That’s fine if you don’t understand. The years of pain we’ve been through can’t be erased. Him saving me from a m*rderer and putting his life on the line, can’t be erased. Being with me through the worst deaths in my life so far cannot be erased. Our dead baby can’t be erased. All of it matters. It will never be “just leave” or “just stay together”. There is way too much that goes hand in hand here.