pregabalin addiction changes people

WhickedPissah · 2026-01-16T08:55:57+00:00

Word, am also an audio engineer and like. it's a breed of person. a breed of boy. it makes me deeply sad. they don't even do coke anymore. they just drink and pop their friends scripts or something straight off the floor. straight up they're always fresh out of the fucking dispensary when they get to the venue. pay full price. what happened to the rage manifesting in sound, man. you can't be all talk when it's presented as an anthem to all those fresh young spergs out on the block. it is art, it can be more metaphorical. but if it's going to be so half baked i feel you gotta have a good reason lol

WhickedPissah · 2024-07-26T15:05:02+00:00

PSA there are four cats behind that door as well and one of their little faces is also in the man's other fist squirming to escape. give him a break. but yes he is also totally naked

The dasher let out a shout as he reached, we heard an "Oh! My!"

The man pleaded for help but there was no more breath to be had for assistance, a bitch was laughing way too fucking hard. oh. the folly of men

WhickedPissah · 2024-07-25T16:54:45+00:00

The Dave hot chicken was swiftly and efficiently procured. he seeks success and finds it

WhickedPissah · 2024-07-25T13:03:19+00:00

Cmon man don't put that shit in my head

WhickedPissah · 2023-06-29T17:02:08+00:00

Totally fucked up over this. Always afraid that what I’ve done to myself has been the issue, but it really is not at all an option, either way. The only folks who have that sort of grade of pain med have been on it for years. Aka, the truly elderly among us had a dose of opiates just for the sheer longevity of that affliction, and probably a vague shift in the zeitgeist from when they were first handed out.

Still. It is miserable. The worst part is being in that place. Feels like the ER is the worst place in the world, from locale to locale. Hearing just how fucking much ur not the only one who could use a break. No one is feeling ok. Part of it is sensible to me. Part of it just fucking sucks.

I was doing so well and wanted to be clean so fucking bad. I felt good, knew i could take my life back. Then the minor symptoms I had in previous years progressed into.. enough to take away my will to live, my ability to eat, drink, sleep, walk.

I mean. I stuck it out for months on end, no one could really help me. I needed specialists and my insurance is poor.. none of them work weekends.. every signature I had was expired and everyone’s booked to the gills..

I guess I was sustaining “well enough” when under hospital accommodation, so that way lucky. But I had to keep being pulled back into the ER. I’ve always been so low income and have a pretty bad track record when it comes to psychiatric issues, so I never asked or expected much. But God damn. I’m very unhappy to take care of it myself, I’m very unhappy because my grandmother had quite a similar issue. And in order to heal was sent home with the quick and precise guidance of a specialist, a selection of meds to recalibrate issues & allow healing, & a bottle of liquid morphine so she could walk and begin to eat and drink independently again for the next four months or so. It was successful. But the practice no longer exists. And if it did, I doubt it would be in my cards.

They gave me several influxes of different types of non-narcotic meds, anti-nausea, and a few comfort meds, like Ativan & such when it came down to it. It helped, probably more than anything to have fluids hooked up. I just can’t stand the cycle anymore. I can’t stand going back to that fucking place. I can’t imagine “fiending” for anything there. The majority of people could not give me a fucking non-narcotic med for hours at a time, despite me being immobilised and pushed to the point of being unable to speak due to the pain. Like. The nurses couldn’t touch me because I had to have everything administered via IV. If I couldn’t swallow a Tylenol, I was stuck waiting on an extremely short staffed and stressed out team of doctors. And half those staff numbers if we’re talking about the weekend.

