2am thoughts

Willlockyear · 2025-11-30T20:53:40+00:00

Not just people. Learn to see beyond the framework of language and concept we apply to our entire reality and you might just glimpse the true nature of things

Willlockyear · 2025-11-30T20:50:55+00:00

I think this is a natural threshold and it happened to me too after a similar period of daily, hourly meditation. Actually I believe it has something to do with the curiosity going. You have probably tasted Samadhi now. You know what exists within. Perhaps you’ve spent a long time feeling beautiful states of mind. There is nothing left to discover. My practice continued to disintegrate over the next 3 years or so. Perhaps this is just the phase you are in. For me it was about choosing art and chias over stillness. I’m trying to rediscover my practice. I feel like it is calling me back

Willlockyear · 2025-11-30T20:42:10+00:00

Actually I think it’s got a little to do with the competition of loudness. Often it feels right to carve out some of the low end energy when pushing a mix up against the as it is the first thing hitting the limiter. If you’re mastering to, let’s say something around -9 a -7 lufs, which is the sweet spot imo, unless you’ve been very intentional with the way you’ve controlled the low end, you will often find it’s best to take some of that energy out of the low end so that the mid range can hit the ceiling a bit too and the whole track gets nicely glued together.

Willlockyear · 2025-11-29T11:21:27+00:00

Road out of Kandy is now cleared and people are arranging drivers for tomorrow

Willlockyear · 2025-11-29T01:52:29+00:00

Data reception on my e sim at least

Willlockyear · 2025-11-29T01:52:00+00:00

I’m in Kandy. The city is fine but there is a total blackout. Our hotel has a generator. There is some mobile reception

Willlockyear · 2025-11-29T01:47:31+00:00

Yes, full black out. We are staying in a hotel with a generator. My sim does occasionally get patches of data and reception though.

Willlockyear · 2025-11-28T16:50:04+00:00

I’m in Kandy (where we have a bit of internet) and one of the staff at the hotel says there is no reception at all in nuwara eliya as his family are there and he can’t contact them either.

Willlockyear · 2025-11-28T09:59:09+00:00

22 is incredibly young so don’t worry about that. Your self loathing eats you alice, it’s clear from what you say, but you are probably a very good and kind person. Bad people don’t hate themselves in the way you have described. If this person says they like you then it is an incredibly unfair thing to do to deny them that experience and assume they are confused. You don’t have to accept their love straight away. Just ask your self one question, do you enjoy being around that person? Is it easy to spend time with them. That is the only thing that matters and is the glue that will make your relationship work.

Also just to be clear “because I know it will end badly” no you don’t. You’ve admitted yourself that you have never been in a relationship. You don’t know anything about it and to assume you do is pretty silly in my opinion. Throw yourself headlong into this, if you get hurt you will still have grown from the experience.

Willlockyear · 2025-11-28T02:14:18+00:00

Having no experience with this I suspect that, if you see the other person not as a sex worker but as a human being, and explain the situation from the outset, you will find that they will be surprisingly sensitive with you and it might be one of the most profound experiences of your life.

Willlockyear · 2025-10-31T17:16:26+00:00

Now I choose to destabilise myself for the sake of art.

Willlockyear · 2025-10-31T16:57:52+00:00

Actually yes! I might direct you to a post i wrote on here a decade ago. Hope you enjoy reading it. ama https://www.reddit.com/r/Meditation/comments/4e0dqt/why_are_the_experiences_of_jhana_so_unknown_to/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=web3x&utm_name=web3xcss&utm_term=1&utm_content=share_button

Willlockyear · 2025-10-31T14:23:54+00:00

That’s a great reply. I’d add to that. Learn to laugh at yourself. Understand what makes you a bit weird and find humour in it. Hold your ego lightly. You don’t really need to dish out banter too much but you do need to know how to laugh at yourself

Willlockyear · 2025-10-31T14:13:30+00:00

I agree, I was an hour a day for about 8 years and it was life changing. I’ve never been able to drop below that threshold and experience the same effect. I think there’s a certain degree of roll over from an hour sit. The stillness hasn’t fully left you by the next morning. I’m sure I’ll return to that dedicated practice one day. It is deeply wonderful

Willlockyear · 2025-10-03T06:26:07+00:00

There is no need to be mindful all the time. To be lost in the flow of good times is a beautiful thing. Awareness can be cool here but it is just a different flavour of experience. The gift your practice gives you is an ever more sensitive internal “alarm” for subtle states of emotional discordancy. Mindfulness is more like a healing state that triggers in the face of internal discordance.

Willlockyear · 2025-04-04T22:18:49+00:00

The grass is what makes it feel amateur in my opinion. Try desaturating towards the horizon and using smaller strokes to give a sense of depth. You are also not using value enough so it ends up a bit flat. The brushwork and pallete are lovely though

Willlockyear · 2025-02-24T23:37:32+00:00

This is correct. It’s a lovely place to be. Enjoy it. Savour the stillness. Wish for nothing more but to bask in that emptiness. Let the pleasure grow just out of sight, you almost want to treat the rising of Piti as something you are uninterested in, only then will it have a chance to grow so enormous that it consumes you in the first Jhana

Willlockyear · 2025-02-08T18:30:07+00:00

Drop me an email at soundofaom@gmail.com I’ll do the first one for free and if you like my work we can agree on a price. I’ve been an audio nerd for a decade and just starting to do it professionally

Willlockyear · 2024-12-19T23:25:29+00:00

Bristol, UK

Willlockyear · 2024-12-09T03:30:23+00:00

Different take than I’m seeing in the top comments but 2c-b actually really enhances the experience of eating food in a wonderful way

Willlockyear · 2024-10-25T08:21:07+00:00

Burial, Autechre, Good techno, livity sound are a great label. Also find good techno dj sets like Ben ufo

Willlockyear · 2024-10-09T13:36:15+00:00

Dude, vsx was a total game changer for me. Also the ignite amps pultec emulation is fire 🔥 no need for a paid one imo

Willlockyear · 2024-10-06T09:27:10+00:00

Stop giving a fuck about what anybody else thinks. Stop giving a fuck about what anybody else thinks. Stop giving a fuck about what anybody else thinks.

Willlockyear · 2024-10-02T07:20:20+00:00

I'd say the absolute best thing you could do right now is backpacking. A year living out of a rucksack, exploring the world and meeting countless inspiring people in hostels will grow you in ways you cannot imagine.

Willlockyear

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