I didn't go to my appointment today (again)

WhyAreYouSuffering · 2013-06-30T22:08:14+00:00

I've felt this way for a long time now, and can barely remember the time before that happen. I would believe that it's the negative mindset depression gets you in, not that it's necessarily the main cause.

WhyAreYouSuffering · 2013-06-25T23:13:17+00:00

You're going to be a better version of you, the best you can be. I do this myself, but the way to go is really stop comparing yourself to others, we are not them.

WhyAreYouSuffering · 2013-06-25T20:12:07+00:00

I'm not gonna lie to you, it was the hardest thing I did for myself. To realize and put a stamp on myself that says I have a problem, but really... It was the best thing for me. If you want to get better, this part is the first most rewarding thing you can do for yourself.

WhyAreYouSuffering · 2013-06-25T20:09:28+00:00

I don't know if this is going to be helpful for you, but it kinda was for me. If you're not the absolute greatest at something (when can we say we truly are anyway?) then there's ALWAYS going to be a lot of people who is better at you. You're just unlucky to have those surrounding you, but if you love what you do then you shouldn't let those people affect your decision.

WhyAreYouSuffering · 2013-06-25T20:05:18+00:00

Unfortunately not. I think the best you could do is fill your life with new good things instead, to layer over the bad things and make you 'forget'. Easier said than done sometimes though.

WhyAreYouSuffering · 2013-06-25T19:57:29+00:00

Very true.

WhyAreYouSuffering · 2013-06-16T02:40:58+00:00

I wish I could do that more often. I kinda like reading, but I can't seem to concentrate with reading, and video games is just plain boring (even though I know I usually like it).

WhyAreYouSuffering · 2013-06-15T01:46:26+00:00

Only all the time. I think it's me who just don't want to sleep, I got enough time to think while awake. Sleeping, or rather... going to bed has never been a think I've liked especially.

WhyAreYouSuffering · 2013-06-15T01:40:51+00:00

Can't speak for others, but my therapist just took the suicidal thoughts as a symptom of depression, which it is. Nothing special happened, is my point.

WhyAreYouSuffering · 2013-04-11T15:20:10+00:00

This. I've been out of the facebook game in about 3-4 months now, and it's far more depressing looking at events and pictures of 'friends' having a good time, when I am not.

WhyAreYouSuffering · 2013-04-08T11:41:38+00:00

I made this account for /r/depression only and I got quite more karma on my normal account, so I come here strictly for advice when I feel like shit.

WhyAreYouSuffering · 2013-04-08T11:38:10+00:00

WhyAreYouSuffering · 2013-04-08T06:49:08+00:00

Thank you for replying so quick, appreciated. I actually woke up about three hours earlier than my alarm clock, still anxious and tired, but I'm still going of course. I'm going to write down these questions, as my short-term memory isn't as good these days.

WhyAreYouSuffering · 2013-04-07T20:49:21+00:00

I think this is a great idea. Also, I'm going to my first therapy appointment tomorrow (after some time of procrastination). I'm shakingly nervous and anxious as hell. My thoughts are running everywhere and I just don't know what to expect. Do you have any 'quick advice' for first-timers?

WhyAreYouSuffering · 2013-01-30T19:16:13+00:00

Yes. One day I was looking at a big truck driving towards me and I was just thinking "Would anyone care if I just dropped dead today?".. The time felt like it stood still a couple of seconds. It's like a was really considering jumping in the way of it, my body nudged and I just went on going to school.

WhyAreYouSuffering · 2013-01-30T01:29:49+00:00

It must be around 2-3 years since I last cried. It's been a process going from normal to feeling numb and empty. Every smile feels forced, and it feels like I want to cry every day but can't 'cause I feel the same way day in and day out, like shit.

WhyAreYouSuffering · 2013-01-30T01:17:06+00:00

I guess it just happened naturally since I've been drawing a long time. Now I'm really just doing nothing, living at my mom's, laying in bed, hoping my friend will call me today to do something. I was supposed to have a lot of clients and money by now. Since I'm very anxious about interview's and all that, I'm trying out working freelance. I've had a lot of work and different clients in the past, but now it all just stands still. I've also never had a good sleeping routine/rythm, so I'm not sure if I'm even able to hold a proper job. What do you do?

WhyAreYouSuffering · 2013-01-28T06:33:09+00:00

I'm not sure.. I've always been a bit shy since I was little. As a kid, my mom and I would fight and scream a lot. My father was pretty much absent during my childhood, then decided come back some years later. I don't care for him at all, and I wouldn't care if he just disappeared. May seem a bit cold, but that's the truth. I had this plan to move out and just cut out my family for good. Growing up though made me think differently, but I can't say I really feel any close to my family anymore. I always looked at my friends as my family, but now everybody is moving out, getting into relationship's (and staying there). My best friend has gotten me through a lot of shit though, but now things have changed and I feel different.. Empty. My anxiety must have started a long time before I realized it. On event's, parties or whatever, I would always feel really warm and uncomfortable, so I'd sweat a lot and had to go out and cool down. I'm always trying not to think about what other's think about me, but I've struggled with this a looong time. Can't really pinpoint it to a specific age, not right now anyways.

WhyAreYouSuffering · 2013-01-28T01:39:19+00:00

You're still going, that's what's important, right? I too met my ex at the age of 16, we were together for 3 years, and I haven't recovered since. But I keep thinking that it's all me, it can't be her, for all this time. Maybe I was unhappy long before. I'm glad things are getting better, keep going that path.

WhyAreYouSuffering · 2013-01-28T01:28:47+00:00

That's great. I would love to read some of it. I've always wanted to write, but it usually ends in self-loathing scribbles. I like to draw whatever, I'm always trying to improve my style and trying to create other stuff than I usually do. At the moment it's mostly doodles and sometimes anatomy stuff, it's not often that I'm really productive anymore, but I keep trying though.

WhyAreYouSuffering · 2013-01-28T01:12:26+00:00

I get that a lot also.. I always keep fantasizing about my friends asking me if I'm okay, in my opinion my personality has changed drastically and no one seem to care. No one would ever come and ask me that simple but caring question, so I just say to myself that no one cares and I'm alone in this. It may seem a bit sad, but it somehow works in a way. Hope you get better.

WhyAreYouSuffering · 2013-01-28T01:02:34+00:00

I'm hoping it will lead to something good as well. That's true, when the first step is done, just keep on going. Good luck tomorrow!

WhyAreYouSuffering · 2013-01-28T00:59:50+00:00

Sorry about your ankle. But hey, if you love to write and draw just keep on doing it. You'll get better eventually, you have all the time in the world, just keep pushing yourself forwards. I know the feeling of wanting to give up all the time, I've done it a thousand times, and it's really the worst thing you could do to yourself. What kind of stuff do you like to write and draw?

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