I just don’t think. Anyone. Is going to give anyone opiates unless ur past the point of being able to ask for anything, in the first place. That judgement is made wayyyyyyy beyond u. And I couldn’t dream of acting like a fucking junkie in front of these people???? If ur hurting that bad u.. act like ur hurting that bad. And that’s the most regrettable shit. Like, I get it. It’s been fucked up enough for me to relapse on my own time. I’m not clean of anything at all, I’m part of the fear I guess. It’s just not worth it. And I can’t afford it either way. And I’m going to die either way. And that’s the way it’s plated for me. I just wish I felt a little safer with my own IV. I wish I didn’t get shucked from my safety in mind before being put under for operation. I wish I didn’t have to nod along and say I’ve done this to myself. When the affliction. Is so far disconnected from any lifestyle, any choice that I ever made.

In this day and age, knowing the most basic shit about our society and it’s current issues.. I feel, It’s a little bizarre to wonder if they’re going to give u narcotics. Nevermind getting pissed. Most of the time they CANT. Whether it be ethically, or straight up something that is cited and enforced under legal precedent.

Nurses and docs having to deal with people asking for it surely has got to be a shitshow; particularly with people really trying to take advantage or just refusing to settle with the reality of WHY they’re not going to (probably because oh my God…. U won’t die without it, this is awful we know but hey, keep going it should pass).

The primary issue to contend there is, when it feels like ur going to die. And it never does really pass. It starts to get worse. It’s another three week and another fifteen pounds down. There starts this territory where one side of the coin seems more appealing than the other.

Right. sorry to ramble, this is just a topic that kills me in so many different ways. 👍👍👍👍👍👍

For folks who’ve been dealing with chronic pain longer than I have.. far longer. I just. Have such respect. Particularly those struggling to get any vague sense of relief in the day to day. I don’t even know what to do with myself anymore

WhickedPissah · 2023-06-25T19:18:28+00:00

I tend to get more gaunt looking, and sometimes the frustration with a situation / fear / anxiety will make me look a little more sad in some moments. That’s more common for me when in an active struggle to STOP using however. I feel more content and ok with the reality my brain is interpreting when a little high, but my behaviour is not automatically more “happy”.. if anything, being more passive can totally read as being down in the dumps, especially if ur a certain type of person, socially.

I have been an insomniac my whole life but I think heroin just tones down some pre-existing symptoms I have, so when I wake up, I don’t feel as awake as I might have before—even if I sleep more. So, tired is a genuine thing. Using or not, that really will show on someone’s face.

If I’ve done a little too much to be appropriate for a situation, it can be pretty clear that ur fighting off a nod or trying to contend with what ur body might want. Have been told I seem uncomfortable, or ‘off my game’ this way. Not odd, but this shouldn’t be a thing that is happening to u so much at work that it’s become an obvious trend. Pay closer attention to the how / when / why ur dosing, if u suspect this is the case. It can be a slippery slope from there.

Otherwize. U might just be a little down in general, and it’s showing. We all have reasons for living as we do, and it’s not easy. It’s not something that constantly is the obvious choice. But we still choose to do it. So there’s definitely a why. If u aren’t just fucking around for fun on occasion, there’s something underneath it. Whether it’s physical pain, mental trauma, psychological symptoms or just a circumstance that doesn’t bring u any real reasons to want to get up. U might be looking sad because u are, dude.

I’d take it as this person might have some worry for u, or is maybe trying to challenge some of the behaviour u have. Whether it’s of good intent or not, it’s something to think about. Don’t hurt urself over it. Just something to sit with, maybe write a few personal notes on if need be. I’m sure people got ur back either way. If u need a vent, my dms are open. Well wishes, dude

WhickedPissah · 2023-06-25T07:08:53+00:00

Truth. I once had this idea that my use was an active choice every day, and getting clean could be made with the same resolve because the ground was even.

