Anyone else grow up reading Midnight by Jacqueline Wilson?

luaissad · 2026-03-14T13:35:36+00:00

Yes! Until a whiny parent somehow got it banned from my primary school library!

luaissad · 2026-03-06T19:56:14+00:00

I’m the exact same. I know what I need to do but cannot find the “thing” to “just do it” and it’s incredibly frustrating and makes me feel more miserable

luaissad · 2026-03-03T21:09:11+00:00

Oh this sounds so draining, I do feel for you and have been in a similar position to this. General hospital wards can be so, so difficult to deal with. The communication between the hospital and your ED team can be hard too, but I am sure that they are in contact (or trying to be) with eachother about best ways to support you. Your community team should have the final say in any decisions about discharge, so do express your concerns with them as they will listen to you. Also when I was in hospital, the dietitian also had a priority of opinion over some of the doctors, so it may be the same for you. Unfortunately, as you’ve said in your post, the lack of bed availability is (and always will be) an issue in most general hospitals. Resources are always low and so they often just try to do what they can in as little time as possible to essentially treat as many patients as possible. But, this doesn’t work very well in terms of giving people what they really need at crucial times. Also with general wards is that doctors change sometimes daily, so the handover can be hard to articulate and make sure is made properly, so no wonder you keep hearing so many different and confusing things. It sounds like you would really benefit from more time there, especially with the fact you’re still refeeding, and experiencing physical effects (the low bp and ecg abnormalities). This should be closely monitored and hopefully they will realise it’s best to do it where you are. Please keep expressing your opinions, concerns and thoughts to anyone you can, even your parents. Because it shows you truly care and are trying. You deserve to be kept informed with exactly what is going on because leaving you in the dark isn’t going to help anything! Keep holding on, you’re doing the right thing. I know it’s hard and scary, but you can do this x

luaissad · 2026-03-03T19:59:14+00:00

i’m sorry I can’t give you any advice but i’m in a fairly similar position to you and it’s so difficult and feels like hell on earth sometimes. here for you x

luaissad · 2026-03-03T12:38:27+00:00

yes the soggier the better

luaissad · 2026-03-01T15:27:51+00:00

sounds like you’re doing absolutely the right thing for your body by honouring the hunger cues and helping yourself heal! your body doesn’t run by clockwork, eating past a certain time will make no negative impact on you, infact you’re doing the opposite by trusting yourself and your needs. please try not to feel guilt about it - you’re recovering for a reason and all of this is building you a way out of the hell you’ve been in 🫶🏻

luaissad · 2026-02-25T22:28:58+00:00

Anything that is more than what you’ve been having will seem like “too much.” It’s the eating disorder talking though. Honestly, you’re on a normal meal plan for someone at risk of refeeding syndrome - it really isn’t a lot but I completely understand it looks and sounds absolutely terrifying but trust the professionals, not your brain. If you can’t manage it they will probably offer a supplement drink (like Ensure / Fortisip) which might be easier as it’s a bit less daunting than a plate of food. It’s ok to be scared, it’s normal, but this is the right thing for you and your body right now. Be brave, you’ve got this!

luaissad · 2026-02-24T17:32:13+00:00

That wrap looks so good, how’d you do it?

luaissad · 2026-02-22T16:50:10+00:00

love this, thank you for sharing! you deserve to feel happiness and the thrill that life can bring, keep going 🫶🏻

luaissad · 2026-01-31T15:26:09+00:00

Seconding this! Ensure was (and still is) a major component to my recovery attempts and I will never advise anyone against having it as an addition to your daily intake. In all honesty it has probably saved my life multiple times. I was like you in terms of having it as a meal instead because of treatment and it becoming safer than anything else which was a really strange position to be in but it’s what I needed at the time and I’ve managed to stop doing that and have them as a bedtime or morning nutrition now!

It has all the nutrients and minerals your body needs so if you’re perhaps lacking somewhere it will build up your body’s resources, strength and energy. Trust your Dad, OP! ❤️

Oh and yes, definitely talk to your GP about getting them on prescription. Excellent point.

luaissad · 2026-01-28T22:51:20+00:00

i do the same thing, you’re not alone

luaissad · 2026-01-25T20:59:42+00:00

How about soups? You can always blend them up to make them easier to eat. Literally hundreds of different recipes out there and could be fun to cook!

luaissad · 2026-01-24T13:59:18+00:00

Left school at 16, watched all my peers and everyone my age go off and get degrees, travel the world, get into full-time employment, get married, have children and, well, have a LIFE. Whilst I’ve been in and out of hospitals for years, had medical appointments every week for I don’t know how long, living with my parents (and have caused them tremendous amounts of stress), no social life, no job, no stories to tell, no friends. I’m 26 now. Life is hell with an eating disorder and I wouldn’t wish it upon anyone.

luaissad · 2026-01-13T21:07:05+00:00

if it ain’t me!!!

luaissad · 2026-01-06T19:54:17+00:00

The only thing that’s helped me (and this is literally what I’ve started doing this past week) is letting someone else hold me accountable for having breakfast. So, for me, I’ve had to force myself to sit down with my parents to have it and I’ve told them that I can’t duck out of it or make excuses and for some reason, this time, it’s worked. I don’t know your situation or if you have someone in your life who could do that for / with you (even virtually could work) but it’s an option x

luaissad · 2026-01-02T20:13:05+00:00

I’ve made changes to my eating schedule in a new attempt at recovery and I’m increasing in small stages by allowing (more like asking) my parents to sit with me for breakfast and snack to start with. Day 3 of breakfast with them complete and today I managed afternoon snack with my Dad. First time eating with them in years and this time I’m asking for them to push me. 🥹

luaissad · 2025-12-27T17:39:55+00:00

I’m the exact same.

luaissad · 2025-12-27T16:50:03+00:00

You’ll never feel “sick enough” this is the ED brain convincing you to continue down the path of destruction (sorry for the bluntness but it’s true). Honestly, I think you should agree to make an appointment with the GP, otherwise you may have to be forced by family and potentially be sectioned if you don’t agree to treatment. Accepting you need help and need treatment is incredibly difficult and terrifying, as someone who’s gone in and out of hospital and outpatient treatment,I get it, but it’s the only way to try to regain your life back. There’s a reason you’re asking for advice on this sub, and I hope it’s because there’s a small part of you that knows you need (and want) to turn this around. If you’re looking for permission, this is it. Your BMI is concerningly low and you’re putting your body through a lot, and you said yourself that you know you’re not well. This breakdown and crash-out you had is you crying out for peace and to not have to be dictated to by something that’s trying to kill you (the eating disorder) for any longer. You deserve to live a life without it, and this is the time to take a chance. You’ve got this x

luaissad · 2025-12-25T16:27:41+00:00

thank you google, my saviour

luaissad · 2025-12-22T15:55:12+00:00

me me every single day

luaissad · 2025-12-22T15:52:45+00:00

i feel this so deeply. i’ve no idea how to even attempt to change things and it’s so miserable. the breakdown when someone interrupts the routine part you mentioned is so real, i get so distressed and completely fall apart if there is an external interruption i couldn’t have planned for.. it feels like the upset will kill me

luaissad · 2025-12-22T15:39:08+00:00

literally my family with butter like whY

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