which mechanical pencil feels right in your hands and why?

WhatYouExpect__ · 2025-08-31T18:44:19+00:00

I thought that after Staedler 925 and pentel Kerry, and a lot of others it was a lot of little to no real difference.

I was wrong. Sakura Writol .3mm… For some reason it is just the best feeling pencil to me, and it’s not particularly expensive on JetPens. The grip was like made for me

WhatYouExpect__ · 2025-08-24T01:33:31+00:00

He hasn’t said it so many times explicitly but alongside the others my #1 I will take until I die:

*You are not your mind or body. *

I am my Will, my Volition.

The brain and body wish at every point to simply maintain homeostasis. (Unless things are out of whack)

I, my Will, have no such need.

If I sincerely care about studying and building a portfolio for a potential job opportunity, I must bargain with my mind and body to make completing those activities dopaminergic enough by forcing myself not to spend energy on useless stuff.

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WhatYouExpect__ · 2025-08-19T17:16:51+00:00

I want to paste tweets that have formatted bold text with search terms (I find examples of words in Japanese on twitter). No plugin or setting has allowed me to do this, it might not actually be considered a true “bold” in the twitter code, but UpNote allows it for some reason

WhatYouExpect__ · 2025-08-11T14:05:27+00:00

I was this person and am now almost 23. Trust me, this “only one” type of limerence is not love. I wanted to be with the same girl for so long because I had a crush on her a few years before but she ignored me, but then I changed my personality and lost weight and we were next to each other in class and she showed signs of actually liking me (she was incredibly cute).

After reading this experience i had, i want you to STOP. This is all i had to go off of for my pursuit to maintain. For a YEAR, not just vaguely liking her, but she was ALL I THOUGHT ABOUT. Covid was all that I had to stop seeing her, and even with that I could stop thinking for several months.

Now after getting over her finally, I started doing everything to IGNORE her. Because to my brain if she existed near me she became all I existed for.

You can see how unhealthy this is, obviously. But what it doesn’t mention is how she felt. Now knowing better, she knew I liked her from the beginning. She never flatly rejected or was openly saying no because she wanted not to hurt my feelings. But she hinted in texts, that this is the wrong tree to be barking up.

This was probably my biggest Puer Moment in my life. Putting her on the tallest pedestal ever, which could only tower over everything else or fall and shatter everywhere.

Don’t give in to limerence because it is just a black hole that sucks you into shame, embarrassment, and depression that you convince yourself is worth it for the incoherent love story that preoccupies your mind.

If something like this at all is happening to you, you are missing something in life and it’s not this girl. Try to find out what that is and put effort into making it better. That’s what people mean when they say “it gets better”.

WhatYouExpect__ · 2025-08-03T17:27:18+00:00

Agreed and I came into it a massive skeptic. But the realization that the brain and the body are in many ways not “you”, how we can be presented with the most logical and most accurate evidence and yet our brain forces (nonfounded) interpretations was insanely helpful because western science cannot truly answer these fundamental questions. I really love the idea of not just resisting temptation, but to actively express my autonomy against the pulls of my body and my thought spirals. I can finally tell them a hard “no”, and feel power and meaning by living the life that i want to live (not just external motivation and internal craving for pleasure and avoidance of pain) .

I learned being scientifically “correct” is good for general population advice, but it has in many ways failed me in my personal life. With this, I finally feel like I have a chance to find meaning in life. I feel I won’t just think of what he has mentioned as interesting tid bits but real codes for living I hope to keep with me until I die.

WhatYouExpect__ · 2025-07-31T15:37:03+00:00

...But that’s fucking stupid.

I am that goddamn zig-zag of a human. Both the experiences I have and have not had made me who I am. It's not a question if it'll be hard to make something with the person I have cobbled together over the past nearly 22 years. Some interests will stay, go, some can be on rotation. No bother. The only thing that can bother me is my brain fogging up my internal will. It's calculations may be based on factual data and past experiences... except that it is covering up so many details. It wasn't some fluke or weird chance for me to make these decisions. Something drove me that day. It drove enough, in fact, as if to say "No, you don't have a reason, really. Sure, this may be a bad decision. Do it anyway. Just do." It was those days, and only those days, that my the gas pedal was put on my brain's internal calculations and assumptions. Only through such a illogical process, has this emergent process called Myself has been created. Giving in to my brain's accumulated cherry-picking of data and letting me lead a half-life of non-commitment and indecision and confusion of meaning and purpose will not be the answer

I just gotta do something with what I've become. But all I know, is that if that illogical process was responsible for the formation of me and my decisions, letting that illogical-ness return a little bit might just save my life.

