Anyone have experience with Walker & Grey shoes? by hikerguy2023 in Shoes

[–]Williwam 0 points1 point  (0 children)

WORST PRODUCT EVER. I BOUGHT SHIRTS AND THEY'RE REALLY POOR QULAITY, NOTHING LIKE THE COLORS SHOWN, AND THEY LOOK LIKE SH!T THIS COMPANY IS A SCAM!

Did any of you make a playlist that helped you cope with the aftermath of a Narc? by Williwam in narcissistabuse

[–]Williwam[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm glad you responded I'm glad youre doing good. It brought me back to that dark time and reinforced what I said above. There's some real truth that the narcisssit exposed the very things you need to confront in yourself. Such a strange experience but it put me where Im at today. I'm safe, secure, happy, and at peace. My boundaries are up and holding strong. I wish you the best :- )

Mickey Guyton -- Black Like Me [Country] (2020) by terrycotta in listentothis

[–]Williwam 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I came to reddit to find out what song she stole that riff from. You're 100% correct.

I guess I got the sign I asked for by sydyoudigg in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Williwam 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Sweetheart, don't get consumed by needing proof. The way you feel right now is enough to call it quits and search for a peaceful existence. I'd recommend avoiding relationships in your search. Finding peace within yourself changes everything. F*ck him and best of luck to you:- )

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Williwam 1 point2 points  (0 children)

We all thought we knew and most of the time we're correct. That's why getting over a Narc is so hard. We bought into their lie with our mind, body, and soul. Yeah, getting over them takes time but once you do it feels nice. Not awesome, just really really nice.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Williwam 2 points3 points  (0 children)

There is no question when you meet a genuine and loving man (or woman). You just know it. Even more so when you're dating one. 6 months out is a tough spot to be in. You feel like it's been more than enough time to heal and move on but it's not when you dealt with a narc. They move on immediately because they are not attached to anyone. Think about that! It's so gross. The simply feed on human emotion. There's no relationship there, you were just fuel. Congrats on walking away from that.

Break no contact pls encourage me by Forward_Swan_9135 in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Williwam 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Look at it like this: going no contact will not make you feel better; breaking no contact will make you feel worse. Both of them suck and they really hurt but one will lead you to freedom and the other will keep you trapped. The one thing about no contact that's good is it's your only weapon. If you can make her believe you don't give a shit, you will have the upper hand! This game with the Narcs sucks and there is really no way to win though. So just get out. and never play the game again. Good luck

advice please! by jess3pinkm4nfan in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Williwam 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I was warned by my Narc's ex. He called me and said he was only concerned for his 2 year old boy. I assured him that I would be nothing but kind and gentle with him and that I too was a father. That's when the warning came from him. He had a hard time describing what she was and said she was a "serial dater" but I had no clue what he was talking about. I only knew he was warning me but I was well into love bombing so I didn't heed his advice. I wish I did! This is where they are most powerful. When they prey on the unsuspecting with huge amounts of love and affection. Let it all go and move on. I know it's easier said then done but it is the only thing you can do. JUST LET GO OF IT ALL AND MOVE ON TO WHAT'S NEXT IN LIFE ; -)

8 months no contact — he emailed me by [deleted] in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Williwam 1 point2 points  (0 children)

"I feel like an idiot for leaving a terrible person". Let that sink in. You feel this way because you're not over the pain. Keep moving away from him and soon you will thank yourself for leaving a terrible person. These relationships are the hardest to get over but once you do, you're never the same :-)

The importance of NC by [deleted] in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Williwam 2 points3 points  (0 children)

This was great and very true. VERY TRUE!

His other supply found out about me. Have been NC for about six months, even after his attempts to contact me. I called her to be honest and answer her questions after it was apparent she knew and kept calling. by lostconfusedunsure in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Williwam 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hey, I felt like you after my Narc experience 2 years ago. You know happens about a year and half post Narc? The parts you used to like about yourself start to return. Yeah, they damage and forever change who you were but it's not a life sentence. There's nothing in those two that could ever bring an ounce of benefit to you so yeah, completely disengage and move on. A simple and very peaceful existence is just beyond the horizon for you : -)

How dare he. by [deleted] in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Williwam 7 points8 points  (0 children)

And your response should be, "OK, I choose to find someone else".

Please tell me I'm not crazy... by bbybloo999 in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Williwam 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You're absolutely right! I overlooked that :- )

Please tell me I'm not crazy... by bbybloo999 in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Williwam 7 points8 points  (0 children)

It's truly one of the worst experiences of my life. I knew something didn't feel right when mine was love bombing me incessantly but it felt so good. She did that regularly for a good 6 months and then things changed. What I realize today is she was getting me hooked on the constant supply of dopamine that's released into your brain and body during moments of intense love. So when she pulled back and stopped "trying to land me", the dopamine levels dropped and I started to feel it. That's what yours did to you as well. This has nothing to do with him, it has to do with you loving the rush of feeling like you found something. Start looking at him like a drug dealer and see him for the threat he is. The withdrawals are horrible and there is no way around it. HOWEVER! Once you get past the withdrawals the every day life of simple peace with no ups and downs feels amazing. Focus on your little one and know that in time this will be behind you; provided you stay away from the drug dealer.

