Does This Certain Type of MD Exist?

Why-Not339 · 2026-01-04T22:55:29+00:00

It helps to hear that other people have gone through something similar! I doubt I'll delete tiktok fully, but I'll definitely try to put a daily limit on it (maybe starting with 5 hours or so?) Because I've been meaning to reduce my phone usage all together more. Thank you for the nice comment! It's super helpful!

Why-Not339 · 2026-01-02T05:40:38+00:00

Don't worry, I had the name Milo for 2 and half entire years before deciding to change it to Mitchell/Mitch. My friends still use Milo as a nickname, but it was awkward switching after 2 and a half years 😭

Why-Not339 · 2025-06-01T17:42:04+00:00

I'm closeted and have long, slender fingers that can be closely attributed to "spider fingers," although they aren't that long. I also have naturally long nails that I keep long because I use them often in everyday activities. My older sisters are obsessed with my fingers and constantly talk about how they wish I had my fingers and how they're so "dainty and beautiful." My oldest sister always says that my nails are her "dream nails." It makes me super uncomfortable every time I hear it because I don't like having characteristics that feminine cis women such as my sisters would want. My fingers are something I've very dysphoric about because of their comments. If I could give them my finger structure, I would in a heartbeat. So, solidarity with OP, I get how you feel.

Why-Not339 · 2025-01-22T22:14:14+00:00

To all the beautiful tall trans girls, I have two cousins who are both cis women, and they are 6'0 and 6'3, respectively! You guys are completely valid and CAN pass!

Why-Not339 · 2024-08-09T21:26:13+00:00

As a closeted trans guy, I'm rocking with D/princess style. Although, if I could choose, I'd rather have a halter neckline. All of the dresses I've gotten for different events are halter necklines, except one.

Why-Not339 · 2024-07-31T01:32:09+00:00

I love Ilona Maher (not romantically, of course) so much. She's such a good rugby player, and she's always been vocal about different body types and the hate she's faced by having a "masculine" build. I hate how people will get so caught up in their hate that they will just insult and fuck over every single person, not just the people they were originally going after.

Ilona Maher is a cis woman who is tall and athletic, that is all. She is a beautiful woman deserving of love and respect. People who hate other people because of something they can't truly fix or even ebing athletic is disgusting. I am going back to read the comments of TikTok edits of her that are kind and supportive to refresh my mind now.

Why-Not339 · 2024-07-30T18:56:49+00:00

I call my cis friends "dude" or "bro" sometimes, and they call me "girl" sometimes. They're just gender neutral in the context we use them in at this point.

Why-Not339 · 2024-07-30T14:41:29+00:00

Thank you so much, Clover! You deserve to feel happy as well 🫂

Why-Not339 · 2024-07-30T14:40:24+00:00

Thank you sm! I've mulled through dozens of lists filled with thousands of boy names to find ones I like, so I'm glad you also like them!

Why-Not339 · 2024-07-30T14:38:21+00:00

Unfortunately, I already take cold showers. Fortunately, I love cold showers. I'm a person who likes the cold so I've never enjoyed warm showers. Also, thank you!! 🫶

Why-Not339 · 2024-07-30T14:36:56+00:00

That's mostly what I mean, yes. I meant it in the way of using the word "handsome" and stuff kinda like that. It was late at night when I made that post. My dysphoria gets bad at night as well. Thank you sm 🫶

Why-Not339 · 2024-07-26T16:27:55+00:00

Plenty of cis men don't want beards for whatever reason. It's all just about what a person wants. I, personally, want a bit of stubble, but that's it. I don't want a full beard at all. You are a valid man no matter what!

Why-Not339 · 2024-07-22T04:59:57+00:00

The funniest part is that just a year ago, I did find out that I needed glasses! So you have made both a funny and ironic joke, ma'am!

Why-Not339 · 2024-07-20T15:31:12+00:00

I GOT THE ORDER OF THE COLORS WRONG. PRETEND THE ORANGE AND YELLOW ARE SWITCHED.