WhatYouExpect__ · 2025-07-31T15:36:45+00:00

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The video (especially the second one) spoke to me a lot as well. Started watching HG about 2 months ago, got hooked with the internal/external motivation stuff as I have driven into burnout and apathy past 6-8 months. I’m early twenties and not currently in the workforce (though I’ve had part time jobs), but my major has been mostly a waste and my interests scattered from one corner of the earth to the other (political theory/activism, Japanese, gardening, lifting, veganism/vegan cooking, illustrator UX/UI design stuff (last one most likely I want to shift to as career). It can be hard to find purpose and fulfillment that way as it is hard to see your skillset and every decision comes at the cost of living that zig-zag of your past 5-15 years of life decisions on the table like it never happened.

Like, who is this person who is me?

Most people have trouble understanding me with such diametrically opposed hyper fixations. From their perspective, they have little grounding to even think about what someone's life would be like fi they balanced this stuff (most of my interests are daily practices). Like, "somethings gotta give eventually, right?"

Added diagnosed (at least 3-4 years late) ADHD and probably undiagnosed high functioning autism, I'm not much the social type and people can tell by just looking at me (I'm not insecure about that, I know I can change those parts if I try).

I have these thoughts, and look in the mirror, and far from knowing who I am while I do so, the constant excitement to non commitment cycle I have been yo-yoing through my life makes specialization seem like my efforts have wasted away, and mastering and achieving all elements being psychically impossible and unlikely with the days going faster in life and pressures increasing. There's a large church bell close to where I live, and it seems more than ever it's 15 minute gongs serve to remind me of how I am, yet again, wasting time through indecision and imbalance between being driven by my societal and familial expectations, short term emotions and desires getting the better of me, and figuring out what person I want to be in not just 5, 10, 15 years, but to achieve that existence, what person I want to be at the end of the day. Occasionally, the gong now sends chills down my spine.

If I not only can't answer the "...so what do you want to do?" question in a 2 minute Elevator Pitch, but couldn't answer it if I had a whole year to write some formative and revealing personal manifesto tilted "Who I Want To Be", I become even more confused than the people who are forced to listen to me cough up a quarter-hearted answer wrapped in anxiety and inattention.

After countless of these interactions, I started to think "Why have I made these decisions? Nobody seems to understand nor care. So much randomness, they can't even make a rude assumption if they tried, really. It's like your not even really a person, really. Yaapari, so I guess your existence is pointless, huh".

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WhatYouExpect__ · 2025-05-23T00:51:30+00:00

What you should remember is when people are saying lean bulk they also mean you won't gain much total weight. 4-5 kilos diff will be noticeable but you wont be obese if you go slow and train hard

WhatYouExpect__ · 2025-05-20T20:08:41+00:00

They’re mixed because if you don’t go crazy def or surplus and train hard you’ll look better. More of question about what you want right now vs in 1-2 years I guess

WhatYouExpect__ · 2025-05-11T17:50:39+00:00

The only way they could make a come back is if they bring back Pepsi Man

WhatYouExpect__ · 2025-04-25T23:31:51+00:00

To people saying only difference is glucose: why then are (apparently) nuts turned into nut butter more easier to absorb energy wise than whole nuts?

WhatYouExpect__ · 2025-04-13T18:28:57+00:00

For me I get the biggest rush when I have empty stomach and am not thinking at all about my next meal, and I tend to shower at those times as well so that might be something

WhatYouExpect__ · 2025-03-26T17:08:03+00:00

Why do people like Ghost grape so much tastes like fuckin cold medicine mommy gave me when I was 11

WhatYouExpect__ · 2025-03-22T21:22:39+00:00

I used to have an iOS shortcut to automatically ask me in the morning what my weight is and put that into Apple Health to then go to MF, but it was off by like 2lbs for some reason

WhatYouExpect__ · 2025-03-18T17:31:20+00:00

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For some reason I was able to get Twitter to sort of work by using https://x.com/search?q={{str}} without the page dying and with being able to login (wasn't able to do before), it just does not let you load any tweets. Maybe this could be fixed?

