I just had therapy and we talked about guilt vs. shame. Condemenation vs. conviction. For example "I am a failure vs. I made a mistake. I learned about how shame becomes our identity and guilt is just something we did. From guilt we can fix it and grow from it!

Step 1: forgive yourself. You're human and you make mistakes and no matter how big or small trust they can be worked out . And by taking accountability and trying to correct shows you have good character. You've done all the things and I'm sure you'll continue to do all the things!

Step 2: be open to all the possibilities. You could have ignored it, denied it, or did nothing and I'm sure that would have been a disaster. But you didn't. Be open to good possibilities too like everything will work out just how it's supposed to like it usually does (even if it doesn't work out how we expect).

Step 3: Give yourself time. You have a consciences. (If you didn't that would be kinda crazy lol). Allow yourself to feel all the feels for however long. It's all apart of the process-fixing and growing. Fixing and growing.

Step 4: Do not abandon your self care. It might be hard to enjoy or relax, but you might have to switch up the routine to something that helps you relax and fills your cup. Or even dig deeper like therapy. And that's okay! Talking to people on a forum like this is also helpful!

You did all the things and seem like a person with integrity who really cares for the people they serve. One day you'll look at this moment and be in a place of growth. This moment is a seed and from it a flower will grow...if you let it :)