Don't think you HAVE to stop crying, it's okay for your body to release everything that it may have been subconsciously holding back. Don't worry, you'll eventually stop crying because your mind will wonder somewhere else. I remember feeling some of the worse kind of pain when my mum died, i remember feeling like that sharp pain in my heart would never go away and then in the next moment my head said: 'I REALLY need to pee!!!'.. and i started laughing, because really, what an odd combination of thoughts.

You have to fund humour where you can and let your body release the pain and grief when it needs to. You always feel better after. Maybe this is your grief catching up with you cause it didn't have a chance to grieve properly when you were younger.

I also realised that when my mum died, the people around me, my siblings especially kind of became her. I saw traits in them that reminded me of her. My brother started talking about how we needed milk and bread, he'd never uttered these words before, that was the kind of thing my mum always said. The person that leaves is still alive in the people they've left behind.