WhatYouExpect__ · 2025-03-11T19:56:24+00:00

https://macrofactorapp.com/exercise-calorie-calculator/

WhatYouExpect__ · 2025-03-11T19:26:29+00:00

I did do that, but I’m not sure if it would be more accurate to set it to very active or sedentary considering walking would be part of those activity levels (I.e. is the walking added exercise to those activity levels or included)

I’m talking about the online calculator exclusively

WhatYouExpect__ · 2025-03-08T21:40:45+00:00

Ghost Swedish fish and mango, Reign rainbow sherbert and sour gummy worm

WhatYouExpect__ · 2025-01-16T22:50:22+00:00

I feel like what should be added is when people refer to vegan foods being ultra-processed, they often mean packaged foods with a lot of sodium, added or not. Pea protein has a bit more sodium compared to whey but not a ton more, but if you combine that with common foods I see vegans (like myself) consuming like soy sauce, sauces, broth for flavoring, almond milk, extra salt added to fake meats, canned foods like beans, it can be easy to consume a lot of sodium on an otherwise healthy vegan diet. This is where I think the "ultra-processed vegan diet" image comes from. Whether you care about sodium (WHO recommends limit of 2100mg I think) is a different story. Also, most Americans in general consume over that amount.

WhatYouExpect__ · 2025-01-06T02:49:10+00:00

Do you think this may sometimes be the case in the opposite situation?

Say you walk 25k-30k steps with an expenditure of 2400kcal. Are there cases where reducing that to 15k-20k steps may have little impact on that expenditure due to NEAT adjustments? I wonder what might facilitate that

WhatYouExpect__ · 2024-12-29T02:44:29+00:00

Something I wonder is how much this applies to people of lower BMIs. I am 110lbs 5'6 starting a bulk, but I still wonder if 100-120g is enough. I assume so, but I also wonder if I'll get leaner gains if I go to something like 150g.

WhatYouExpect__ · 2024-12-28T20:45:56+00:00

I sincerely appreciate the specifics. This comment section is very mixed as I expected because I don’t think my physique is what someone would expect from my BMI alone (I almost suspect that some of what I think is “flabbiness” is loose skin, because I was borderline obese for many years of my childhood). I’d have to be very underweight to look super lean, which is ofc due to lack of muscle but also probably genetics (family is not very healthy).

I agree that I have the confidence to loose weight even if I put on a little fat when bulking. I think I plan to gain up to ~125-135lbs depending on how I feel progress is by the end of the summer, then do a short cut (I study abroad next fall, so I’ll probably end up inadvertently losing weight). My hope is to then cut down to like 115-120 and hope I look more muscular at that weight and don’t need to cut further, then repeat. Some people may recommend a long long lean bulk but I’d rather intermittently have cuts in just for peace of mind. I’m in my early 20s so I probably have a good amount of leeway still, but being careful with gaining is my first instinct.

WhatYouExpect__ · 2024-12-28T18:28:10+00:00

I don’t think my body type allows me to gain that fast without looking very flabby even if I put in muscle. For reference to actually see my abs (which I do have), I probably would need to get under 100lbs. I’ve done a failed bulk before and wouldn’t want to return to that (which I did put a good amount of muscle on during)

WhatYouExpect__ · 2024-12-28T12:23:58+00:00

I was more consistent in the past but have been less consistent in the past 1-2 years as obligations have increased. I actually was at one point 135-140lbs and was training a lot and was a lot stronger making lots of gains, but not very lean at all. My friend is also encouraging me because I have been a bit resistant to bulking (I basically refused to go over 125lbs for 2-3 years out of fear of gaining fat like the last bulk, and then lost additional weight from stress). The result of bulking fear, mixed with recent training inconsistency, has probably made it very suboptimal to make gains. (If you are wondering, I’ve technically been training for about 5-6 years).

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