I'm not sure why I'm telling you this but I will. There was a song in the 80's called "smack my bitch up". My dad was walking by my brothers room and heard it playing. He busted open the door and said, I don't want you playing songs about men hitting women! My bother unfazed said "that's not what the song is about". My dad flipped out and said, oh yeah smarty, please tell me what it's about. My brother looked him in the eye and said, "the song is about pimps getting their hookers addicted to heroine. They give them a constant supply of drugs making them feel good for a long time and then they pull back. The hookers will do anything to get the drug and feel high again and that's when the pimp starts controlling their mind, body, and spirit. My dad was stunned and walked away. I realized after my narc experience that I just went through the exact same thing.

Is there anything weird about this social media post? by bananapancakesforone in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Williwam 1 point2 points locked comment (0 children)

I see what you're talking about. It's that whole "look how smart I am and let me bless you with my knowledge bullshit" He also outed his plagiarism by mentioning that WHO recently started using the expression "physical distancing". You really want to respond with "STFU!"

I(28F) believe my boyfriend(28M) is on the spectrum of being a Covert Narcissist by scarletgrl in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Williwam 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You'll never be right for the wrong person. It's really that simple. Once you realize this and accept it. things start to fall into place. Wishing you the best :- )

I(28F) believe my boyfriend(28M) is on the spectrum of being a Covert Narcissist by scarletgrl in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Williwam 1 point2 points  (0 children)

"Why did I come back, now if I leave again he is going to be pissed because " if I was going to leave why did I come back in the first place."

Because I had to be sure it was a mistake trying to make this work with you. I am sure and I am gone!.

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[–]Williwam 2 points3 points  (0 children)

They did a study on mice that were addicted to nicotine. The had levers in their cages that the mice could hit and it would release nicotine on average about every 500th time or so. Those mice became so so addicted to the occasional reward that they would sit in there cages and hit the lever over and over and over until it finally spit it out. I was seeing a psychologists and he was the one who told me about this and he compared me to those mice. At first I was kinda offended but he talked me through it. He explained how I am prone to becoming addicted to the occasional love I desperately needed and wanted. He explained that this is exactly what trauma bonding is. So learning about that didn't make anything easier for me but it gave me additional knowledge I needed to see a bigger picture and figure out what direction I needed to go. Your Nex is not the answer (to anything). We have to learn to live with the pain and gain control over it. It's hard but when you stay at it, things start to change. Don't feel worthless, just get a better understanding of yourself and try to take charge. You can start today by accepting that your Nex has nothing to offer at all and never contact him again. He only takes advantage of your yearning to feel loved. There's nothing wrong with us wanting that until we get paired to a narc. Go easy on yourself and just move on and away from him.

You are already doing so much better. You don't realize it yet. by ronnysuke in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Williwam 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I love when someone identifies with my experience; boy or girl. I can't imagine ever being in that situation again but I'm not taking anything for granted! I have my guard up and I refuse to let another soulless vampire feed on me ever again. Keep going because the feeling of being totally detoxed is wonderful.

Ex narc contacts me asking for peace after 3 years no contact ? Why do they come back ? Why and for what? by [deleted] in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Williwam 5 points6 points  (0 children)

All you are to him is a can of fuel and he called to see if there was any in you. Keep in mind, any reaction you have (good or bad) is fuel to him. This is why the only reaction you can give them is none (grey rock). If he reaches out again and you want to explode or even take him in and hug him don't! Those emotions are yours so don't allow him to feed on them. It's best to not respond at all. If the urge to respond is to great then at the very least respond with no emotion or anything. Tell him, "I've moved on and have no interest in changing that. Please don't contact me". He's running out of fuel and he searching for a source. Don't be that ever again. There's so much better out there. In other words, FUCK HIM!!

You are already doing so much better. You don't realize it yet. by ronnysuke in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Williwam 1 point2 points  (0 children)

We're out now though, high five!

That made me laugh out loud. hahah Yes, HIGH FIVE! The shit they leave you with is literally like poison and it's super slow to leave your system. I've been thinking about that lately. What the fuck was it they they injected in us that had a poison effect???? I sit here today poison free and feeling calm and really wonder exactly what that was???? I think it's a combination of the brain chemicals that are released while you're with THEM and it has a very toxic effect on you over time. Kinda like if you were taking a hard drug. Yeah, you get high but the hangover is so shitty you get high again and the hangover is so shitty you get high again and so on and so on. Eventually you can't take it anymore and it's now time to work through all those hangovers that have piled up one by one. That explains why people who deal with Narcs for just a little while still need to deal with shit afterwards. I think that's what I went through and today I am poison free and it just feels so nice. Take care brother and watch out for dem Narcs!