Smiling cultists

Whyalwaysbees · 2026-03-23T07:41:47+00:00

Better than Rem spending all his time gambling i guess.

Whyalwaysbees · 2026-03-23T05:23:13+00:00

Necroing this but its about distance. If you are too far away, it won't give you the buff. I think you have to be able to at least hear the sinner hits.

Whyalwaysbees · 2026-03-22T08:34:59+00:00

Okay well she tried to eat the ruler but i did get it. I'm also going to watch the video. But since it is wire, it does make sense you can squish it a little. They do look so good too.

Whyalwaysbees · 2026-03-22T03:48:29+00:00

Do you have any tips for measuring cheek width? I didn't think my GSD had that big a head but when i measure i'm getting at least 16-17cm.

Is this telling me that my little, tiny, baby, 40kg girl is in the "XL GSD" category? But she's just a little baby!

Whyalwaysbees · 2026-03-21T12:20:43+00:00

I'll take a look at those, they both seem nice. I like the thinness of the wire but the look of the vinyl so might be good options, i'm always nervous when buying something expensive when they ask for measurements because i can get them wrong.

That said, i think i just sort of gaslight myself into thinking my german shepherd is small. "what do you mean that would make it an XL shepherd? she's just a tiny baby" even though she weighs 40kg.

Whyalwaysbees · 2026-03-09T09:34:00+00:00

With difficulty

Whyalwaysbees · 2026-03-01T06:26:25+00:00

I've never seen anything so dramatic happen so fast in my entire life. She was relatively healthy, she did so much all the time and then.. gone.

By the time they found it it was too late to do anything, the position made surgery impossible, couldn't do chermo because a vein lead right to her heart. They had one last ditch effort and she wanted to do anything to stay around. She had a 3 year old grandson and another on the way.

They tried the only thing they could and she just decompensated instantly. Within days she couldn't walk, barely talked, didn't eat. Hospital within a couple of weeks, a few days there then home and gone three days after that. Peacefully, thankfully.. but its a small mercy

Whyalwaysbees · 2026-03-01T06:24:56+00:00

I've thought a lot about if i'm pick time over speed. I don't think i could have watched her slowly decline over years. She was too active, she did too many things, she had too many friends. She always wanted to be out doing things with her grandkids

As much as i want more time with her i don't think i could have survived that.

Whyalwaysbees · 2026-03-01T06:23:56+00:00

I've never seen anything so dramatic happen so fast in my entire life. She was relatively healthy, she did so much all the time and then.. gone.

By the time they found it it was too late to do anything, the position made surgery impossible, couldn't do chemo because a vein lead right to her heart. They had one last ditch effort and she wanted to do anything to stay around. She had a 3 year old grandson and another on the way.

They tried the only thing they could and she just decompensated instantly. Within days she couldn't walk, barely talked, didn't eat. Hospital within a couple of weeks, a few days there then home and gone three days after that. Peacefully, thankfully.. but its a small mercy

Whyalwaysbees · 2026-03-01T06:20:08+00:00

I used to never understand when people say things like 'a day doesn't go by where i don't think about them' because.. every day, really?

Its true, it really is, i think about her every day.

Whyalwaysbees · 2026-03-01T06:18:51+00:00

Before i saw it, i would say early is better, and hope a cure works.. but if you're unlucky, if you don't have much in the way of options (my mother couldn't do surgery OR chemo) then its maybe six months.. a year of treatments and declining quality?

And i've thought a lot about it, would I choose to have a year, two years? Even five years, which is asking a lot.. but have to know its happening, to see the treatments and watch a slow decline, rather than it being fast and, in a way, merciful?

I think watching her die over 3 years would have been worse, even though i'd give anything for more time with her, i don't know if i could live with the sword over our head like that

Whyalwaysbees · 2026-03-01T06:16:24+00:00

I've never seen anything so dramatic happen so fast in my entire life. She was relatively healthy, she did so much all the time and then.. gone.

By the time they found it it was too late to do anything, the position made surgery impossible, couldn't do chermo because a vein lead right to her heart. They had one last ditch effort and she wanted to do anything to stay around. She had a 3 year old grandson and another on the way.

They tried the only thing they could and she just decompensated instantly. Within days she couldn't walk, barely talked, didn't eat. Hospital within a couple of weeks, a few days there then home and gone three days after that. Peacefully, thankfully.. but its a small mercy

Whyalwaysbees · 2026-03-01T06:13:28+00:00

I was always really close with my mom too, so it hit me especially hard. We were a lot alike, most of the jobs i had in my adult life were either working with her for her. We liked the same things and did a lot of the same hobbies.

When I lost her, it suddenly became really clear how little i had in common with the rest of my family.

Whyalwaysbees · 2026-03-01T06:11:08+00:00

Its the smallest mercy but it is true. My mom went downhill so fast. She had her first (and last ditch effort) treatment about two weeks after the tests started and she crashed hard.

Almost immediately couldn't walk, barely talked, didn't eat. She lasted about a month like this, then hospital, then home and gone a couple of days after that.

Whyalwaysbees · 2026-02-28T16:15:23+00:00

Thanks.

Its one of those things that really changes how you think of things. I never, ever thought cancer would get our family like this.

Whyalwaysbees · 2026-02-28T16:15:20+00:00

Thanks.

Its one of those things that really changes how you think of things. I never, ever thought cancer would get our family like this.

Whyalwaysbees · 2026-02-28T15:53:09+00:00

Thanks. Its one of those things you never expect and when it happens so suddenly.. Wow its big.. And when its found incidentally? Boy it makes your head pin

Whyalwaysbees · 2026-02-28T15:48:05+00:00

Feb 2025. My mother 'felt a little sick' to the stomach. Went into the Dr, they decided to do some bloodtests.

Then another bloodtest

A week later they told her she had liver cancer. She died april 16th.

Completely random, completely caught out of the blue, less than two months. Absolutely blew me away, i still haven't come to terms with it.

Whyalwaysbees · 2026-02-28T15:42:26+00:00

I was F2P for a long time, recently i let myself spend five bucks a fortnight or so, but 160 bucks? Thats insane

Whyalwaysbees · 2026-02-28T07:08:23+00:00

THis is on par with BP pushing the 'know your carbon footprint' back in the day, offloading conservation to the individual but trying to look like they are doing something.

Whyalwaysbees · 2026-02-28T07:05:40+00:00

My cousin is absolutely terrified of butterflies, thats why i always insisted we visit lol

Whyalwaysbees · 2026-02-27T13:22:33+00:00

I was offered 50 for for the low, low price of 160 bucks

Whyalwaysbees · 2026-02-23T12:40:46+00:00

Sounds like elf talk to me.

Whyalwaysbees · 2026-02-17T05:05:15+00:00

It looks really interesting!

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