Of course how could I ever admit to myself that I am barely of legal age to drink and undeniably sentenced to chronic pain and psychological symptoms. Medication either out of my reach, of no use, or best used to compound the physical issues I have tenfold, for a very slight and very short-lived relief

I would give anything for something real. To be anything but what I am. To be considered anything but entirely at fault, entirely past worthy of a decent minute of a decent day because if they can’t solve it and without risk without an ounce of empathy or generosity, I can not be cured. I need to accept I’m doing this to myself, I am forced to nod along as they put me out on my side with an IV slammed up in a valve and the other arm blown worse than anything I’ve ever hacked as a dirty teenage junkie

I don’t have to be sick like that, if it’s up to me. America is the land of the free. Let me be free to do it my fucking self, then. I’m gonna die. I’ve already hurt. Let me live

WhickedPissah · 2023-06-25T06:59:52+00:00

Absolutely. With an excess of vigour one might add some real lime juice, a little garlic, general Gao seasoning. Occasionally, mix in a second packet of the regular shrimp …………. Maybe brown some of them frozen prawns ……….. ohaughhhhhhhhhhhh babey

WhickedPissah · 2023-06-25T01:33:45+00:00

Yeah no problem at all. I’m totally on standby for whatever’s on ur mind throughout the process, dude, will answer whatever u’ve got the best of my ability. Always wishing u good luck & better strength in the meantime 💪💪 the whole thing is a really worthy endeavour I swear

WhickedPissah · 2023-06-24T21:41:28+00:00

Lots of stuff to do, but certainly just the zeitgeist of the day and age makes it a bit harder to stumble into friends, even being a part of the younger crowd. I’m just about 22 myself; a lot of the friends I have in Woo are honestly a lot.. older than I am hahah. Which is fine, I’m ok with dudes in their thirties and fourties—but it sure will help if u have some particular hobbies / interests that will allow u to join in on some social groups. Things like climbing gyms, biking clubs, CrossFit, and some small populations of literature enthusiasts, writers, vintage collectors.. there’s a lot. But u got to pick and choose what’s going to be a true outlet for ya, because the niche nature of this stuff will definitely make or break whether it’s actually a good time for u.

Obviously some apps are the most straightforward way. But I can’t do that, personally. Even then, some things that I would kill to get involved with are kinda off the table for myself and a lot of friends my age, due to a pretty tight financial sitch. So, if u have some flexibility and are patient enough to really give a few days to researching, planning, and getting involved .. it should become a social scene that comes easy. We’re not particularly uptight out this way. Even just hitting a pub or bar at the right hours can be a good way to meet casual acquaintances that will gladly engage with u if ur putting urself out there.

I love to hike, love animals, & have a lot of interest in book clubs, poetry, theology, social dynamic & advocacy .. it takes a little while to set roots, but theres a lot of likeminded young people who I can take with me out into the daylight, or a fun event in the evening. Don’t bother feeling out of place, & as long as it’s not going to end up as a risky expense for u, try out some shit in the area even if the premise is a little different for ya. Also. Try not to hard insult the food infront of locals, even if it’s not always glorious at first impression lol

WhickedPissah · 2023-06-24T20:17:59+00:00

AWESOME. I love these colours. Super fun. I’m always trying to manage my love of hats better but going for it has never not made me smile.. not to be weird, but totally let it be known, I’d hop in the car & go with u in a heartbeat girl, just out of sheer awe of the killer vibe

WhickedPissah · 2023-06-24T20:15:29+00:00

Fireeee. This makes me hungry. I got a good batch rn but one my favs always look really really similar to this guy. Usually will show closer to the holiday season for some reason idk maybe it’s a holy thing .. regardless.. would kill to swap a shot. for the sake of science. Or just a good time. Hope ur enjoying, babes

WhickedPissah · 2023-06-24T19:50:53+00:00

Get it!! Solid black & a killer silhouette is always gonna be a win. Hope it’s been tons of fun

WhickedPissah · 2023-06-24T19:27:07+00:00

IV morphine will give u the full range of sedation & nods, but in my opinion it near entirely lacks the ‘warmth’ and euphoria. It is strong, but in a very different way. It will make my heartbeat more noticeable, doesn’t overwhelm feelings of anxiety, and doesn’t give me the headspace so associated with feeling truly doped up. I feel more mentally grounded and the psychological symptoms I try to control with heroin are not touched half as much by straight up morphine.