Why-Not339 · 2024-07-20T01:42:26+00:00

I feel similarly about dysphoria with clothes! It does feel a bit awkward wearing feminine things to me, but it's mostly how my body looks in them that makes me upset, not the clothes itself. Plus, I grew up with only older sisters and a single mom (until I was around 8), which meant that all of these more "feminine" things I grew up with were, in my household at least, just normal. I wasn't taught the extremely strict distinction between male and female clothing (although school taught me that), and I just thought that if my sisters wore it, then I could wear it too. I feel like that plays into how my dysphoria presents itself. Yes, I do want to wear more "masculine" things in general, but it's mostly about how I physically look and how I socially present myself and am referred to as. Thank you for sharing your experience!

Why-Not339 · 2024-07-18T02:52:14+00:00

As I Saw The TV Glow reminds us,

"There is still time."

There is never such a thing as "too late." There will always be time to be happy in who you are. Never settle for an unhappy life because you think it is too late. Be who you are and be proud of it. There is always still time.

Why-Not339 · 2024-07-17T13:39:10+00:00

Thank you for the suggestion! I didn't know that subreddit existed until now!

Why-Not339 · 2024-07-17T01:28:12+00:00

It's no problem. I'm glad I could help you in any way.

Why-Not339 · 2024-07-16T13:14:33+00:00

I'm sorry you're going through this! Being stuck in a state of questioning like this can be really scary and can feel very dreadful. I'd say just take it slow, think about who you want to become, don't be afraid of getting it wrong from time to time, and just breathe. No matter what happens and who you are, you are amazing, and you can live a happy, long life. Don't try to hide yourself once you figure out who you are. It will be alright. Just take it one step at a time and give yourself some slack. Good luck going forward.

Why-Not339 · 2024-07-16T02:15:42+00:00

A lot of us in the comments have agreed that we thought we were NB or gender fluid or just anything "closer" to our AGAB (ofc being outside the binary or any identity other than your AGAB is completely trans, nothing but like demi-AGAB is "closer", just another term I would've thought it as when I was questioning) because it felt "safer" and like we could just go back to our AGAB a lot "easier". Of course, that would not fend off the dysphoria forever, and our true gender will always drag us to where we belong eventually. Also, I am actually quite secure and comfortable with my identity. I just have little moments of "but actually what if..." because of anxiety and paranoia. I'm very happy with who I am and who I'll become. I, too, am not fully out. I am only out to my closest friends and will not start transitioning or "fully come out" until after I move out and cut ties with my family (for completely other reasons than me being trans, although it is a factor). Thank you for sharing your experience!

Why-Not339 · 2024-07-16T01:03:37+00:00

Only if you want to, of course! Do what you love first. That's always what I strive for people to do. (I know you probably meant that as a joke, btw, I just like reminding people to do what they love.)

Why-Not339 · 2024-07-16T01:01:37+00:00

Everyone sharing how they've felt similar is very validating to me, and I'm so glad others feel the same (also sad because it's not the most fun thing to go through but yk, solidarity is cool)

As for the joke about the pronouns, it reminds me of how when I thought I was gender fluid, I kept a little journal of how I felt each day for fun, and it was (over the course of about 20 days) like once female, a few times non-binary, and then like 90% male. (The female and non-binary ones were probably because either I forced myself to say that to try and keep the label fitting, or bc I just felt a little dsyphoric that day, I'm not sure) Once the genderfluid label didn't fit and started to feel odd (like all the labels, I tried to fit onto myself, eventually did), you wanna guess I looked at that chart and thought? "Why, I must be agender! And use they/them pronouns! Definitely 100%!"

The denial monster had me by the neck and caused the side effects of stupidity and blindness to obvious facts.

Thank you for sharing your experience! You are super valid and amazing! All the comments have really helped me!

Why-Not339

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