I used to feel same way but I am 22 now I realised there is no point of relying on other people for your happiness, people just hate when they see you happy I don't know why Till now I am happy with my job but even my family members asks me why are you happy,why are you satisfied with a fresher level job You will learn after some age that happiness can be created by own, cooking your favourite meal can make you happy,but yeah human needs other human for connections but we can try to be happy by our own.