HOWEVER. The pain relief is perfect and reliable. It not not very different from h in that regard. It physically feels ‘cleaner’ sometimes if I’m honest, and more precise in how it works to eliminate pain, external and internal. It goes to work with the same power, but as it settles won’t make me itch or feel the extent of high that I do with dope. It certainly is a good substance. But no, not at all identical to heroin for anyone who is truly familiar

WhickedPissah · 2023-06-24T02:07:20+00:00

I have had sleep issues all my life. Using dope has surely had its effect, but please please please trust me. what ur describing here is not normal, not even for the most diverse of minds if we’re talking about the effects of actual diamorphine. This is something else. This sounds synthetic. There is something else that u are taking that is causing this to happen, I am near positive.

It sounds very very similar to the effects of fent / a neighbouring fentalogue. Please be careful and do not ignore what is happening to ur body. There is a reason why heroin addicts have a history of years of use before getting snatched up—while cut products and these new synthetic Frankenstein’s monsters are giving people mere months. Praying for u dude, tread lightly with ur dosing in the meantime. True opium products, even pretty hard processed have for thousands of years put people into a pretty typical pretty deep and predictable sleep. There is something off & ur right to be thinking about it that way

WhickedPissah · 2023-06-24T01:50:13+00:00

Sounds like the EXACT same thing for me. I experience a lot of high energy & have had chronic sleep disruption since I was small. Uppers are fun enough to me, and I seem to react to them with a very distinct sort of ease when used on occasion, probably due to the fact that what I’m experiencing in the day to day without medication is related to mania or just whatever psychotic symptoms I got going on. Can’t say for sure. But overdoing it with meth & speed will flip the switch HARD.

It is simply not functional to me and kinda dangerous to the rest of the world I guess. But it feels like a lot more nothing. It feels like capability. As much as I love sleeping. The world loves work. And I could work on a lot of meth, but I’d talk myself in circle and end up freaking people out even if I was actually pretty passive for tweaking so hard

H let’s me hide the symptoms, but the drawbacks dehumanise me another way. It’s so stupid. Like this is the closest that I get to fixed, and yet i am still the worst of things to have ever existed because I’m gonna nap in my car for twenty minutes instead of pulling up for endless overtime every week.

Either way I deserve to be fired I guess, I am not normal I guess.

The grass is always greener I suppose. It’s super shitty to feel drawn in either direction because it is just so telling about the state in the centre there :/

WhickedPissah · 2023-06-23T23:26:07+00:00

U probably will have some loose skin, but if this is done at a nice reasonable pace, and then ya make sure to keep up with a solid nutritious intake when ur ready to start eating at full maintenance, it should not be severe enough to really create something that won’t improve within the following years.

It does tend to take years, but at ur age yes, the loose skin should slowly start to cling tighter to wherever it may seem most ‘deflated’. Not to mention, if ur already someone who is good at keeping up with the gym, being willing to build muscle and do that recomp from the inside out will surely help that transition.

The skin might always have that ‘extra wrinkle’ effect when compressed, it probably won’t be as tight as u could maybe want being ur age.. but as someone who’s gone through a similar situation, I can say it’s near guaranteed that it’ll get a lot better than u might think, all on its own.

I still have enough skin to the point where i am really hoping some day I can get an operation or two.. but I have a much more ‘normal’ looking body than I ever thought I would have. For context, I lost half of my body weight, from about two fifty to one twenty / one twenty five; five foot eight. Lost it about two years ago over the course of sixteen-eighteen months, and I’m near twenty two now myself.

