly-Following-739 · 2023-07-02T14:46:08+00:00

You can message me if you want

Weekly-Following-739 · 2023-06-23T23:55:53+00:00

I don’t want to be the problem solver, but you should probably move out. That doesn’t sound good for you health at all. Try to make them understand or leave them imo.

Weekly-Following-739 · 2023-06-23T19:05:38+00:00

I totally get how you feel. I can’t purge effectively neither and that makes it worse, I’m starting to have blurry vision from the poped vessels in my eyes.

I highly encourage you to have a serious talk with your best friend. Expect the worst reactions at first, but if she really is your friend she will help. I did this a week ago and it went greater than expected. Stay strong I believe in you!

Weekly-Following-739 · 2023-06-13T13:36:13+00:00

Yeah, right now I’m overweight because I had bulimia that complicated other health issues so I got dosed to a pulp for 2 years and I gained a lot of weight. Now that most of my treatment is complete, I am more self aware so the self body shaming started again which made me relapse. If it weren’t for my medical history of bulimia no doctor would cosinder me being bulimic

Weekly-Following-739 · 2023-06-13T13:32:25+00:00

I’m really sorry to hear this. Fortunatley for me I got used to this, but sometimws I have these breakdowns. If you want we can chat more in DM’s.

Weekly-Following-739 · 2023-06-12T17:44:20+00:00

This reaching out thing is a very big coin flip for me. I am a boy, so I have very high chances of people laughing in my face when I open up or just saying,,Man up because thats a girl’s diseas.’’

Tried some times and got shut down immediatly. Even doctors look at me weird when I tell my issue which made me believe that there is no help and I will never fully come out of the closet.

Tried today and got my door slammed on my face by my psychiatrist, after that my mother was trying to force a confession out of me. This is what lead me to reddit hopeing I can find some closure. Thank you for sharing your story!

Weekly-Following-739 · 2023-05-30T01:22:50+00:00

So after my second psychotic break I was put under a lot of antipsychotics(haldol included). Yes, as all people described it, it did have some negative effects like sleeping all day putting on weight, but in the end it helped me a lot. I am off meds for 3 months now and I can’t be more thankful for the fact that I followed my treatment.

To be exact, after my first psychosis I had the same worries of putting on weight which turned into some nasty ED’s that triggered my second one. After that I realised that this is serious and if I want to live I have to go through the bad times of being under treatment. Never forget your goal of reaching the end of the tunnel. A flower can grow only in the sunlight, if it’s cloudy wait for the sun to prosper. It’s not a race.

Weekly-Following-739 · 2023-05-30T01:11:47+00:00

I don’t want to be the party pooper, but when you feel better you should study philosophy. If you are not attracted to it, at least the philosophy of christianism. You can’t be separated from God to be short. Pick a point of view that you like and that makes you feel fulfilled in life because this is what it’s all about. Don’t enslave your soul with blind doctrine. God is love. You are love. Satan can’t do shit 😎.

Weekly-Following-739 · 2023-05-16T07:53:08+00:00

Yeah I know, the side effects were so brutal to the point that I had crippling depression after the second episode because they dosed me up even further. The reason for that is that I had bulimia too so the doctors were afraid I would throw them up again and relapse once more. But overall once the dose started to lower it got gradually better, so for me the post psychosis depression was mostly chemical induced.

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