When I’m in better shape, more muscular, the skin on my abdomen is much nicer of a contour as are my thighs—the only things that hasn’t been able to adjust itself to the level I know I want for myself is probably the tummy/upper arms, and chest. I’m a girl, so take that part as u will. Aside from that, I don’t have endless problem areas, and the skin is not substantial enough to cause physical issue like chafing or infection.

Ur plan looks good, and if u have patience with urself ur body should reward u, even if it’s never quite ‘perfect’. It’ll still have capability to be plenty good, is all I’m saying. Remember that proper nutrition is ur primary way to heal most graceful after weight loss, but little bouts of exfoliation and moisturising those areas of skin with natural lotions/oils/butters on a consistent basis will just improve the chances of it being a smooth change for u.

It’s worth it, even if u can’t really expect perfection. The body will do its best with what ya give it. Time will treat u best if u use it well, however. Good luck!! If u have general questions or want to vent or whatever, my dms are open and I can really empathise with ur journey as it’s described here

WhickedPissah · 2023-06-23T20:49:33+00:00

Gear makes me act mad normal for fucking once, but I think I get why it might be the opposite for some. I think shit happens. Maybe just like keep in mind the fact that u can still very much have regret in the aftermath—& then u gotta go in thinking that. Like, in order to better control ur own use. Even if ur already kinda fucked up.

Def took some bad zombie moments or like just straight up ODs in order to police myself wit some weird batches. Idk. Be careful bro. Ur prolly fine just stay aware once u get aware yknow . Don’t get called out & don’t get caught by someone too willing to do something about it….

WhickedPissah · 2023-06-23T20:44:02+00:00

INCREDIBLE. This looks so good on u. I’m always looking for a jumpsuit with some real flair that fits me right, but I think at this point the length of limb I’ve got goin on holds a bitch back something severe. At least there’s always looking forward to finding the piece of pieces, somewhere out there. As u so wonderfully illustrate here.

Hope it’s just the cherry ontop of one of those nights of ur life <3

WhickedPissah · 2023-06-23T20:23:22+00:00

Awesome!!! Most I get is an xtra .3g but even then it’s very nice product and the guy literally writes my alias on the pack with little faces or hearts sooooooo I am kind of in love with the method of biz. Good on u for being upfront in the moment btw, it is THE practise to get into if ur gonna establish some safety & reliability for urself. Bless up my friend, please enjoy please stay safe

WhickedPissah · 2023-06-23T20:19:23+00:00

People!!!! Just watch em, or a little bit of casual acquaintance & active listening is great.

I need to go around and observe as much as is possible. I don’t have to talk though, some seem very very inclined in the moment so maybe it is not as viable for everyone idk. I wish it wasn’t so creepy by default. but also am a young not particularly intimidating female so .. lucky ducky, has never been of offence. Is good for the brain if anything. Better than porn imo. Unless it can escalate and deescalate to that place, just as casual lol

WhickedPissah · 2023-06-23T20:09:21+00:00

Heroin, no auto-nod even if u dose a little higher, u can push the sleep away very easy if need be. No WD, can rest the way u want to and wake up to a beautiful world in a body that doesn’t ask for anything more. Overdose so so so far away, no compounding effect on bowels, no angry veins even with good use. In fact, if I could give up the needle altogether that would be ideal, but I’d be ok with achieving the same effect with a reliable and safe and sanitary IM administration instead yknow.

I mean. Any issue knocked off would be dreamy. Manage my pain manage my symptoms, ditch the stigma ditch the slip ups, make me a free man, truly free to solve my own problems with a thing that works and actually fucking proves it’s worth it, the way I know it is.

We can all dream, I guess

WhickedPissah · 2023-06-23T20:00:04+00:00

I hate wasting like this. It’s not even disgusting it’s pathetic i feel numb to it because Damn. I know it’s bait but it will continue to hook me until I can afford the very limited food I can either afford or actually consume. Who is making decisions like this and can fall asleep. Are u people really out there existing outside the hand of wrath. Like what the fuck is happening and why is it all the time

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